Thirsty Thursday

I guess Rick wasn't really thirsty, but he did have to drink lots of liquids before his scan. He always tries to share it...but I refuse. I think it's improved over the years. It used to be a thick white cream, now it's a thin white liquid. Yummmm...I go get a cup of coffee and sit next to him like a good wife, encouraging him to "drink it all up". Rick's results get back on Wednesday.

While I was there my doctor ordered a chest x-ray to make sure this respitory thing isn't pneumonia. I left before the x-ray came back so I'm just waiting for a call tonight to say everything is ok.

I'm very excited to meet a new friend tomorrow. Diana is her name and she is a non (never) smoking woman with lung cancer who has been taking Tarceva for 21 months too! We talked yesterday and made arrangements to meet on Friday. I heard today from the doctor's office that there are about 6 women who are responding like this to Tarceva (at least 16 months). We have enough to start our own support group - or goof off group :) Whichever seems to fit us best.

Love you more than all the snow falling in the Northwest Mountains....Holy Blizzard Batman!

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Wacky Women Wednesday

I'm going to make this a short but sweet message. Tonight I joined some old high school friends for dinner at a dueling piano bar (small problem...there are no piano players on Wednesday nights). Truth is, we didn't need to have any pianos, our laughter was the best music we could have heard. And laugh, we did. My abs got a work out and my face hurts.

It's important that I mention all of the women at the table are 50 years old EXCEPT ME (not that I'm rubbing it in).

Rick has his scan tomorrow morning so I'd better get a little shut eye. We won't have any results until next week but I promise to share them with you when we get them.

Keep Dreaming Big~
Dor

Terrific Tuesday

Have you noticed my theme titles lately? I'm trying to spice up the blog. I don't want you to tire of my rambling on.....

Today, another one of my friends Molly turned 50. Who would have thought that 50 can look so good? I used to think 50 was old now I think it's just right! Happy Birthday Molly :)

I don't feel like I accomplished much today but that's ok. It's not what you accomplished but if you had any fun while you weren't accomplishing anything. You can guarantee I'm having fun if I'm awake.

Not much to report in the health department. Rick has a really sore shoulder...no reason, just a lot of aching. My nose is still running. I'd better go catch it.

Love you more,
Dor

Magnificient Monday

I know it's not Thanksgiving, but I like to give thanks every opportunity I get. Below is yet another reason to feel thankful.

Here's a little note Angie got today from her friend and fellow referee Penny: In the spirit of defying the odds and doing things beyond expectation, I want to make a donation of a game fee to this cause. This game fee of $95 will be earned on Wednesday February 13^th at Skagit CC, when I become one of the first women to referee a men's game on that court. I'll be working the game in celebration of your mother's health and in support of your fund raising efforts.

Rick doesn't seem like himself this round of chemo. Nothing tastes the same, he seems really fatigued, and very quiet. He says he feels "pretty good" but that's his standard answer. I just hope I don't give him my cold/sinus/stuffy head symptoms.

Jake and Megan have solidified a date and place for their wedding. December 27th, 2008 at Floral Hall in Everett. We toured it today and it's very warm and cozy . It has the feeling of a Country Cabin. It's going to be great fun. The kids told me today that I will have a limit on how many people I can invite. Jake reminded me it's his wedding so he gets to invite his people first. Alright already :)

I was going to make oatmeal cookies tonight (they're Rick's favorites) but I spilled dinner all over the oven so I can't bake anything until I clean it out. Where's my maid when I need her? Where's that sexy oven cleaner guy with the bald head? Oh wait, maybe that guy just cleans floors... Long story short. Dirty oven. No cookies.

I heard a quote on Extreme Home Makeover last night....it went like this ~ If you're not giving, you're not living. That's powerful. Let's keep living.

Dreaming Big,
Doreen

Peaceful Weekend

Some of the best weekends I ever have are the ones when I don't even get in the car and leave the house. This weekend was one of them. Today I never left my bathrobe and slippers. I did however, clean out my dresser drawers and collected a garbage bag full of clothes to take to Goodwill, cleaned out the SUV, ironed a bunch of shirts and got lots of little jobs done that I was hoping to do this coming week (so now I have more time to play).

When I woke up this morning I discovered the ground was covered in white. The snow quickly dissolved...but at least my wish came true. I think we all need a little snow every once in a while. It helps us tolerate the days that are just plain cold. It's our gentle reminder that it's winter.

It was Ellen's 50th birthday yesterday. I never made it to her birthday show and she probably won't make it to mine. So, I guess I'll have to set another day to meet up with her. Perhaps, next fall. Autumn in California is beautiful.

In my spare time this weekend (wait, it was all spare time) I cut Angie's, Rick's and Jake's hair. If anyone has seen my hair lately, you'd say I should have gotten in line. I'm the one who needed it the most. If I don't get a haircut soon, you can start calling me Sasquatch.

