Bobby and Dy...when I needed them most

After a long busy day of gardening, painting, crying out of the blue on more than one occasion. We were invited to a party at some friends who live in a beautiful adobe house down on the water. We went to the party with our friends and relatives...and had a wonderful time. While we were there, I lost Rick again. No one seemed to know where he had gone, but there were plenty of people watching him so I figured he'd be back soon. Sure enough, before I knew it, I was staring in the face of Bobby and Dy who made the trek to Desert Aire to see us(Rick went to pick them up to surprise me). It couldn't have come at a better time. Their sense of humor and love was just what the doctor ordered to get me out of my SLUMP...



We've been up visiting, watching movies and laughing all morning. Today is going to be a better day, I can feel it already.



The weather is very pleasant today. A little too much wind but the temperature is perfect.



Jake and Megan are going to stop over today on their way back from the Potholes.



Have a safe and very happy Labor Day.



Dreaming Big,

Dor

Happy 700th Blog

Can you believe it? 700 times I've blabbered about life as I know it. And...life as I've made up.
I'm over at Desert Aire, sitting at Pat and Susie's wathing the Seahawk game. I'm drinking red wine that I believe has been made here in the Mattawa Valley, enjoying the company of friends and family.

I learned today that my Aunt Janet passed away. (actually, she was my cousin but I've always called her my auntie). As we get older and our families grow, we don't get together as often as usual. When I get back to the West side of the State I plan on stopping at their home and seeing the family. What I learned tonight from her daughter is, Aunt Janet took her grandkids on vacation during the earlier part of August, felt cruddy when she returned, when to the hopsital shortly after she returned home, and died in the hospital. My heart is so sad that I wasn't able to spend some time with her during her last days. I really loved her sense of humor. She will be missed.

I slept the entire ride over the mountain today. After a day full of crying and sleeping I was worn out. Hopefully, after a weekend of relaxing and laughing...I'll be ready to get back to the place we call the "real world".

I'd better go now so I can visit all our company.

P.S. It was a comfortable 92 degrees when we got here today.

Love you lots,
Doreen

Zzzzz.ZZZZ.zzzzz.ZZZz...

I've discovered recently that wife-ing, mothering, friend-ing, neighboring and living are all much more important jobs than working. I've done my share of running myself ragged (which should not be confused with running myself "thin") doing all the things that matter most in my life. This afternoon, I ran into a glitch. After celebrating a nice lunch with my friend Kim, I went to Angie's school to help her with some last minute items before school starts next week. She had a little to do list that her mother couldn't screw up so I went to help out. I had been at Jake's school last night until around 8:30 helping him get ready for his open house tonight. During all of this excitement, I offered to cut Angie's hair after we finished at her office. We took a quick trip to her house, I cut her hair all the while I was fighting exhaustion. After the haircut, I apparently laid on Angie's bed and woke up after 6:00pm tonight with a blanket and pillow surrounding me. Angie said I nearly passed out from exhaustion, so she called dad who also agreed I'd been going at full speed ahead lately, so they just let me sleep. In the middle of the day. When I had things to do.

Oh enough rambling. Even after all the sleep I got this afternoon, I'm still very fatigued tonight. This is something new for me. Perhaps I should listen to my body and rest more often. BORING.

Tonight, Rick took me out for dinner and as I looked across the table I couldn't imagine a moment like that with anyone but him. This new chemo cocktail needs to pull through for us. I've learned a great deal about life in these past 28 months. I think I'm due for a break.

Our last few visits over to Desert Aire have been exciting, busy times, with a houseful of people. This weekend it will be just the two of us, a couple of new books, sudoku, some popcorn and movies... and our pajamas (or lounge wear, as I may be calling them if I don't change my clothes)!

Have a fun but CAREFUL Labor Day Weekend. Remember "The trouble with trouble is that it usually starts out as fun".

Love you more,
Dor

Accentuate the Positive

Sometimes we read or hear something that changes the way we view an unfortunate situation. Yesterday was one of those days for me. I have attached the reading that brightened my day. Enjoy!

Accentuate the Positive

Two Physicians were overheard discussing a paper they were to deliver at a national meeting of cancer specialists. One was complaining bitterly. "I don't understand it, Bob. We use the same drugs, the same dosage and the same schedule of treatment. Yet I get a 22% recovery rate and you get a 74% recovery rate. How do you explain that?"

The other responded, "We both use Etoposide, Platinol, Oncovin and Hydroxurea. You tell people you're giving them EPOH. I tell people that I'm giving them HOPE, and I work hard to emphasize that they have a chance."

Are you accentuating the positive in your relationships with others? If not, start now. It makes a difference.

-Norman Cousins, Head First

Dreaming and full of HOPE,
Angie

Where's Rick?

You know that feeling you get when your child gets out of your sight in a crowd? Or when you're suppose to meet someone at a certain time and they don't arrive, but you heard a siren and you're sure it had something to do with them not showing up? When your mind wanders with worry as mine sometimes does, a small bump in my road can become a crevice. Like yesterday.

My sister in law Vickie went with Rick and I for his long day of testing. Because Rick had appointments at more than one location, I dropped him off at the University of Washington (so they could get started on his 3 hour PET scan) then Vickie and I parked at SCCA and took the shuttle back to the UW. During those 3 hours, Vickie and I visited, read magazines, played Yahtzee (in the waiting room) all the while I kept checking in at the radiology desk to see how Rick was doing. They assured me that things were fine, and he would be done shortly. Shortly turned into another hour so I had them check on him again. They said he just finished and would be out soon. Another 20 minutes went by and Rick was due over at Seattle Cancer Care for a CT scan. I apologized for annoying the poor staff, but could they please call SCCA and tell them that Rick would be late because he wasn't done yet. After making the call, they paged me to say Rick had been released over an hour ago (at the University of Washington) and was already at SCCA drinking the contrast for his CT scan. ???How could that be. I was the faithful, loving wife sitting in the waiting room worrying that my husband would get to his appointment on time? I was the one who would hold his hand like I always do and check in for the next step of our journey. Apparently not! Instead, they sent Rick out a back door and pointed him in the direction of the shuttle so he could get to the right location for his next appointment. Deep in the dungeon of the University of Washington hospital there is no cell service. So here's what I learned yesterday... love and technology do not always work when you most want them to.

In the end, Vickie and I finally caught a shuttle, found Rick, held his hand the rest of the day so we wouldn't lose him again and made it out of Seattle alive. Once we arrived home, I made a little dinner for Rick and Jake, put my jammies on to relax after my stressful day and I just now woke up (at 5:00am). Apparently, I needed the rest after being on "Rick Alert" all day. We can laugh about it now... Thanks again to Vickie who kept me sane (or as sane as possible) during the Rick search.

In all seriousness (not that I ever am), Rick had blood work, a PET scan, more blood work, CT Scan, and an EKG yesterday. We won't have any test results until next Tuesday when they make their final decision whether he can be in the clinical trial. In the meantime, we're going to have fun, get some work done around the house, hopefully go to Desert Aire for Labor Day, and just keep enjoying life.

Laughter is the best medicine....once I remembered that yesterday, everything went fine.

Dream Big,
Dor

Weekend Update

Got up Friday morning, did some cleaning, waited for Megan to arrive from Seattle, did some shopping in Mt. Vernon, tried on a few Mother of the Groom dresses, went out for dinner with Rick, Jake and Megan. Woke up Saturday, had my nails done, went to a wedding, had a wonderful time, got a good nights sleep, went to the early service of church this morning, drove to Mt. Vernon to try the mother of the groom dress on again (took my neighbor and good friend Lynell along for moral support), ordered the dress, went to lunch. Came home, cleaned and vacuumed out the car, cooked, did laundry, vacuumed the house, dusted, did more laundry, watched a movie and now it's time to go to bed because tomorrow is a very busy day for Rick in Seattle.

The first set of tests begins at 8:00 am at the UW and the last one of the day is at 3:00pm at the Seattle Cancer Care. Rick's sister Vickie is joining me for the day. I need the moral support and love.

I'll write more tomorrow night to let you know how everything went.

Dreaming Big,
Doreen

Happy Friday

Today was a nice day as I ran errands, made deliveries of all the items I was giving away. I met up with Megan (the daughter in law to be) and she went to Mt. Vernon with me. Jake met us later, we checked out tuxedos, I tried on dresses for the wedding (and I may have found one).

