Monday, July 17, 2006
Ok, now I feel rested. Though this vacation was not what my family was wanting for me (they would like to have flown us somewhere far away for at least a week) it turned out to be just what I needed. The whole idea was for us to be together and away from the hustle and bustle of our daily lives. That is what we got. We saw beauty. We smelled fresh air. We played games and watched movies. And kayaked. I invented meals. I made up new dances. We laughed.
I believe the initial response to my diagnosis was, let's get away from it. I know now that we can't run from it. Instead, we'll embrace what it has brought us. A deeper love for each other. Awareness. More laughter. Oh, don't get me wrong. We're not giving up. As a matter of fact, times like this with my family around me, make me want to fight even harder than I already do. I should have a shirt made that says, "When you mess with me, Lung Cancer, you mess with my whole family".
Sometimes we get sad. And when we do...the tears flow like lava. Often times, it's a happy moment that sets it off. I'm sure this is a normal reaction but it doesn't make the hurt any less painful. We just keep believing. That's what will keep us going.
We are very lucky to be surrounded by so many thoughtful people. Thanks again for loving and supporting us like you do.
Posted by Doreen at 8:05 AM