I thought I was completely over the sinus/cold/stuffy head disorder. I was wrong. It's back. I hope I'm symptom free or I'll be wearing my mask and gloves again for Rick's scan on Thursday. This will be the first scan since Rick has been on Chemo Lite. We're hoping it's still doing it's job. I believe!

I'd better call it a night. I'm ready to head off to bed and watch the end of Extreme Home Makeover (I haven't cried in a couple of days and that show is always sure to bring on some tears).

Enjoy your Super Bowl week and don't place any illegal bets (I had to say that since Amy is a Special Agent with the Gambling Commission), and if you do...I hope you win.

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Happy Saturday

Nothing exciting was planned for today, but Rick's Aunt Fran and Uncle Chuck stopped by for a visit, as well as Angie, her friend Shannon and Rick's brother Jeff. It was nice to have these unexpected visits. There's nothing better on a cold winter day than a fire going and friends around.

Rick is sleeping in front of the wood stove right now. He's been feeling pretty good lately, but he seems to get fatigued much easier than usual. I'm pretty sure when he laid down it was with the intent to watch the Arizona/Washington State basketball game (he didn't last very long).

Our visitors are gone now, so I think I'll go clean up the mess I made earlier in the kitchen, and start a new mess for dinner.

As I was telling my friend the story about the woman who got up and moved when I coughed at the Cancer Care the other day, I heard myself repeat what I told the gentleman who was also getting up to leave my area. I said "you don't have to leave. I'm not sick. I just have lung cancer". It that an oxymoron or what?

We're expecting snow tonight. I can't wait. I'd like it all to be melted by Monday so everyone can drive safely to work, but a little white covering always looks beautiful.

Dreaming White,
Doreen

Blogger Problems...

I know you were thinking that I forgot how to write. I didn't forget. I just had some blog malfunctions. But, I'm here now with lots to share. I planned on writing something yesterday but instead we went to the Stanwood Girls Basketball game. We were there to watch the girls but also to watch the official, Angie. She does such a great job. And I love it when she calls a "drawn charge", she looks very tough.

Chemo went well for Rick today. He's tired, but that's to be expected. His blood counts were all close to the "normal" range. We never look for everything to be normal. I'm not sure if we were ever "normal" before cancer, why start now? Next Thursday, Rick will have a scan that will let us know if the chemo is still working. I believe.

I had a really weird experience today at the Seattle Cancer Care Alliance. They have had many people get sick recently with a respiratory infections, so as I told you before, if you have any symptoms they make you wear rubber gloves and face masks. I'm symptom free so I was able to just be myself today. As I sat with Rick after he'd had his blood draw, I coughed. Just a regular cough from someone with lung cancer, nothing scary. I covered my mouth and didn't think much of it. The woman next to me jumped up and walked to the other side of the room. The two people sitting across from me jumped up as well and joined her. I tried to explain that I wasn't coughing because I had a respiratory infection but rather an annoying cough from lung cancer. They wouldn't stay around long enough to hear it. I'm sure to them I just looked like someone who escorted a sick person to the hospital.

Today was a very long day for me. We got up around 5:15 for our trek to Seattle. We got home around 2:30, I made a few changes to my PowerPoint presentation, printed out my newest speech for the Whatcom County Kick-off, drove to Bellingham (Pam came along as my moral support...instead she bribed me with candy if I could make it through the speech without crying...I didn't need the candy anyway). After the presentation, we stopped at Amy's favorite Thai restaurant in Bellingham (even though Amy wasn't with us...Sorry Ams...but it was very good). We had a wonderful time.

It's been a pretty busy week (again) so I'm going to lay low tomorrow. I think I'll sleep in, then maybe have coffee with a friend or two. Run a couple of errands. Then it's back home in my cozy living room where I'll try to finish a scarf I started a couple of weeks ago.

Jake has an interview in the Mukilteo School District on Monday. Not necessarly for a full time job, but at least for subbing in their district if they need him. He's been really busy teaching lately. It's nice that all the hard work paid off.

Dreaming Big Dreams,
Dor

Relay Motivational Speech

I've been spending much of my time motivating other teams and other communities ~ all the while...I forgot to motivate my own group. Yesterday, Amy noticed that the Dream Team was in 2nd place for fundraising so far this year (1st place loser as she called it). So, she sent an e-mail out to encourage our team to jump back into 1st place. Well, we did it. So far, we're about $500 over the team below us. I love being a part of a group of women who are so strong in their commitments. Thanks for your efforts. I plan on having a team meeting in the next month, so if you plan on being on a team, please sign up soon. Now is a perfect time to send memos out to those people who have supported you in the past and those who want to start helping you in your fundraising efforts. If you want to join me in my fundraising endeavors you can donate online by logging into my Relay for Life page at: (if you can't click on the link, just copy and paste it and it will get you where you need to be)

http://main.acsevents.org/site/TR/RelayForLife/RelayForLifeGreatWestDivision?px=1980915&pg=personal&fr_id=6258&s_tafId=104518

Thank you in advance for your support. Remember, we are always looking for more volunteers. If you or someone you know would like to get involved, give me a call, or drop me an e-mail and I'll pass it on to "my people". Also, we've set a goal of having 150 survivors join us in our survivor lap, so if you know of a cancer survivor who wants to be a part of this amazing event, have them get in touch with me as well.