After our quick trip to Mt. Vernon, we met Rick at Amigo's for a great dinner.

I've found myself a little tearier that usual lately but I think that might be a normal response to the situation at hand. Tomorrow I think we'll go to the sidewalk sale in downtown Stanwood , then head off to a wedding of Jake's high school buddy.

Rick is doing fine. If you didn't now better, you'd think life at the Schmitt house was "just fine".

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Good Evening Friends and Family

Today I purged. In a good way. I went through closets, and drawers, and boxes...then had a fashion show with friends who stopped by. I made them try on clothes that no longer fit (and if they did...they had to take them home)I came to the conclusion that I am who I am and I must be happy with this body. She is alive. I'm not the sickly woman who wore a size 8. As a matter of fact I skipped right by skinny clothes as a kid. I've got a big heart and I need a body that can handle it. Ok, I think I'm done now. Dammit!

With all the emotion that's been running wild around our house, I had a mini melt-down last night that I carried with me throughout the day. I came home after my appointment, thrilled with the results but feeling sad for Rick that he hasn't had those same kind of positive appointments. I know Rick is happy that I'm happy, but I need him to feel the same kind of hope I do. Today, I never got out of my PJ's until Lynell called and asked me to go for a walk. I was more than happy to put on my walking shoes and get some fresh air.

I can't believe that Angie and Jake will be starting school next week. They have been working on their classrooms for weeks now, but they're looking forward to the kids that will be filling their rooms. Angie's school is still working on their contract (I sure hope they don't go on strike again...unless it's necessary) and I believe Stanwood's contract is all settled.

Next Monday will be a day filled with tests, scans, blood work, Pet scans, questionnaires, etc. Once that day is over, I think Rick and I have 5 days in a row without any cancer related meetings, events, or appointments to attend. Maybe we should take a vacation?

I'd better sign off now. It's time to get out there and walk 5 miles of frustration off. I have a lot more than that to work off, but I don't' want to mame my walking partner in the process.

Dreaming with my new walking shoes on,
Doreen

Anyone for some good news?

We finally received the good news we have been hoping for. Mom is "stable". No new growth. No new spots. I take that back, one spot grew one millimeter. As a family we have agreed that a one millimeter growth every two months is acceptable.... for the next 20 years. No complaints.

There is something small showing up on the scan in one of her lungs which appears to be inflamation. They said it is very small, but it could be the reason she has been coughing more. They gave her some new pills to try and stop the inflamation, but they assured us that it is very minimal and should be gone within a few days.

With the extra coughing and more frequent headaches mom has been having lately, I think we were expecting some change in the scan. We were pleasantly surprised. Keep the prayers and positive thoughts coming our way. They seem to be working.

Smiling again-
The Schmitt's

Scan Done. Results Tomorrow.

The scan was uneventful today and I had a wonderful afternoon with Cathy. We won't know anything until tomorrow but like I've said a million times (and I never exaggerate), I'm sure everything is fine.

When I arrived home, our freezer was outside the garage on the driveway. Broken. Apparently when Rick got home this afternoon, he noticed the problem and nearly everything was ruined. I was able to save some items that were still frozen solid but it made a terrible mess and I've been cooking all evening. We will be having turkey and steaks for the next couple of days. It too, was only a minor problem in this thing we call "LIFE". Sadly...it was the freezer with the good ice cream bars. They are now "ice cream soup". :)

I'm looking forward to my day tomorrow. Not because I'm going to the Seattle Cancer Care, but because Amy and Angie will be going with me. It's been a while since just the 3 of us girls made the trek. They are such good listeners and question askers. If anything new arises, they will be sure to get all the information before we leave the doctor's office. I'm hoping to take them to lunch when we're through and catch up on their lives.

Dreaming Big and Healthy,
Dor

Rainy days and Mondays

Today was another learning day. I swear I could get my Doctorate with just a few more classes. Here's what today brought. We hit a little glitch in the clinical trial area. Rick body has to be clear of all chemotherapy for 6 weeks before he can start this study/trial. His last chemo was on July 22nd so he won't be able to start anything until the first week of September. I'm hoping that the next couple of weeks will be a healing time for him so when experimental stuff starts, his body will be as healthy as possible. So far, Rick is still looking like a good candidate.

This weekend as I played Wii boxing at Desert Aire I noticed for the first time that when I get winded, it takes a long time for my body to recover. I guess since I have lung cancer, that would be a normal occurrence, but I had never noticed it like I did this weekend. Walking doesn't fatigue me, but whenever I do something with lots of cardio I can't get air back into my lungs fast enough. You know what that means? Slow down :)

Tonight I had a wonderful time at my friend Jana's. She invited a bunch of girls (ok, we're women) over for conversation, games, food and friendship. I think we should do that more often. The only problem I see is that we'll need to start earlier in the day, because when you get a bunch of women together...we can talk for hours. The gathering started at 4:00 and I didn't get home until 9:40pm which is why this blog is coming so late.

Tomorrow is scan day for me, and my dear friend Cathy will be going with me to SCCA. We've decided to do a little shopping on the way home if everything goes well. The results come on Wednesday and for the first time ever...I've been thinking of every possible excuse I can come up with to skip these next couple of days all together. As much as I'm sure that I will still be "stable", there is always that "chance". Honestly, I'm still grasping what is going on with Rick and I find that much harder to do than dealing with my own cancer.

I'd better go to bed now. I have a big day ahead of me and I need to do well on my "tests" tomorrow.

Dream Big,
Doreen

Holy Heat Wave

Just before we left to come home today, Rick checked the thermometer....109 degrees. Ugh! Oddly enough, we started getting used to it, so by the time I got home tonight and the temp was 65 I almost needed a parka.

We're hoping to hear from Seattle Cancer Care tomorrow the plans for this coming week. The anticipation of what's to come can be overwhelming at times. Just give us dates/times/plans and we'll go where ever you need us.

Here's what I learned as I read the paperwork that Rick signed on Thursday for the clinical trial. He will be one of only 50 people across America and Canada in the study (and only 5 from Seattle Cancer Care). The study is in phase 2 which means it's still fairly new. Let's just hope and pray that Rick can tolerate what this new drug will bring.

Thanks again for all your e-mails and comments on the blog. Your love is like aloe vera on a sunburn....soothing and comforting.

Keep Dreaming Big,
Doreen

We're melting....

We're over here at Desert Aire (what I loving refer to as our Heaven on Earth...only today it feels a little more like hell) where the weather is currently 103.3 degrees. We've been sitting around our blow up pool, drinking frozen fruity drinks and enjoying the company. This weekend, Rick's sister Vickie, her husband Tom, Rick's brother Jeff and his wife Dawn and their 2 daughters joined us for a little family bonding. It's nice to be distracted with things that make you happy when the option is to have a bunch of idle time to worry.

This afternoon, back on the coast, Amy, Angie, Jake, Shannon, Melana and Megan are all going to the Seahawk game. It's nice when the kids can just get together, laugh, play, enjoy the things they used to do B.C. (before cancer).

I'd better go visit my guests.

Love you more than all the beads of sweat running down my forehead.

Dreaming HOT and Big,
Dor

I've gathered my thoughts and here they are!

Here I am in front of the computer hoping to find deep and meaningful words to share with all of you about hope and courage. It may take a while to come up with some, but I'll keep working on it until I muster something up.


Here is what we know: Rick's chemo is no longer working. The cancer is spreading in his liver and the tumors are all getting bigger. The next step is to try a drug combination which includes a drug called Erbitux (it has some nasty side effects...but if it gives him quantity and quality of life I think he'll try it) Before they try that drug however, they have to check his DNA to see if he is a good candidate. (They need to look for a certain gene) In the meantime, he is a good candidate (they think) for a clinical trial. Dr. Whiting says they'll move quickly on this leg of the journey which will include a PET scan, blood work, DNA testing, EKG and drawing straws. Rick won't know until we get a little further into the clinical trial if he will be one of the 25% who has to have chemo one last time before the trial begins, or if he can forge ahead and start the trial next week. We hope to have some answers about the timeline of this trial by tomorrow.



All of this is so surreal to me because when I look at Rick he seems healthy, he's still working, and mowing the lawns (when Jake doesn't get to them first). After the initial prognosis today, Rick got very quiet. However, as I looked into his eyes I could see his mind working harder than ever. He wants to make sure that everything is "taken" care of. He's the provider. Only now, he's uncertain about his future, the unknown, the "new stuff". Lucky for him, he has me to hold his hand, be inappropriate at all the right times, make him laugh, snuggle with him when he's not feeling well. Love is an amazing medicine. I'm going to start doubling up on his dose.

