It's early on Friday morning and I'm done sleeping for the day. I've been thinking about this appointment a lot lately. I'm confident that everything is going to be ok, but anytime we do lab work or scans my anxiety level raises a few notches.
The girls are coming with Rick and I to the Seattle Cance Care Alliance today. We've promised to call Jake, and Grandma and Grandpa, and Aunt Vickie, and Pam, and Janeen, and Peggy and Kim, and Dawn, etc.....as soon as we know anything - good (or not so good - which won't be the case). I am so fortunate to have my family's support all the time. They know I would do the same for them, but they still amaze me - everyday!
I joined the girls at Starbuck's yesterday afternoon for a little brainstorming meeting. They (along with their team of strong women...have some wonderful ideas to promote awareness and a cure for lung cancer...watch for upcoming events) For those of you who don't know our daughters...they don't give up, EVER!
I've been sitting at my computer for about 20 minutes now because I keep writing, then erasing whatever it is I've written. I want to give you all the candy coated version of today, but in all honesty, I'm SCARED. Not because I'm feeling sick...but because I'm feeling different. I know different doesn't have to mean bad but at all my other appointments I've usually only felt better or didn't have any change. If nothing else, we might get to stop by Dick's for hamburgers on the way home, so it can't be all that bad. :)
I was given some incredible hope last night on the phone when I spoke with my newest friend Kay from Lung Cancer Alliance. She is going to hook me up with a couple of phone buddies (women in their 40's - never smoked- stage 4 lung cancer- 2+ year survivors). I knew there were others out there that I could connect with. They live in Boston and Maryland. I'l keep you posted on my chats with them.
I'd best be heading off to the shower so I can go to work for a couple of hours. It will keep my mind off the rest of the day.
Love you more than all the money spent on cigarette sales in the US everyday.