I had a nice lunch today with my former (not OLD) boss, Jim Piccolo. It was nice to catch up on each others families. These are some of the things that I miss the most about work.

Rick has chemo again on Thursday. This is his last chemo for this round...next week he goes back in for a scan to see how well this treatment has been working. I'm still feeling achy on my side from what seems like a a shingles relapse. My friend Ann brought me some cream (made out of hot chili peppers) to rub on my skin. So far, it's made a difference in the sensitivity of my skin. I still feel some pain, but nothing like I did last night.

I've got a speech and a slide show to work on before Thursday. So, I'd better say good bye for now.

Love you more than all the frozen puddles in the Northwest.

Dreaming big,
Doreen

Happy Sunday

What a nice time I had yesterday. Movie and dinner with my husband...(the movie was great, but my sweater was all wet from tears by the time I left the theater) Storyline was great, but some of it was a little close to home. Then, I went to Bunco with a whole new group of ladies (I was a sub for someone who couldn't make it). I took 2nd place and came home with a nice little bag of goodies from Victoria's Secret. Great fun. Nice company.

Here's my bucket list so far:

Drive a really fast car (preferably with the proper fire suit, seat belt, and helmet on) perhaps on a race track...This isn't about danger, it's about adrenaline.
Take a ride on a Harley Trike (it's a cute little motorcycle that won't tip over when I stop)
Visit the Greek Islands
Give more than I take...
Clean out my closet (ok, you know I'm too practical not to throw in at least one boring thing)

I woke up fairly early this morning with some side pain (right where the shingles acted up a few months ago...Dammit!) I decided to just stay home today and take it easy (I've been going a lot lately). Instead, I went to another movie with my sister-in-law Vickie. We saw 27 Dresses. A typical chick flick. I hardly ever go to the movies, then I go twice in one weekend. What' up with that? I'm just living on the wild side.

I just got an e-mail from Sheila in San Francisco today and it appears that XL-184"a drug that I'll refer to as Tarceva 2" has been released for a trial. I don't know if it's available in Seattle yet, but I know it's out there and I'm signing up. I'm going to attach a little portion of the e-mail. This is great news.

SAN FRANCISCO – Jan. 7, 2008 – Patients with non-small cell lung cancer who have had progressive disease while on a regimen containing erlotinib (Tarceva®) may be eligible for a new clinical trial using a new drug in combination with erlotinib.

The new drug, called XL 184 by the maker, Exelixis, Inc., disrupts cell proteins involved in the same cell division signaling network that Tarceva acts on, but it acts against different proteins. XL 184 targets proteins MET, RET, and VEGFR (vascular endothelial growth factor receptor). Tarceva primarily acts on EGFR (epidermal growth factor receptor). All these proteins are involved in telling the cell to divide, and are mutated in cancer resulting in the cell receiving a continuous signal to divide.

While Tarceva has been shown effective in a variety of cancers, tumors ultimately develop resistance to the drug, diminishing its effectiveness. The hope is that modifying these additional proteins will break down that resistance to Tarceva and result in longer-lasting effectiveness.

The clinical trial announced today is a very early test of the new drug, called a phase 1-2 trial, which seeks to determine the highest safe dose before it can be tested for effectiveness. The primary endpoint of the phase 2 part of the study is overall response rate, meaning how many people's cancer is slowed or halted following treatment. Secondary endpoints include looking at how long the cancer progression is slowed or halted (progression-free survival), and whether patients live longer overall.

I know this sounds like a bunch of clinical stuff but when I read it, it made me very happy. I'll keep you posted if I get in on the trial....

Love to you all,
Dor

21Months and Counting....

I just returned from Everett where I spoke to a group of basketball officials about forming a Relay for Life team this spring. I think I may have encouraged them to join me for my birthday celebration. It will be nice to have a stream of black and white shirts walking the track next to the basketball players from our community. That's what coming together is all about.

Rick and I are going on an afternoon date today...I think we're going to see the movie Bucket List. While we're at the movie, we're going to make our own "bucket list". It's going to be a long list....We've still got a lot to do in this life.

Today marks 21 amazing months for me. Surviving is a great thing to do... Please don't vote me off the island any time soon.

Dreaming Big,
Doreen

Thankful Thursday

I want to apologize for my blog yesterday. I know I got a few people riled up about the radio station, but once I put a little more thought into it, it dawned on me that perhaps my story was too close to home for someone at the station. Or, perhaps they were looking for someone who was a long time survivor not someone still fighting the battle. As long as you all know I still have a fight in me, that's all that matters. I don't need to share it with a radio station....