With all of this new information to digest, I'm not ready to go for my scans and results next week. I'm feeling good and I don't anticipate any changes, but we NEVER do. Let's hope after a fun weekend at Desert Aire that we'll be refreshed and recharged to take on whatever our new battles are.

Thanks again for all your love and support. Our lives are so much richer knowing that we have so much love coming our way.

Dreaming BIGGER than EVER!
Dor

Blog #688.... is not that great.

It is not a good day for the Schmitt family. Rick's scan results were not what we were hoping for. All of the cancer spots have grown and there are new spots as well. He will likely stop his chemo and begin a clinical trial. Everything seems to be moving in slow motion for us right now so please bear with us as we digest the lastest news. We will come up with a plan and write more later. In the mean time, please keep our family in your thoughts.

One day at a time-
The Schmitt's

Happy Birthday Janeen

Today was my buddy Janeen's 55th birthday (she still looks smokin' hot) so we celebrated by spending the day at Pam's house on the lake. We had ate, laughed, went boating, ate a little more, had birthday cake then called it a night. I love spending time with my friends. It really is good medicine. Angie spent the day with us at Pam's as well. Sometimes I think she looks at me and wonders???who is the parent and who is the child??? I know she loves me even when I'm goofy. :)

After I got back from Pam's I called my favorite walker and dear friend Lynell and we went for an evening stroll. Last week we didn't miss a day, and this week we hadn't been once. It felt so good to get back out on the pavement again. I am so lucky to have such wonderful people in my life.

We get results tomorrow from the scan Rick had on Tuesday. Angie is going to meet us down there, Amy will be joining us next week for my results. Jake might join us next week as well.
After the doctor's visit, we are hightailing it over to Desert Aire for a fun filled weekend. Rick's sister Vickie and her husband will join us after work on Friday. It always proves to be silly when Vickie and I get together.

I'm very tired tonight and I'm not done packing for our weekend, so until tomorrow (someone will write on the blog as soon as we get a chance - I promise) Keep Dreaming Big,

Dor

Waiting for Results

Scan day was pretty uneventful. We arrived in Seattle at 7:30 this morning where Rick had blood work done then had to drink 2 bottles of icky tasting contrast before his CT scan. Like usual, he tried to get me to drink some of it (no such luck). Rick's scans are always with a contrast so they can measure the growth (or shrinkage) of his tumors better. Oh, how I wish I didn't know about all this stuff! No results until Thursday. I'll let you know...as soon as I hear something.

I booked my flight tonight for the Relay for Life Summit in Reno this year. Because I have a team that raised over $20,000, I've been invited to this special event (as a top fundraiser in our region). I'm excited to meet the amazing people my daughters have talked about all year.

After my long weekend and a busy day today, I ended up taking a nap this afternoon. Oh, how I wish I were 3 again and it was mandatory to "rest" in the afternoon. I feel refreshed...perhaps I'll do that more often.

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Made it home safely :)

Well, we made it back from Portland and I must say, we had a wonderful time. Yesterday was jam packed with fun, then we got home and started watching the Olympics and before I knew it, I was asleep in the chair and Angie had to wake me to go to bed. I had a bad hair day the entire time I was gone, but lucky for me, I have a sister in law that is a miracle worker and she gave me a really cute haircut tonight. I had her cut it short and I love it. I'm attaching a photo (although it's much cuter in person).

Tomorrow is scan day for Rick and like usual it's hard not to think of all the "what ifs?". I'm hoping that because he hasn't felt his best lately, that means the chemo is really working. We'll have the results on Thursday and I promise to post them when we find something out. Please keep us in your prayers.

Though Rick is feeling better than he was a couple of weeks ago, he just doesn't' feel like himself. I hope this chemo vacation is giving his body the rest it needs.

I know I haven't mentioned Lung Cancer lately and it's not that I don't think of it every day but, sometimes it just overwhelms me when I have to be "real" about it. So every chance I get, I try to pretend that it went away like it did for my friend from General Hospital. (I know it's a soap opera, but I told her once I'd like to take the medicine they were prescribing her on the show). I have a scan next Tuesday and results on Wednesday. These next couple of weeks will be emotional ones, but I believe we'll hear good news from both of our doctors.

I had a comment on Saturday's blog from a student at Purdue. Here's what he had to say: My name is Justin Guild and I’m a graduate research assistant currently working with Dr. Jeong-Nam Kim at Purdue University on a health communication study. Specifically, our research explores how information sharing behavior through online communities (such as blogs) influences coping strategies among people with chronic conditions including cancer, diabetes, depression, etc. and their family members.

I'm going to let him use our blog for their study and hopefully he'll learn some really great things. He has asked me to put a link to his "study site" on the web page and if you get a chance to do so, please take the little survey. Thanks for helping make a difference in this students life, as well as mine. (update: I just took the survey and it's directed more for people who are sick...do you know anyone like that? For now, I'm not going to put it on the blog, but instead, I'll e-mail him and let him know that my blog is for people who pretend not to be sick) Seriously, I think it's a survey for medical blog sites not "life sites".

Love you more than all the steps Lynell and I took last week (over 20 miles worth)

Dreaming Big,
Doreen

Walkin' the Talk in Longview

What a busy day! Angie, Shannon and I woke up this morning and drove to Longview Washington to listen to Angie speak at the Cowlitz county Relay for Life. We spent 3 hours walking the track, meeting other inspiring volunteers and getting an abundance of hugs from their survivors (2 of them adopted me as their "new best friend forever" - NBFF). Angie and I were greeted with beautiful hand made necklaces from thier committee and thanked repeatedly for participating in their event. Little did they know we were the ones who felt thankful for being invited.

Angie's speech was phenomenal! There wasn't a dry eye in the house (including hers) and you could hear a pin drop. It was so quiet and it felt like the crowd was hanging on her every word. Shannon videotaped the entire speech and we will do our best to post it on the blog for your viewing pleasure as well. As we have done with the other Relay's we've attended throughout the summer, we took photos of the many great ideas that the Cowlitz County ACS volunteers had to offer. I was thrilled to be greeted by my blog friend Sonya who lives just 15 minutes south of Longview. We had never met but had communicated online for months. I think she adorable and was so excited to meet her! I have invited her to Stanwood's 2009 Relay and I know we will get her hooked on Relay in no time.

After returning back to Portland, we went out to Shannon's mom's house in Hillsboro, Oregon for a meet-and-greet BBQ. The food was fabulous and I got to meet Shannon's entire family. We talked for hours, watched Angie's speech video (and cried...again) and enjoyed the Olympics. I only had one clutsy moment where I smashed my fingers on the lawn furniture but after a few bloody napkins and a couple of band-aids I am basically like new.

I am attaching some photos of today's events; hope you enjoy them. Tomorrow I plan to wake up and make the girls a yummy breakfast before heading off to the Saturday Market (on Sunday) and eventually to the Bite of Oregon. Angie and I will be heading back on Monday morning in order to get me back in time for my Physical Therapy appointment. It seems like there is always something planned...

I have been in contact with Rick througout the weekend and he seems to be feeling much better. When I talked to him tonight he was out in the field trying to pick up bales of hay in the rain. I hope he remembers not to over do it.

Enjoying Portland and Dreaming Big-

Dor

Let the weekend begin

It's been a busy weekend already and it's only Friday night. Angie and I came to Portland (and we're staying with Shannon) so we can get ready for the big speech tomorrow. When we're done at the Relay for Life event, we are going to a picnic at Shannon's mom's house. I hope I won't be quizzed on all the people I meet tomorrow. I'm afraid I won't pass the test.

Since we'll be down here all weekend, we are going to the Bite of Portland, the Saturday Market, do a little shopping, and eat at some fabulous restaurants.

Rick continues to get better every day. I am so thankful for that. I tried calling him tonight but he didn't answer. That's a sign he was feeling really good so he's outside working. :)

I'm not sure what I did to my foot, but I've noticed that it's been swelling. It doesn't hurt very bad, but it feels really tight. Hopefully it's just from my little stumble yesterday while I was in LaConner. It needs to get better by my walk on Monday or Tuesday. This week Lynell and I walked over 20 miles. Not bad for 2 old ladies.

