I'm "Feeling" it tonight

Somedays I sit down at the computer and ....NOTHING. I can't think of a positive, negative, boring, exciting thing to say. Then other times, like tonight...I'm afraid I won't be able to shut my pie hole. But, here goes.

We're back from our journey to Palm Springs. We had so many suggestions for things to do, many of which we failed to complete. Instead, we just relaxed. We enjoyed our company. We went to the movies. Our lives were enriched just by the people we were around. It was nice to get away for a few days even if we didn't get a tan. Tans are over rated anyway. They can cause skin cancer and that's the last thing we need.

While we were gone, I read "For One More Day" by Mitch Albom. It's a very short story about the love we have for our mothers. It's a must read. I know how much I am loved by my children, not just by their words, but by their actions. Each day I can truly say that at least one of our children shows us their love and appreciation by something they've said or done. From filling the garage with firewood, to unloading the dishwasher (because, when they stopped by no one was home so they thought they could just help out a little), to a phone call every morning followed by an "I love you more". I realized as I read this book, that with all the things going on in our lives right now, I have forgotten my own mom. Not "forgotten" her. But forgotten to let her know how much I appreciate all she has done and still continues to do for me. Without her unconditional and undying love, I wouldn't be where I am today. Not everyone is as lucky as I have been to have parents who love you even when you're bad. (This was only a time or two I'm sure, but no matter what...they never left my side) Thank you Dad and Mom. I know I'm your favorite (I promise not to tell).

I am approaching the 9 month mark for Tarceva. I find it hard sometimes to even think about my illness when the road we have in front of us for Rick's treatment seems unbearable. I know we are not alone, but it's still hard to grasp. This next month will be a test of our patience, faith, energy and love. Please bear with us.

I had a fun time with Angie today. (We were hoping Amy could join us, but I'll spend a special day alone with her soon - then Jake will be home the end of March and we'll get a chance to do the same) We had lunch with Rick, ran some errands, visited my mom and dad, stopped and saw some old friends, then had our nails done (my hands, her feet). I don't get a chance to spend one on one quality time with the kids, so days like today are very special.

Tonight we went to dinner with our friends, Dave and Val. I can never get too much of them. They make us laugh (and sometimes cry) but most importantly, we can alway count on them. Isn't it wonderful to surround yourself with people like this?

Health Update: Rick is feeling better every day. I feel great just nervous for the unknown. Next Tuesday will be a big day for Rick. He has a PET scan (all over his body to make sure the cancer hasn't spread any place else), then he gets a portacath in his chest so it's easier to administer his chemo and other drugs, followed bymeetings and appointments that range from 7:45 am and the last one begins at 3:45pm. It will be a long day...One of many I'm sure. His first treatment is scheduled for the 30th another long day, but worth it for the end results.

Ok, that's it for tonight. I've rambled enough.

I love you more everyday.....
Doreen

P.S. I'm going to work tomorrow for a while. I can't wait to see everyone. (oh, and get some work done)