Last night Amy and I had the opportunity to speak at the Burlington Relay for Life Kick Off. We had a wonderful time, cried a little, laughed a lot. Amy took the opportunity (like usual) and had a little fundraiser (actually she just walked around and collected loose change...though she said she also accepted bills). She left the event with $97. That's what I'm talking about! We were at a kick-off for Burlington so they could raise money, and Amy took their money instead for Stanwood's Relay. You've gotta love it. We met some great people with a passion much like ours and we felt honored to be their guest speakers.

Since I feel so thankful today for my life and the people I love...I've decided to make a Thanksgiving turkey. I know I'm a couple months late, or a few months early...but why should we only be thankful one time a year?

Have I mentioned lately that I love you more than all the polar bears in Alaska? Wait, are they endangered species? Ok, I love you more than all the snow in Alaska.

Dreaming Big and Thankful,
Dor

Whiner Wednesday...

I was going to speak on the radio on Thursday or Friday, but when the hosts heard that I was a stage 4 lung cancer patient, they said the thought they should talk to someone with a little more hope. I suggested they call me on the phone to talk...I'm not sure you can find anyone with more hope than me. I've heard that another DJ from the station is interested in talking to me instead...so I'll make sure he knows my middle name is "NEVER GIVE UP". I won't need to do much talking...I'll just keep them laughing, that ought to be enough evidence of hope.

That just sounded bitter. It wasn't. It was sadness. I have so much to share about hope and happiness that it makes me sad to think that a diagnosis like mine means there is no happy ending. I just filled my 21st bottle of Tarceva. It doesn't get much happier than that ~ for the moment anyway :)

I just had the chance this past week to communicate with a stage 4 lung cancer patient in California who never smoked and has been trying all kinds of alternative treatments for her cancer. None of which have been working. Her doctor e-mailed me and asked if I could share my story. I did, and she is now trying Tarceva. I believe that was a divine intervention... Let's hope she has the same success with it that I've had.

I'd better get going now so I can get pretty for my speaking engagement tonight. It doesn't start until 6:30 and I need all the time I can get.

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Another Taco Tuesday...

The wind has finally died down, no snow is falling in our neck of the woods, and it's not even raining. (Hey, it almost sounds like summer in the Northwest).

I worked on my speeches this morning, went to Taco Tuesday with the girls, came back home and watched my nieces while their momma went to the dentist. All in all it was a great day. I'm a little beat from the day, so it's time for me to get my jammies on, read a book and head to bed.

Rick looks a little tired tonight. While he's in the midst of taking the chemo pills he just seemed so worn out. By next week he should start to feel better...just in time to start all over again.

Hugs to you all,
Big Dreamer Dor

Busy Life

My next couple of weeks are filled to the brim. I'm speaking on Wednesday night at the Skagit County Relay for Life Kick-off, then I have an interview with a Bellingham radio station on Friday (that's still tentative), on Saturday I'm giving a little pep talk to some basketball officials, then finally it's back to Bellingham next Thursday for the Whatcom County Relay for Life Kick Off. It's amazing to think that what I have to say can motivate others. Wow! Who would have known that the little girl who always got "talks too much" on her report cards would be actually saying something people want to hear?

Yesterday, we attended a memorial (celebration of life) for a friend. It was an amazing event. Vickie Cox was her name and in September of 2006 she did a video for her family and friends. Her family discovered it after her death. What an unbelievable way to say good bye. When we weren't laughing at her stories, we were crying from her heartfelt sorrow. I feel so blessed that Rick and I were able to be there for such a special occasion.

I've been falling asleep earlier than usual. I must need the beauty sleep :) Rick has been sleeping later than usual. We need to get on the same schedule or before long I'll be going to bed when he's waking up.

The wind has been blowing hard all day, the temperature has dropped and snow is starting to fall in the area. Be safe and stay warm.

Dreaming Big,
Dor

I'm dying here...

Not from the lung cancer....from the Seahawk game (I swear they're killing me). I'm trying to be positive! We have a Seahawk balloon flying in the living room, we have all kinds of snacks, and drinks, everyone is wearing a Seahawk piece of clothing or hat... And we're still getting spanked by the Packers. There is still 9 minutes and with a miracle we can pull out 3 more touchdowns and a couple of 2 point conversions. If not, we might still be having football Sundays at our house, we just won't be rooting for the Hawks. They've had a good season...we just need a GREAT ONE!

It's been a lazy afternoon here at the Schmitt house, but tonight we plan on joining some friends at a fundraiser for the Stanwood Historical Society. Live music, appetizers, drinks and fun...sounds just like something we need after a football day like today.

Wishing you all a safe and happy weekend.

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Busy couple of days....

I've been a busy girl the past couple of days...hence, no blog. I had a doctor's appointment on Wednesday and everything is still stable. So again, no news is great news! I've developed an anxiety with objects around my face and neck. Sounds crazy, but I can hardly stand to wear the protective mask at the hospital, or when I snorkeled in the Bahamas I felt like I was choking. I even feel that way when I have a scarf around my neck too tight. These are all new experiences, but not that unusual for someone with bad lungs, I guess. Just another adventure to look forward to.