I'm really sleepy after my long day, so I'll say goodnight. I'll let you know how the day goes tomorrow. I'm sure I'll be a proud mama listening to Angie tell her story in front of all those folks from Cowlitz County.

Dreaming Big (and tired)
Dor

Charlie's Angels Take Over LaConner

Pam, Janeen and I (aka. Charlie's Angels) left this morning (after my 5 mile walk in Conway) for a beautiful day in LaConner. We had a great time and finally looked at our watches (thinking it might be 3:00 or so) instead it was already 5:30). It's funny how time can just slip away from you when you're having so much fun.

Rick is still feeling pretty good. His medications are giving him a few side effects, but they tell him that's to be expected. I'm a little anxious that I'm leaving him alone this weekend when I head down south, but he assures me that he's a big boy and he'll be fine.

It just dawned on me that the Olympics are right around the corner. I forgot how the Olympics are also a good way to track our survival. I should find out where they will be held (4 years from now) and buy some tickets to watch an event or two. That's a guarantee I'll be around in 4 years. I would never let a ticket go to waste!

My sister/brother in law woke this morning to: car after car honking as they drove past their house. Rick and I were a little sneaky last night and posted signs in their front yard that said, HONK, IT'S OUR 25th WEDDING ANNIVERSARY. Vickie finally jumped out of bed this morning to see if the neighbor dog was on the road or if their house was on fire. Instead, she was surprised by our artwork in their yard. She's not mad (anymore). I think she's just relieved that the house wasn't on fire. :)

I'd better say goodnight. I've got a big day planned tomorrow.

Oh, by the way...I'm doing great!

Love and Sweet Dreams,
Dor

Happy Anniversary Vickie and Tom

Tom and Vickie (Rick's sister and her husband) are celebrating their 25th wedding anniversary today. I've been a part of the Schmitt family for nearly 35 years so I look at Vickie as my sister and friend, not just my sister in law. When I think of all the good, fun, bad and sad times we've been through I couldn't think of a person I'd rather share those experiences with.

They are planning on celebrating this occasion on a cruise to the Caribbean (Belize, Cozumel, Key West). I've been thinking about stowing away in their suitcase (problem is, there's a weight limit).

Here's wishing them many more years of love and laughter.

Dreaming Bigger than Ever,
Dor

Late night report...

We set out today for a "normal" morning walk/talk session. Over 2 hours later and 5 1/2 miles, my neighbor and I finally arrived back home. If we keep up this madness, we'll be walking a marathon every week. :) The funny thing is the time flies by while we're out there enjoying the fresh air, birds chirping, and each other's company.

Rick has felt much, much, better today. His appetite has already improved, no sick feeling and he's feisty. I'd say...normal (but that would be a stretch of the imagination). I'm so happy to have him up and running as usual.

I decided that I'm going to tag along with Angie this weekend while she is the guest speaker for opening ceremonies for Relay for Life in Vancouver (unless Rick starts feeling weak again). We are going to stay with her dear friend Shannon for the rest of the weekend in Portland (for what sounds like a fun filled couple of days).

I had a nice lunch with Amy and Angie (and Rick) at Jimmy's Pizza today. Jake stayed back home and weedwacked (but we brought him lunch so he didn't go hungry). Angie and I spent the rest of the day finishing up the bag of fun stuff we made for my sister-in-law and brother-in-law for their 25th wedding anniversary. Rick and I brought it to them tonight and they loved it. We have another special surprise for them tomorrow when they wake up. But Shhh...it's a secret until then.

It's another late night, so I'd better get to bed. I think tomorrow we're taking a new route for our walk. Perhaps along the Skagit River.

Hugs and kisses,
Dor

Things are looking up!

After a long day in Seattle and a couple of bags of fluid, Rick is feeling better. He's back to his old self again with no signs of feeling sick. Amazing what a little liquid can do for you.

I've added a new photo on the side of the blog of my new buddy Jaxon and I the day we went to the zoo. Now you can tell why I had such a great day...just look at that face!

Angie came by tonight for a haircut and I had her stay for dinner. She's speaking in Vancouver at a Relay for Life opening ceremony this weekend so we had to get her hair looking good. You never know who you might meet :)

Thanks for all your love and concern today for Rick. We're not used to having side effects at our house so when something out of the ordinary happens, we feel like we're in a foreign country.

Dreaming Big (and tired),
Dor

Here's what's happening...

Last night around 9:30 Rick started vomiting (sorry about the description but that's what happened) and had a rough time of it until around 11:30. I finally got a anti-vomiting pill down him (that stayed down) and he was able to come to bed. I called this morning and spoke with the oncology nurse and they had us come to Seattle for Rick to get hydrated again. The nurse says once Rick gets filled with fluid, he'll feel 100% better. Let's hope so. It doesn't look like he'll have to stay in the hospital more than a couple of hours.

So, for now...We're thankful that he's starting to feel better and that we have doctors and nurses who give us such great care.

I'll post more later when we get home.

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Monday Night Update

Rick is feeling better tonight though his appetite isn't anything to write on the blog about. Amy came by for a visit (and a haircut) so I made Chicken D (a family favorite) for dinner. Rick tried his best, but couldn't gag it down. I didn't take offense to that. Instead, I made him scrambled eggs and fresh peaches. It sounded better and went down much easier.

After I wrote the blog this morning, Rick ended up going to work. He figured, I don't feel good so I could stay at home and get nothing done and feel icky, or I could go to work and get something accomplished and feel icky. He chose the latter. Tonight after dinner he ventured over to his brothers property to see how his new building is coming.

No word back on Rick's blood count, but the nurse assured me that we're going to skip at least one week of chemo for Rick until he's up and running again. I think that's a fabulous idea.

I was nice having Amy stop by tonight. She's been really involved with a job in Tacoma so we don't see her much. The two of us snuggled on the couch and caught up on life. She's now off for another exciting adventure.

Tomorrow, I'm spending a good part of the day with Angie. She too, needs a haircut (as do I).

It's time to call it a night since I have a big walk scheduled again in the morning. Lynell drove it after our walk and it appears we put in 4 1/2 miles today. If I keep this up, I could get a marathon done in a week :)

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Chemo postponed?

We had a great time at Desert Aire this weekend with Megan and her family, but through it all Rick was feeling pretty cruddy. While we went to the river and played, Rick stayed back and slept. His appetite wasn't great (at times it was actually terrible) and he just wasn't himself. By the time we got home yesterday he was feeling worse. Upset stomach, low energy, overall sick feeling...that's Rick in a nutshell today.

I just got off the phone with his oncology nurse and it sounds like they are going to postpone chemo for a week then see how he's feeling next week. Because the doctor's say Rick's chemo is to keep the cancer, from growing he will likely be on some kind of chemotherapy the rest of his life. With that scenario, they want him to have quality of life and when you're feeling crappy...that's not good quality. I'm glad he's going to have a break. This new kind of chemo tends to build up in his body each time he has a treatment so by the time we get to the last few doses, he has way too much in his system.

I was able to put my tennis shoes back on this morning (the blisters are getting better) and go for my daily hour and a half walk with Lynell. What a beautiful morning we had for it.

I'd better go for now. I have flowers to water, clothes to wash and a book to read.

Love you more,
Dor

Welcome to August

We've had great Washington weather lately. Let's hope it stays with us in August!

My day at the zoo yesterday was awesome. I had such a nice time with the Novotny and Hunter families. After the zoo, we had a really good sandwiches from the "Other Coast Cafe" (OCC) in Ballard. Baby Jax is adorable. I think he really liked hanging out with me. I can testify that I liked hanging out with him. :) I was Cole Hunter's "Zoo Buddy" all day (even when we weren't at the zoo). Little Faye Hunter was an angel. She barely made a sound, just enjoyed the scenery.

We had planned to head over to Desert Aire last night (for the weekend) but Rick had some work business to finish up. We ended up coming over here this afternoon instead. Megan and her family joined us this evening. We BBQ steaks and shrimp. It was all delicious! Rick and I don't have anything planned tomorrow. Jake, Megan and her family are all heading over to the Gorge for a Steve Miller Concert. We'll probably watch a movie, have a little popcorn, and go to bed early. Another exciting night at the Schmitt House.

Our new friends and potential house buyers (they call themselves, Desert Aire Want-a-be's) stopped by tonight with a pound of "morning sunrise coffee" and to say thanks for our patience regarding the house. I'm still holding out for them to be our new neighbors. You never know, banks might start loaning money again soon :)

Rick has been asleep on the sofa for the past hour so I'd better wake him so he can go to bed.
Until tomorrow...sleep well and dream big.

