Not much went on today. We slept in. Went to lunch (Rick is still moving slowly), ran a few errands then came back to the house. We surprised Bob and Dy with dinner tonight, New York Steaks, red potatoes with garlic, sauteed mushooms and onions....They did the dishes. It worked out perfectly.
What I did have today was...way too much time on my hands to think. I guess when I'm at home, I have multiple things going on all at once so it doesn't give me time to sit and reflect. Or face reality, whatever you want to call it. Today, I worried about greiving. I feel like I've already been greiving, but for what? Our life is pretty great, all things considered. Is it ok to grieve about lost health? I watched the movie signs last night so I worried that I was suppose to notice a "sign" about life and I haven't figured it out yet. Then I worried about aliens (because they were in the movie) I worried about how sad my parents and children get when we talk seriously. I've been worrying about Thursday and hope that Rick's body will handle the procedure well. I worried that we would run out of gas before we filled up (honestly, our gas light has been on since we got to Spokane). Enough about all this. We filled the tank, that's one thing to take off my worry list.
I didn't prepare very well for this trip. I packed a sad book, no knitting, nothing humerous, a Suduko book with only hard puzzles left, oh...and some work from school. I've read all Dy's magazines, her house is spotless so I can't clean anything for her, Bob just added 83 new channels to their already 590 channels...so it takes all day just to find Ellen and Oprah. Perhaps I should work on that book I started a year ago "I love you more than".
I love you more than all the things I worried about today. (You ARE LOVED)