We had our Relay for Life kick-off last night. For 3 hours we had a steady stream of interested people stop by the cinemas. They gathered info, chatted, had refreshments then stopped by Starbuck's to sign up their team. (We couldn't get wireless Internet at the Cinemas so Jake and the McCune boy's sat at Starbuck's with their laptops on and waited for anxious Relayers to sign up). So far we have 33 teams. Not bad for early January :) If you're interested in getting involved or want to donate, go to http://relay.acsevents.org/site/TR/RelayForLife/RelayForLifeGreatWestDivision?fr_id=6258&pg=entry

Rick's chemo treatment has treated him pretty well this time. It may be because he was well rested from the vacation, or maybe it's because he has a good wife taking care of him...either way, he's doing fine (except for his sleeping habits).

Lots to do today...I'd better get going...
Dreaming Big,
Doreen

Taco Tuesday!

I fell asleep very early last night before I had a blog written. I didn't have much to say anyway.

Today was Taco Tuesday and we had a full group. We had our usuals, (Pam, Janeen, Shelly, Sheryl and me) and Janeen's mom and my parents. We had a full house and some great tacos!

Rick and I are meeting his cousins again tonight for a little more basketball. I'm more tired than usual...I'm sure I'll sleep well tonight when we get home. Tomorrow is a regular oncologist appointment for me. Nothing exciting. No scans. No blood work. Just poking and prodding. I'm sure everything is great.

Don't forget about the Relay for Life Kick-Off at the cinemas on Thursday night. This is a great opportunity to learn more about the upcoming events, sign your team up, sign up under someone else's team, get some fundraising ideas, and meet your committee members. Hope to see you there.

Jake is having a great time substituting. Before you know it, he'll feel like a "real teacher".

Dream Big,
Dor

Rain, Rain, Go Away...

Last night we had a little house guest. Darlena (our 2 year old niece) spent the night with us while her Mommy and Daddy had a date. Her sister, Baby Jacqueline stayed with us too while mommy and daddy went to dinner, but Darlena wanted to spend the night at Auntie's house. Oh, sure it was a blast having popcorn and watching Fox and the Hound 1 and 2...but after midnight, she woke up and said..."I miss my Mommy and Daddy. And my baby sister...and Sadie our dog". I reminded her that Mommy and Daddy were sleeping and Auntie doesn't have a car seat to bring her home. One of the things I didn't mention is that she's potty trained so we don't give her anything to drink after about 6:00pm. (Unless you've given her popcorn at 8:00pm and she keeps waking up saying, "Auntie, is it morning yet?...I need water, I need orange juice, I need milk". ) I finally caved in, gave her a few sips of water, rubbed her back, brought her some fruity cheerios and we sang. All of these things helped with the crying, but I think she kept one eye open the rest of the night ~ Waiting for "morning" to come so she could have pancakes and orange juice. When her daddy got here to pick her up, she told him she wasn't ready to go yet. Go figure :) The important this is, we had a blast. Sleep or no sleep.

For those of you who don't live in the Pacific Northwest, let me give you a weather update. It may come as a surprise to you "BUT IT'S COLD and RAINING".

I'm feeling much better but I still have a few reminders about the winter cold I've been harboring for the past week. I hope you're all able to avoid getting this. If not, just be patient...it will eventually clear up. What's the old saying? Your cold will last for 14 days if you don't take any medicine. 2 weeks if you do. (I believe this to be a true statement)

Rick is doing well with this batch of chemo so far. (knock on wood) It's hard to believe he's sick and has all these toxins running through his veins. Because, when you see him, he has a nice "healthy tan" and looks better than ever.

Tonight is a new episode of Desperate Housewives. Though I'm not Desperate...I love to watch it so I'd better get off the computer, clean up the dishes from tonight's dinner, and get my jammies on.

Don't forget about the Relay Kick-Off on Thursday the 10th at the Cinemas. Call me for more information.

I love you more than all the puddles of rain in Washington.

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Great Day...

I had a wonderful day yesterday. I told you it would be a busy one and it was. But, so worth it! Besides lunch and laughter, we went to the movies (and had popcorn). Thanks for a great day, Jana, Alisha, Kelly & Morgan!

Last night Rick, Jake and I met our cousins Kelly and Shelley who were in town for the Snohomish girls basketball game. We went to the Stanwood Grill then headed up to the game. Their daughter Ally isn't playing right now...torn ACL...ugh!

I'm just getting ready to jump in the shower and get ready to meet up with Megan and her mom. They are letting me tag along today at the Seattle Wedding Show. Though no date is set yet, you can never have too much information to work with. It was very kind of them to invite me. I'm really looking forward to it. "Mother of the Groom"...Doesn't that make me sound old?

Rick and Jake will be staying home watching the Seahawks! Angie gets to go to the game....Lucky girl!