Love you more,
Dor

July is coming to an end

Can you believe how fast this summer is flying by? This weekend is the Stanwood Camano Fair (voted the best little fair in the West...probably by Stanwood residents but we're not biased) In my 50 years of life, I think I've only missed going to it twice. Now that's dedication. Or, that's a town without much action so you grab it while you can :)

When I was out dress shopping the other day, I decided that it was time for me to firm up my arms (ok, I have lots of things to firm up, but I need to work in small batches). So, my son the fitness king, drew up a free weight program for me to do after I return each morning from my walk. Let me just tell you, if I didn't have a desk to rest my arms on tonight to write this blog, I wouldn't have written anything. I'm sure my arms will firm up eventually. Now I'm just wondering if I'll ever be able to raise them again? Seriously, I'm out of shape. Or is that, I'm seriously out of shape? Perhaps its, Seriously? I'm out of shape? YES!

I'm really looking forward to tomorrow when I'll get to see my friends from Boise and their little boy Jax. We have a special day planned at Woodland Park Zoo. I can't remember the last time I went there, but I think I may have been pushing a stroller if that gives you any indication and my children are all grown. I may have gone once or twice for a field trip when the kids were younger, but I probably tried to put that out of my head. An hour long school bus ride, 50 elementary kids (10 who get car sick), and the smell of sack lunches...those were the days. Honestly, once we got to the zoo we always had a blast. But then, we had to get on the bus and make that trip back home.

The last couple of days Rick has seemed really worn out. It's end of the month business stuff for him and that tends to set him back a little. We're hoping to head over to Desert Aire for a few days but we'll see how much work he gets done tomorrow. Otherwise, he may change his mind.

Since I've been walking the last couple of mornings with flip flops on because I have a gigantic blister on my heal, I've now developed 2 nasty blisters on the bottoms of my feet from gripping the flip flops. Don't I know better? What will my kids say when they hear of my stupidity? Maybe we can just keep this a secret from them? They've all been so busy lately that maybe they don't have time to read the blog tonight. I've got neosporin, some good blister band-aids and I'm tough. Maybe I can ride in the stroller with Jax tomorrow and let them heal?

Love you more than all the animals we'll see tomorrow at the zoo.

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Good Morning

I just got home from my morning walk with only minutes to spare before the skies open up to rain. As usual, the walk was wonderful except that I'm having to wear flip flops for a few more days until my blister heals up. No kidding, this blister is the size of a silver dollar. It looks really pretty when I have short pants on. :(

I noticed that my blog from yesterday just posted this morning. I'm not sure what that's all about, but we need to remember that computers are only as efficient as the people who supply them with the information. I probably forgot to push the "enter" button. Rick had a nice uneventful birthday, none the less.

Health wise...we're doing fine. Remember, no news is good news. Rick's leg is healing, his shoulder is doing well, the tumor markers are stable and he's feeling "pretty good". I cough. But that's nothing new. I'm pudgy and happy. My hip "back" feels better everyday.

I'd better get off the computer now because I want to do a little work around the house before Rick wakes up.

Love you more than all the flower pots in full bloom,
Dor

Happy Birthday Ricky

Today is my honey's 52nd birthday. It's funny how that number seems so important now. Growing older is just a wonderful way of saying, "I'm alive and loving life". Rick didn't want anything special for his birthday, so as usual...he got some new shirts, some flip flops and we're going out for dinner. Whoo Hoo! I know, hold down your excitement. This is what happens after you turn 50. :)

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Rainy Sunday

We woke up this morning (late morning..) to wind and rain. It's been weeks since I've seen rain (when it was raining here in Stanwood, I was over in Eastern Washington) and it was actually a pleasant surprise. I love the smell of rain in the air when it's been dry for so long.

I forgot to tell you about my lawn mowing experience on Friday. Whenever I help mow the lawn (which isn't often) I only use the push mower. On Friday, Jake was going to mow all the lawns, but instead he helped in the hay field, so I said, "if you show me how to use the riding lawn mower I'll do it for you". My son, the teacher, gave me a quick little rundown on how to maneuver on the rider, how to empty the grass catcher , where to put the gas if I run out. You know, all the basics. What he forgot to mention was to pay close attention to the right side of the lawn mower because it sticks out further than the left side and you can knock things over with it. Oops. I was so busy paying attention to driving in a straight line, that I didn't notice I had taken out a rhododendron and was dragging it behind me. After I stopped laughing at my blunder, I thought...why didn't someone take that out a long time ago? Rick says if I mow many more times, our landscaping will be minimized to just a few plants. Truth is, the lawns looked beautiful so no one even cares about the 20 year old rhody.


The one thing I did notice today was how much I was coughing. I'm sure it's the wet weather. I think it's time for me to head over to the hot, dry climate of Desert Aire. :)

I've been working on the wedding list for my son and daughter in law and this is a very hard task. How do you draw the line on who to invite? I would invite all of you but there isn't enough room. I know it will be a lovely event and I promise to post photos. So, even if you're not there, you won't miss a thing. :)

I'm now heading to bed. It's a walking day again tomorrow and 7:00am comes early.
Love you more than all the raindrops in Washington today.

Dor

Outdoor Movie Night

The past couple of days have been pretty uneventful, until tonight (Saturday). Amy invited me to come to Fremont to watch a movie in the "outdoor series". I invited Janeen who was ever so kind to help me try dresses on for Jake and Megan's wedding before we met up for the movie. Amy and Melana got to the outdoor theater first and picked out a perfect spot. We had popcorn (Amy and Mel popped nice white popcorn at home with a little salt...) and I made an appetizer of goat/cream cheese and olive tapanade..on crusty bread...mmmmm good. We saw Al Gore's "the inconvenient truth" and it was pretty good. The weather was beautiful and the company was grand. There are a couple more movies I'd love to see outside so we're planning on doing it again this summer.

By the way, no luck in the dress department, but I have time. If I'm still saying this in November, I'll be in big trouble.

It's been a long day. I'd better get to bed.

Dreaming Big,
Dor

I've got a Tummy Ache

That was so 3rd grade of me....Tummy Ache? Ok. You know what I mean. Upset stomach. So, while Rick and Jake are out haying, I'm going to take a nice hot bath, turn on some tunes, light a few candles, and get ready for a good night's rest. Now that I've been getting up so early in the morning to go walking, I'm ready for bed at a regular time. What a concept.

Chemo went very well again this time. Hallelujah! The neuropathy can get really intense and Rick can't stand being cold (side effect of chemo), so thank goodness the weather has been cooperating. One more chemo treatment and then Rick has a scan again. Let's hope and pray this round has been making some progress.

As I sit here at my computer with the kitchen window open, I'm looking out at all the flowers blooming, the hummingbirds buzzing around, the birds chirping and I can't help but smile to think how lucky we are. I try hard not to take advantage of those wonders of life. In my favorite song "Dream Big", there is a line that says "when you see, see the beauty all around and in yourself and it will help you feel ok". Oh, how those lyrics ring true :)

Dream Big,
Dor

Quick Update

Chemo went well for Rick today. He's only had that one really bad experience. Let's hope the problem was just a bad batch of chemicals and it won't happen again.

I had an appointment today as well. As usual, I'm still fabulous. Ok, the doctor didn't say that, but I said it for him and he couldn't help but agree. I have a scan again next month, but for now I'll put the thought of it on the back burner and just think about tomorrow. And the next day...and the day after that.

When I was done with my appointment and Rick was upstairs at SCCA asleep on the infusion bed, I met up with my good friend Kim for moral support before and after her mammogram. Everything turned out great. She doesn't have to go back for a year. That's what I like to hear.

After coming home and resting for a little, we ventured out for a drive (do people still actually go for "drives" now that gas is over $4 a gallon?). We ended up at Rick's brother Jeff and his wife Dawn's house. What was supposed to be a little visit turned into "playing hospital" with Darlena, Uncle Rick pushing her on the swing set, and watching the end of the Mariner game. We just got home. Oops, we should have been in bed a long time ago.

I didn't sleep well last night and I hit a brick wall this afternoon around 5:00pm. I'm surprised that my eyes are still open.

Dreaming with my eyes half-open. Or, is that half-closed?
Doreen

Two days for the price of one

Yesterday was a long one...we left Desert Aire around 12:30 and decided to take the long route home to see our friends Dave and Val at their property in the woods, near Leavenworth. The property is so peaceful (except for the bears...luckily we didn't run into any). It's nice to be able to visualize their little piece of peace and quiet. The next time they talk about it, it will all make sense.

After a long drive, stopping for burgers at Zeke's in Index, we made it home just in time to unload the car, start some laundry and head to bed.

This morning I got up early and called my neighbor at 6:45 so we could start our walk early. Seriously, I love getting up early, walking and talking with my dear friend (I'm pretty sure our jaws are getting a very good workout too), smelling the fresh morning air, and being home by 9:00am.

I took Rick's dad to the doctor again today for a little check up. He seems to be feeling better (or at least good enough to be out haying when the sun is shining). How do you stop an 83 year old man from doing what he's done all his life without using duct tape to hold him down? Please send suggestions...ASAP.

Last week I did a little car shopping with Jake (not much success...and I'm a pushover with the salesmen) so today when Rick went to Mt. Vernon to do blood work, Jake rode along and the boys shopped for a car without me. Jake had test driven, researched, and calculated purchasing a Honda Civic so he was pretty prepared when he got to the negotiations. He came home this afternoon with nice shiny black car that gets at least 30 miles to the gallon.

Physical therapy is going well. I've only had 3 or 4 treatments and I can already feel a big difference. A few more treatments and hopefully I won't be needing that cortisone injection after all.

Tomorrow is chemo day for Rick, so it's bedtime for this sleepy girl. Rick is still outside putzing around but I need to get my beauty sleep. As a matter of fact, I should have gone to bed 3 hours ago :)

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Bathroom Graffiti

We had a good night's sleep last night and woke up with the desire to do a little work. Rick hung closet shelves, pulled weeds, mowed the law (@ house #1) while I re-painted and decorated the bathroom downstairs at house #2. I got a little silly behind those four walls and painted a little message for Rick.

We drove the golf cart to our friends, Joe & Lyndsey Youngren's house down on the water. What a beautiful house and view they have. They followed us back to our house so we could share our little abode with them as well. They both blamed (thanked) me for introducing them to Desert Aire (via the blog) because they try to spend every free, waking minute they have enjoying life here in paradise.

I've strung lights in the courtyard and now I love it so much I want to sleep outside...

Did I ever mention how being sick at Desert Aire isn't an option? However, taking Tarceva daily is still required :)

When we arrived in DA yesterday there were flowers waiting for me. GOD sent a bouquet of wild sunflowers and planted them behind our house.

Dreaming Warm and Big,
Dor

Bring on the Cortisone!

Today was my appointment with the allergist. After many scratch tests, injections, icky stuff on my lips...it appears I've outgrown my allergy to cortisone. I did have a little reaction to prednisone (which I've taken before without any problem) but everything else turned out good. I'm still hoping I won't have to have the injections in my spine but now I know if we have to go that route, it will be ok to try it.

Rick's leg is getting better each day (uglier colors but feeling better).

In my head, I can hear Angie telling me that if I do something for 21 days in a row it becomes a habit...I walked with Lynell again today (3rd day in a row...yahoo).

After my doctor's appointment we headed over to the "Desert". The weather was nice and warm when we got here so Rick and I did a few odd jobs and have just been taking easy ever since. Tomorrow, I'm going to tackle one last painting job (downstairs bathroom) then we have a cabinet to hang, shelves to put up in the guest closet, and maybe some weeding at house number one.

We got news from the people who really want to buy the house at DA and they said they had no idea how hard it was to get the bank to release any money for a vacation home. They are sick that they can't commit to anything, but we told them to keep trying. In the meantime, we'll keep showing it to other people and hope that our new friends have a "windfall". I should tell them to buy a lottery ticket...you can't win unless you buy one :)

I'm attaching photos of the grapes we have growing in our courtyard. I'm telling you, this really is a little piece of Heaven. Oh, I tried one of the grapes when we got here today....OOOHHH it's not ready yet.

The wind is really kicking up here tonight. I'd better go so we can batten down the hatches... Ok, we don't have any hatches and I wouldn't know how to batten them down even if we did have some. Instead, I'm going to get a pillow and blanket, lay on the sofa and watch a movie. Perhaps I can get Rick to join me...the question is? Can he stay awake for the whole thing?

Love you more than all the sagebrush blowing by our house.

Dreaming Big,

Dor

End of a long day

Remember yesterday when I was bragging about the nice walk I took with my neighbor? Well, this morning at 7:15 when she called to wake me for our 7:30 walk I started to come up with a lame excuse about how I didn't sleep well the night before and could we go for a walk after my physical therapy, blah, blaaah, blahhhh...then I stopped myself. I said, "I'll see you in 10 minutes at the end of the road". Truth is, it's a wonderful way to start my day but if I didn't have someone lighting a fire under my butt (and let me assure you that would be a bonfire) I would find an excuse everyday not to do it. I made Lynell promise me that she wouldn't take no for an answer. I've instructed her to say, "just get up and meet me at the end of the driveway". We walked for over an hour and I was sad when the morning came to an end.

I really haven't been home all day today. After the walk it was physical therapy, then lunch with Jake, oil change, car shopping (Jake is looking for something that gets better gas mileage than his Dodge Dakota), and then Megan, her mom and I met with Judi (the wedding coordinator) until almost 10:00pm. Hey, no wonder I'm pooped. This would wear out a healthy person.

Rick agreed to let me call the doctor's office today regarding his leg. Dr. Whiting's office (oncologist) said they would like him to be seen by our local doctor and to call if there were anymore concerns. The physician suggested that Rick have an ultrasound of the mallet mark in his leg and asked for his opinion on what he thought about the procedure. I wasn't there, but Rick said "I think my wife would agree with you, I guess we should go ahead and do it". If nothing else, Rick is finally learning to say all the right things to give me the least amount of grief. Luckily, he just has an ugly bruise and and dent in his leg, the swelling only makes his little chicken leg look meatier, and nothing is broken. I can take him outside to play, but I swear I have to watch him every minute :)

Time to get to bed. Lynell will be calling me before I know it.

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Bunco Loser

Since I hadn't been to Bunco in months....it appears, I've lost my touch. I went home a loser but as usual, I had fun with my Bunco Babes. They are inappropriate, funny and a kick to be around.

I spent yesterday afternoon with my neighborhood friend, Lynell. We talked and sipped our sodas while we sat on her deck. It was one of the nicest couple of hours I've had in a long time. This morning, we set out for a walk at 8:00am and got back just before 9:00. Tomorrow we're meeting at 7:30am so I can be home in time to take a shower and head down to physical therapy. I'm hoping we're going to keep this up. My mornings usually start with some coughing and a stiff hip, but by the time I got to the end of my driveway today, I was nearly done coughing and my hip was feeling pretty good. I'm smart enough to know that exercise (no matter how much or how little) is better for you than no exercise at all.

When I got home from Bunco, Rick was sitting on the side of our bed. I looked down at his legs (he had shorts on) and he has a huge bruise on his upper calf. Apparently, he hit it by accident tonight with a mallet while working outside. It looks swollen and I don't like it. I'm going to get off the computer now so I can get some ice on it and put some pillows under his leg. He says he's fine. I disagree :)

Love you more than all the dandelions popping up in our yard :(

Dream Big,
Doreen

Happy Birthday

Today, my mother in law would have been 73 years old. She died however when she was only 56 years old from Non-Hodgkin's Lymphoma and we were robbed from the love and laughter she had always provided. When I look at our children I'm so sad to think that Grandma Darlene isn't here to see them grow into such amazing adults. She would have been so proud. Today is also my brother in law Tom's birthday and he is now 56. I'm hoping he had a great day!

Amy came home from Tacoma tonight and stopped by for a visit and dinner. I don't think we've seen her in over 2 weeks. She's working on a big project with the Air Force right now and it's taking a lot of her time. Hopefully, next time it won't be so long between visits.

I saw Angie today as well. She is in Stanwood all week at a class (with an hour break every day for lunch). She came up for a sandwich and a piece of Key Lime Pie. We visited (quickly) then it was off for more learning.

I saw Jake from afar today as he was out mowing lawns for 3 hours. What a job. Oh, I saw him a little bit tonight too. His friend Eric stopped by and brought us a salmon from Alaska. We had a nice time catching up with him. He's getting married next month and will be living in Canada, Ay?