Better get going...I dont' want to keep the bride waiting :)Publish Post

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Chemo Update

So much for keeping the promise of writing to you as soon as I got home. I'm not sure where my day went once we got back from Seattle, but it's now after 10:00 and I just got on the computer for the night. Oops. You might have to wait for those photos until tomorrow.

Rick's blood counts are pretty stable (his white blood count and platelets are a little low so, we'll need to do our best to keep him away from germs this go around). When we were at the Cancer Care today, they made me wear a protective mask and rubber gloves (because of my sinus cold). I've been careful with Rick, but they told us today that many of the transplant patients have been getting very sick with the virus that's going around, so anyone with any kind of symptom had to be extra careful. It's better to be safe than sorry. We still spend about 3 hours down in Seattle for Rick's infusion, but it's so much easier on his body than before. He's been resting most of the day since we got home. The first couple of days after treatment usually wipe him out.

Tomorrow is a busy day for me. I'm having lunch with some friends, then visiting with some other friends after that. Rick and I are hoping to go to the high school basketball game tomorrow night. It's against Snohomish and Rick's cousins daughter plays for them. (Not that we need any reason to attend a sporting event). Of course, all of these plans may go to the wayside if I'm not feeling well ... or he isn't. :)

Just a reminder that next week (January 10th at 6:00pm) is our Relay for Life kick-off at the Cinemas in Stanwood. If you're not doing anything that night, stop by and join us.

Gotta get to bed. We started the day very early this morning and I'm starting to feel the exhaustion set in.

Dreaming Big,
Doreen

Chemo Day

We're on our way to Seattle for a little shot of "cure". I'll post a blog and some photos when we get home today. Stay tuned :)

Love you more than all the traffic we'll see on I-5 this morning...

Dor

Sneeze, Cough, Repeat!

My new year started with a box of Kleenex, Sudafed, a pillow and a blanket. I'm sneezing, coughing, my head is stuffy, my nose is raw from blowing it, and I could be a Nyquil commercial. I think I need sun :)

This morning I woke up feeling cruddy...a lot like I did when I went to bed last night. So, I put some clothes on, went to the store and bought all the ingredients to make a big pot of cabbage patch soup. Once I put it all together, Rick kept stirring it and I went to bed. Though it hasn't healed me, it has warmed me up (it's my internal sun).

My dear friend Kathi turned 50 while we were in the Bahamas and her family had a surprise party for her last night. I missed it...no one wanted my sneeze particles on the appetizers. I called her during the party to wish her my best (Rick added his two cents worth and asked her if she got her AARP card in the mail yet). That is when you know you're getting old. When AARP sends you an application. Have I told you all how excited I am to be invited into that club? 50...sounds like a great age to really start living :)

I've been sitting at the computer for about 5 minutes now and my head is throbbing so I'd better go lay back down again. I have a Christmas tree to take down tomorrow and Thursday is chemo day for Rick so I need to start feeling better, ASAP. They don't like it when I'm at Seattle Cancer Care with Rick during his treatments and I'm coughing and sneezing. It frightens the patients.

Don't be afraid to pursue your dreams. If you can dream it, you can do it! Right now, I'm dreaming of a cleared head and a clean house...

Love you more,
Dor

Have a GREAT 2008

I hope the new year finds you healthy & happy. We're going to continue to work on those two things at our home as well.

Don't forget to kiss the one you love when the clock strikes 12...and keep dreaming big :)

Always and forever,
Dor

New Year's Eve 2007

Wow, 2008 crept up on us like an ill-fitting pair of underwear. Ok, enough of the visual.