Rick had a headache today at work (not bad enough to come home and go to bed...but enough to annoy him all afternoon). The neuropathy in his feet is bad again today as well. He assured me that he would lay low when he got home from work today (which he has) and see if he could get the pain to go away. I think it's still bugging him but he doesn't complain much.

I have physical therapy again tomorrow and an appointment in Everett on Friday to see if I'm allergic to cortisone. Other than that. Not much going on.

Love you more,
Dor

Laid Back Sunday

What a wonderful day I had. No plans. Nothing pressing. No worries. I made a day out of watering my plants, painting a desk, doing some research on the computer & making a crab salad for dinner. I know what you're thinking... Wow, what an exciting life she lives? Ok, maybe it's not as exciting, as it is peaceful. I need a little peace and quiet every once in a while.

I haven't seen the kids much lately,(not even Jake who lives here) as they are all very busy. Amy has taken on a special project with the military (and doing some Special Agent work), Angie has been working hard at a basketball officials camp (as well as taking classes), Jake is teaching at Sylvan daily and working for an entertainment company Wednesday nights through Saturday nights (and getting ready to take some classes for his new job as a 7th grade math/science teacher). Did I mention how laid back my day was? Where did these kids get their energy? Certainly not from their mother.

I wish I had something exciting or insightful to tell you, but NOPE. NADA. NOTHING. ZILCH. I'm fresh out of important stuff to say. I am, sitting here at the computer with the windows open listening to crickets (or frogs) and it makes me want to go to sleep. So that must be my indicator to say good night. Sleep tight.

Dreaming Larger than Life,
Dor

90,000 Views

I was looking at my website today and realized that since I started counting (last May) people all over the country have looked at my blog 90,000+ times. Gosh, I hope I spell things correctly, because that's a lot of eyes doing proof reading.

Today Pam and I went to Bellingham like we'd hoped and spent some time at the Whatcom County Relay for Life. They have a wonderful set up and incredible community support. The way they do it wouldn't work for us in Stanwood, but if you ever get the chance...go check it out. It's pretty incredible.

While we were up North, Pam made me go to a nursery (like she had to force me) and buy plants for the pot I got for my birthday. We had our own special helper who designed our pots for us, then arranged them in the box the way we were suppose to plant them. I've attached a photo of my new green pot and the professional layout. It makes me smile when I enter the front door. I also got my first pot of sunflowers for the year. My little neighbor Karrina found these at the grocery store and convinced her mom that "Doreen would really like these". Karrina was right. I loved them. Thanks neighbor!

For the 3rd day in a row I've got a headache. Not a terrible one. Just enough that I need to wear my sunglasses in the house and I'd like to throw up. I guess I'm off to bed to see if I can wake up tomorrow with a clear head.

Rick is out haying right now. (I'm really not mad at him...but I have to act like it so he doesn't over do it). He came home this afternoon when the weather got too hot but has gone back to the farm now that it's cooled off. He should be home soon. He really did have a good chemo treatment this time. Not feeling bad, and his energy level has been pretty regular! Let's hope it's working as well on the inside of his body as it is on the outside. :)

Sweet Dreams,
Doreen

My purpose

I did my little radio stint and apparently some friends and family heard it (I hope I didn't embarrass you or sound like a goober). I couldn't even tell you what I said, but as usual...I'm sure I was rambling on. Good luck tomorrow, Bellingham. I'll be rooting you on!

This morning I got an e-mail from a "big sister" in Northern Virgina who was looking for guidance for her younger sister who has been diagnosed with lung cancer. I'm not sure I have any words of wisdom, but I was so honored that they have been reading my blog and following our story. Just the love of her family will definitely be an added bonus for this courageous woman. It's times like this when I just get MAD at CANCER.

Throughout the "Schmitt Creek Battle" I've always wondered, what is the purpose of this craziness? Then, during weeks like this, when someone needs my advice, or shoulder, or love...It all makes sense. I'm suppose to help others down this path with a little less pain than they might otherwise have had.

I have not even seen my friend Cathy since her daughter's wedding and I was definitely needing a friendship fix. So, she stopped by and picked me up this morning and we had a wonderful day together. Tonight, Rick and I took my mom and dad out for dinner. They are a constant means of support for us whenever we need it. If we're gone for the weekend, my dad becomes Farmer Bob. He feeds cows, takes care of our plants, pets the neighbor dog... We thought we should show them our gratitude and love with a little dinner date.

Rick has gone over to his dad's farm to give a hand with haying tonight. He promised me he wouldn't over do it, but I'll be the judge of that when he gets home. I've got a bit of a headache again, so I'm going to bed early to see if I can sleep it off.

Dreaming Bigger than ever,
Dor

Meeting with potential "new neighbors"

Nothing is in stone, but we met with our possible "new" Desert Aire neighbors and we like them more each time. They live in an adorable house in Everett with an immaculate yard (front and back) and I can see the landscaping at DA house #1 getting a complete overhaul if (when) they move in. As with all good things in life, if it's suppose to happen...it will. The cute thing was...when we got to their house, their screen saver on the computer was a photo of them in front of the DA house (and they looked great).

Rick got disconnected from chemo today and couldn't be happier. Since he hasn't been sick this time around and it's haying season, he wants to get out there and do what he can to help. Last night, he was out on the tractor with his fanny pack full of chemo, the tubes running up to the port in his chest, bouncing around like a farmer until after 9:00pm. He was completely wiped out by the time he got in the house. It's easy for me to tell him to slow down, but I know how much joy he gets out of being productive. I, on the other hand, get lots of joy from having fun, playing with my friends, vacationing, writing this blog.... Do you see a pattern? Not a lot of work involved in my JOY. Oops!

Today was the first day of physical therapy and my hip actually feels better tonight. I've been taking heavy doses of ibruprofen and I really think it's helping with the inflammation. I've been fighting a little bit of a headache this afternoon...probably from all the excitement of the day.

I did my radio interview yesterday for a Bellingham station but it was on before I got up this morning and while I was in physical therapy. I'm hoping to go up to Whatcom County this weekend to participate in their Relay for Life. I love to watch others find joy in their passion and since I was a speaker at their kick-off this year, I know the kind of excitement they have for their event.

Love you more than all the freckles on a red head...

Dream Big,
Dor

Summer is here :)

I love that summer is finally here. I know the calendar has indicated summer for the past few weeks, but now it's starting to feel like it.

When we got to Seattle this morning, they postponed Rick's chemo for a little bit. He has developed some little red spots on his legs, feet and ankles. I guess that can be a sign of low platelets, but in Rick's case, they were just appearing because of his blood thinner. Once they got it all figured out, they started the treatment and he was out of bed by noon and on our way home.

When we got to the Cancer Care today, a friend ,Barb was there having her treatment as well. Since Jake came along to spend some quality time with his dad, I sat and visited with Barb while the boys bonded. It's always nice to get other people's perspectives on how they live. Barb has been fighting this battle for over 4 years and by the sounds of it, she has been living it up as well.

I'm suppose to be doing an interview with a radio station tomorrow. I'm just going to do it over the phone so I don't know what time it's going to air. Once I know when and where it takes place I'll let you know (unless I sound completely ridiculous...then I'll forget to mention it again).

Rick has been resting since we got home, and I've been doing the same. Thank goodness I'm doing a piece on the radio instead of TV. Otherwise, I would have needed to start the beauty sleep on the way home this afternoon.

I have a dear friend who has been re-diagnosed with an aggressive skin cancer recently. She goes in for surgery tomorrow so please put her in your prayers. I'm getting tired of cancer hurting the ones I love. We really need to find an immunization, or better yet "A CURE" . Is anyone else getting sick of the C-word?

Love you more,
Dor

I'm home...

Sorry about the lapse in the blog but sometimes I get so busy playing or resting, that this writing thing takes a back seat to my "other life". This weekend was wonderful (as usual...I was in the heat and air conditioning of Desert Aire). It was really nice to have Vickie and Tom join us for the long weekend. They haven't done that before and I think after the good time they had they may be joining us more often.

One of the exciting parts of the weekend was the interest we got in Desert Aire house #1. We showed it to 4 different couples (one of the couples came back 3 times, with different friends, and we're going to meet with them again on Thursday). I would love to have them be our new neighbors, not just because it means we will have sold the house, but because I could see them as our "new friends". They just had something warm and wonderful about them. Oh, and they seemed to love the house as much as we did. Keep your fingers crossed.

Tomorrow is chemo day again and Rick has been feeling well (except for a day or two this weekend...sore legs and a stomach ache), so I hope that is a sign that this will be another great week. Jake has been to the Seattle Cancer Care with us before (for results) but never while Rick was having chemo. I think it will be a good experience for him to see how well his dad gets treated and how much love we feel when we're down there. Amy and Angie have spent more than their share of time in waiting rooms, exam rooms, infusion rooms....I know they never complain about it and we love to have them their with us. They always seem to ask the right questions, hear things we don't, and take notes. We really are so thankful for the children we have. Is that called lucky or blessed?

Rick didn't get to work until late today so he's staying late this evening. A little too late if you ask me. It's 8:30 and no sign of him yet. I know he'll feel better tomorrow once he gets his "stuff" done tonight. I just don't like it when he over does it.

I'm looking forward to starting physical therapy on Thursday (it's the 1st day of my speedy hip recovery). Hopefully, next Friday I'll find out if I'm still allergic to cortisone, and if not...a shot in my spine should help me get back to "normal" in no time. Ok, NORMAL is so over rated. I don't expect to be normal. I just looked through my "SECRET" book again today and I need to start thinking positive thoughts about my healing. Ooooh, Aaaah....(that was a little yoga breathing...)

I've got some dishes to do from dinner tonight and I want to get to bed early. The day starts around 5:30am tomorrow (ugh) and we all know how much I need my beauty sleep :)

Love you more than all the mosquitos on a summers evening in Washington....

Dreaming Big,
Doreen

Sleepless in Mattawa

We had a great day today. The weather was a nice 80 degrees for a good part of the day (with a few sprinkles to wet the ground for tonight's events...a little divine intervention to keep us safe from fires) Vickie and Tom arrived around 2:30 this afternoon, just in time for the golf cart parade. I don't mean to sound prudish but the first golf cart of the day was a very patroitic one that encouraged people to vote. Sadly enough, the cart had a big sign in the front that said "Regester to Vote". I almost peed my pants when I saw the spelling. Apparently, they didn't have spell check on their permanent marker. Anyway, if you haven't done so already...please REGISTER to VOTE. We visited, had dinner and watched the fireworks (they went on until midnight-ish) We'd finally had enough by 10:30 and could still see them from the livingroom, so we came inside to finish watching the display. Our new deck is the perfect spot for firework watching (and spying on our neighbors...except for when they're up visiting us) We were invited to the neighbors for a Wii tournament after the fireworks, but being the old folks we are, fizzled out before we made it down there.

Cousin Joe has a houseful this weekend as well as Susie and Pat. With our company, that makes about 16 noisy people in our part of the neighborhood alone.

I think we're going on a little adventure tomorrow. Vickie and Tom have never been to the Gorge and we're going to take them to the Mattawa Saturday market (flea market...without the fleas). I guess we won't be doing any of this if I don't get back into bed and try to get some sleep.

The hip is feeling better today (heavy duty Ibuprofen) and compression belt... Rick is in his element (doing honey do jobs for me). So far he's moved the wood pile for the fire pit from house number 1 to house number 2 (with help from Susie and Pat), put up the misters, started organizing his garage, hung my hammock and hammock chair... I did some work too (I think)

I'm going to head back to bed and count tumbleweed (anything to help put me to sleep).

Hope your 4th was all you'd hope for, and more.

Dreaming Big,
Dor

My Annual Fireworks Rules

I'm over here at the Desert where the weather today was 101.5 (sounds like a radio station) so the best advice I can give myself is to stay as far away from fireworks as possible. Luckily, the only place you can set off fireworks is at the park (which is one of the views we have from our deck) so while others spend hundreds (thousands) of dollars on dangerous stuff, I can just sit back, enjoy the view and save my money.

You know the drill:

1. Be safe and sane. Ok, at least be safe.
2. Punks are not for punks.
3. Don't drink and light fireworks at the same time. Set your drink down or you might spill it.
4. If it's raining, go to bed early. There's nothing worse than soggy fuses...(except maybe cancer)
5. Even when someone lights a snake or flower blossom act like it's the most beautiful thing you've ever seen. You'll make their day.
6. Do not shoot roman candles from your muffler.
7. Sing the Star Spangled Banner and walk around all day with a miniature flag
8. If you're going to a BBQ, don't leave the mayonnaise out. (That's not really a 4th of July thing, I just don't want you to get sick)
9. Clean up all your used fireworks. Keep America Beautiful. (Is that still our slogan?)
10. Have the time of your life. Or, at least the best Independence Day ever!

I'm not sure how helpful my hints are so use what you can and disregard the rest.

We've been doing some odd jobs around the house(s) today. House #1 is ready to go. Now we just need a buyer. Oh, yea....I forgot....#11 Buy yourself a nice little house at Desert Aire for a 4th of July present.

Rick blew up my 7ft. pool (make that 7 feet wide and 3 feet deep) and it's been wonderful. With the temperature almost high enough to bake cookies it's nice to sink into the pool for a 5 minute break to cool off. I'm loving it!

For a house warming present, our friends Pat and Suzie bought us a mister to hang in our courtyard...Hopefully we'll get those hung tonight so tomorrow can just be fun and games and a cool mist hovering over us....

I can't wait to get my camera battery charged so I can take photos of the grapes we have growing all around our new house. I'm not kidding when I say...I feel like Cleopatra...now I just need to train my Ricky to feed them to me and we're set.

I called home this afternoon and found that it was raining with a little thunder and lightening. Oh, so sad for all of you. Tomorrow is suppose to be a cool 85 degrees. We're having rib steaks and salads for dinner, fruity drinks with umbrellas and the company of family. Yes....this is the life...

Now that I know what's going on with my back/hip I can follow some simple directions that give me relief. (Thanks again Erin) Rick is feeling great. He's not really looking forward to chemo next week, but since this last time wasn't too bad, he hasn't been fighting it.

It's time for me to go now to enjoy the sunshine and my husband.

Love you more than all the sparklers that get lit tomorrow night.

Dreaming "hot" and big,
Dor

Finally...an answer

Today, I met with Dr. Michael Lee at the University of Washington Medical Center who is a spine doctor. Angie came along with me, as she knows all the right things to ask and she understands all the medical jargon the doctors say. It was a huge help having her there with me today. Here's what we know: I have a herniated disc at the very bottom of my spine, it's compressing my disc that leads through my hip and down my leg. One of the solutions (or at least a remedy) for this is a cortisone shot in herniated disc. My problem: I'm allergic to cortisone (or at least I was when I was 17) so we're going to do an allergy test to see if maybe I've outgrown the problem. Until then (and for the next 6-8 weeks) I'm going to be doing some physical therapy to see if I can repair it with exercises. I believe I can... Surgery is main way to repair a herniated disc, but I intend to get way better before that ever happens. Thank you Erin, our favorite Physical Therapist for your evaluation, advice and supportive back brace this evening! My back is feeling better already. You are the best!

After our doctors visit, Angie, Nancy, Gillian and Kate and I spent the day in Seattle before heading to the airport to take them back. It was sad to see them leave but we'll see them again soon. Maybe next time at Disneyland. Nancy was spotted the last few days by some General Hospital watchers and was very gracious to visit with them and have her photo taken. Her daughter Kate was a joy to have around. She is a remarkable little 10 year old. They loved being with our family and the feeling was quite mutual.

Yesterday we went to the movie Wall-E, then to Pam's house (at the lake) and went out in her blow up row boat. We weren't in the water long before Nancy (in her long skirt) jumped in the water, then Kate followed (in her clothes)...then me (in mine), then Jake (at least he had shorts on). We had a ball. The weather was so nice we were able to lay in the grass and dry off before it was time to come home and BBQ.

Rick recovered very quickly this time from his chemo treatment. It's amazing what a little time off (for your body to heal) will do for the spirit. He's been busy everyday doing something that makes him feel productive.

My little niece, Darlena, is spending the night tonight because we are going to the children's museum tomorrow with Pam and her grandson, Andy. I can't wait to see these kids in action. I'd better get my camera battery charged. She's in watching a movie right now with cousin Jacob while I finish the blog.

It's going to be Independence Day again soon and you know how I like to give my safety tips. I'll try to post them tomorrow so you have plenty of time to prepare for the excitement.

Love you more than all the money spent on fireworks this week!

Dreaming Big,
Dor