Here are some things I learned in 2007…

1. Miracles happen everyday.
2. Parents never stop being parents no matter how old their children get.
3. Artificial Christmas trees make life easier.
4. Even if I’m not working at school, I’m always invited to Taco Tuesday.
5. Rick and I always hold hands when we’re taking off and landing in an airplane.
6. I didn’t realize how ugly our flooring was until we replaced it.
7. Skinny is over rated (but oh, I how I want to be just a little over rated)
8. When we set goals, it’s ok to blow your expectations out of the water…Relay for Life 2007 Goal $102,000 Reality $176,000+
9. You can never take too many digital photos
10. Ok, I guess you can take too many photos if your kids get sick of posing
11. I think Angie was an animal trainer or vet in another life. Her smile radiates when she’s with an animals.
12. Non-fat, no whip, extra hot, grande, 2 pump peppermint mochas taste better in ceramic mugs inside Starbuck’s when you’re sitting in the comfy chairs than they do in a paper cup.
13. Work does not have to define you. But, when you do something, give it your best.
14. You can never be an Auntie too many times.
15. Most of my friends will all turn 50 this coming year (some already have) and they didn’t get “old”. Thanks for laying the brickwork, I’ll be joining you in May.
16. Kids grow up too fast.
17. The tastiest popcorn to eat is “tender white” with a little butter and salt. You’ll thank me later.
18. Plants don’t live if you forget to water them.
19. People don’t live if you forget to love them.
20. What I think is “funny” isn’t always “funny” to my kids.
21. You can still sleep with your spouse after he’s been given radioactive beads and not turn into a glow stick.
22. Cancer still sucks.
23. Some of the people you’re closest to, may not be related to you.
24. I can’t please all of the people, all of the time. So, I’m just doing my best.
25. Generosity comes in all sizes.
26. California with Bonnie’s family is one of my favorite places to be.
27. Amy needs her life to be in good working order at all times. Faulty internet, dead cell phones, flat tires, sick parents …not some of her favorite things. She’s a solution kind of girl with a big heart.
28. Some people have more air miles then they’ll ever use in their lifetime and they can give them to their friends.
29. Ellen is tinier than I had envisioned but had a bigger heart than I could have ever imagined.
30. People are still reading and commenting on the blog after all these months.
31. I’ve learned that I need to start listening better and talking less.
32. That, that don’t kill you, can only make you stronger (I think that’s a rap song, but it’s a good message)
33. When all of your children have completed college (with their own brains…no help from mom) you ooze with pride.
34. We should all ask to be bumped up to first class when traveling. It never hurts to ask.
35. Don’t be a wave maker unless you know how to drive the boat.
36. We love our children equally, just not always the same.
37. Give a Schmitt kid a task and expect a job well done.
38. You’re never too old to start something new.
39. Jake is legally employable as a certified teacher…I imagine him to be the one kids talk about when they graduate..
40. Believe.
41. Real love is when your husband is wearing an I-pod and singing out “loud” (without realizing it) and it doesn’t embarrass you, only makes you smile.
42. Megan will make a wonderful daughter-in-law, sister-in-law and wife.
43. Fruity drinks are best on Paradise Island.
44. The older I get, the more I love my life.
45. Instead of focusing on the things we don’t have, we need to embrace the wonderful things we do have.
46. Get a passport. It may encourage you to travel more.
47. You can never listen to too much music.
48. Wii may possibly be one of the greatest inventions of all time. Besides cars, CT scanning machines, high tread count sheets.
49. Keep smiling. It will improve your face value.
50. Being a wife and mother is the greatest job I’ve ever held. Sometimes it’s been the toughest one with the least amount of pay, but it’s always the one with the greatest perks.

We've made it back to our own little "Paradise Island"

First let me say it's very late and I'm going to write a nice blog in the morning when I get up. (Or in the afternoon when I get up, whichever comes first). I must give Amy and Angie credit for the blogs you received while we were on vacation. The wireless internet didn't work very well on Paradise Island and when they could get it to work they had to leave our hotel and go to a little strip mall that had an Internet Cafe. They would get the disk from my camera, take a few words from me, then head over to post a little memo for your enjoyment. If it had been up to me, you may not have heard from me until we got home. Sorry, I love you all...but we were on vacation for goodness sake.

I can't wait to share more photos and stories with you.

Ta, Ta for now....
Dreaming Big,
Dor

A day at the Market

This morning we took a taxi from our hotel on Paradise Island to the Straw Market in town. We spent the day shopping and bartering with the locals. We got the opportunity to see an entirely different aspect of the Bahamas. We later returned to our hotel and spent some time laying in the sun, snorkeling and enjoying a nice dinner together. Who knows what tomorrow will bring?? It will likely be a long day of playing and relaxing in the sun.

Dreaming Big and getting tan,
Jake & Angie

Swimming with Dolphins

We woke up this morning to puddles of water and continuous rain. It was easily the worst morning we’ve had here. We went to breakfast as normal and looked at each other wondering how we were going to spend our day. Mom and dad have been talking to us about taking some type of tour around the island. They had mentioned a snorkeling tour, swimming with the dolphins, etc. We decided to catch a ferry boat to Blue Lagoon Island to a place called Dolphin Encounter. After having the worst morning so far, we had the best afternoon so far. After arriving at the island Angie, Jake and I were able to play with the dolphins, hugging them, kissing them and dancing with them. It was amazing. Mom and dad took pictures of us. I am attaching a few of them right now. The pictures do not do it justice. If you have never had the opportunity to swim with dolphins, you are missing out.

When we returned to the resort for the evening we sat down to a great Italian dinner and then called it a night. We are all pretty beat from an exciting, yet exhausting, day in the water. This vacation has been exactly what we needed to start 2008 strong and revived.

Tomorrow we hope to take a taxi across the bridge from Paradise Island into the town. Mom has been wanting to get over there and do some shopping. I hope we get good weather for our journey through the streets.

We hope everyone had a Merry Christmas yesterday.

Smiling Big-
Amy

Merry Christmas from Paradise

What a Christmas day! We started out by opening some very sweet cards that were sent to us from our friend Shannon in Portland. She created sweet, unique cards for each of us. Thanks! I brought a few little stocking stuffers for the kids but it just wasn’t the same. As you can see by the photos, we got the opportunity to meet Santa today in our hotel lobby. The Santa in the Bahamas has a much better tan that the one that usually visits us in Washington, but he was just as sweet.

Today we literally lounged around on the beach and by the pool – All day! We played in the water, took naps in the comfortable chairs and listened to Christmas music playing through the large speakers. It just didn’t feel quite like Christmas with everyone running around in their swimsuits drinking fruity drinks.

Rick’s feet have been bothering him today. That is just one of the many side effects of his chemo but maybe all of the walking yesterday or the heat the last few days is making things worse. He didn’t have a very good night’s sleep last night either. He has been doing his best to stay out of the sun, but the Schmitt kids have been making up for what he’s missed out on. If you thought their smiles looked white in our Christmas photo, wait until to see the photo at the end of the week.

A lady at our resort noticed my tattoo today. She asked if it had a special meaning…so I told her. It was the first time I’ve thought of the “C” word since we’ve been here. As
you can imagine, I got the typical response. “You don’t look sick”. I thanked her, wished her a Merry Christmas then went on my way.

The kids are having a good time but I think they’re missing everyone back home. Too many days “with mom and dad” can make them crazy.

As they say here in the Bahamas, “Merry Christmas, Mon”.

Dreaming Big,

Dor

Christmas Eve

Today was another wonderful day in the Bahamas. Once again we met for breakfast and started our days with a full belly. We decided to take a walk over to the Atlantis hotel and shop around some of their stores. Rick and Jake spent 30 minutes gambling at the Casino in the hotel and each won $90. We then headed to Cabbage beach where the sand was bright white and the waves were huge. It was a beautiful sight. We took photos and walked barefoot hand-in-hand for a while. On the way back to the Paradise Island Resort I accidentally mis-led everyone in the wrong direction. After 20 minutes of walking in wrong direction the rest of the family finally asked me to step aside. We backtracked those 20 minutes and found our way back to our hotel shortly after. Ok, directions are not my strong suit. I admit it!

This afternoon we spent time out at the hotel pool. Rick and the kids joined me in the water for some swimming and Frisbee tossing. That ended immediately after Jake threw the Frisbee and nailed Amy in the face. Unfortunately Amy was not even in the water at that time and was not expecting the toss to come her way. We checked her face/teeth and she should be ok.

Tonight we had dinner reservations at the nicest restaurant in the hotel. The food was tasty, the drinks were yummy and the company was unbeatable. It was nice to have a Christmas Eve without any dishes or messes to clean up. After dinner we joined the local school children in the lobby of our hotel to sing Christmas carols and listen to children recite poems about the holiday. It was a very nice way to spend the evening.

We did not get around to snorkeling today but hope to make time for it tomorrow. Most people don’t get an opportunity to snorkel and sun tan on Christmas day so this should be a holiday to remember!

Happy Christmas Eve!

Dreaming Big,

Dor and the family

Just another day in paradise

I feel a little guilty while playing in the water and laying on the white sandy beach with my family, while you are all doing your frantic last minute Christmas shopping.

The weather is beautiful today. Mid to low 80’s, no rain (we got a little yesterday). We all ate breakfast around 10:00 then, played Frisbee in the water for a couple of hours. Our hotel offers floating devices, footballs, basketballs, tennis racquets and other stuff to keep us active. It also offers fun fruity drinks like Miami Vice and Bahama Mama’s to mellow us out. It’s a good balance.

I’m upstairs writing the blog as the kids are checking the football scores (It’s still a Sunday even if we’re in the Bahamas). Rick is down on the beach laying in the shade in a hammock.

On Monday night (Christmas Eve) the Bahamas holds a festival called Junkanoo (it’s a Mardi Gras ~ Bahamian Style) The celebration starts at 1:00 am on Christmas morning and goes through New Years. I’m hoping to drag the family to the parade in town, but our cab driver said we might need to by tickets for a seat and who knows how early we’ll need to be there if it starts at 1:00?

It’s great to be here with the whole family. Rick and I have made the kids crazy (ok, mostly me) but I think it was because of a lack of sleep. Our last official vacation (that didn’t involve cancer or a sporting event) was Spring Break of Amy and Angie’s freshman year of high school. April 1992. We need to do this a little more often, don’t ya think?

That’s it for today. We’ve added a few photos to help get you in the mood for a white sand Christmas.

Dreaming Big,
Dor and Family

Bahama Mama

Greetings from the Bahamas! Our first full day on Paradise Island started after a much needed 12 hour sleep (a little longer for some of us). Around 9:30 AM the kids began their day of fun in the sun by relaxing in lounge chairs on the white sandy beach. Although it was very calming, it didn’t last long before they needed to get active. They ended up playing football and Frisbee in the water for hours. We got together as a family for lunch and then visited a local café where we were thrilled to see a “Wireless Internet” sign in the window. This will be our daily hangout in order to keep everyone updated on our vacation adventures.

Today marked Rick’s one year anniversary as a cancer survivor. It is hard to believe it was a year ago that we heard those unbelievable words. To celebrate this milestone the kids made reservations at the nicest restaurant in the hotel for Rick and I and had arranged for a piece of cheese cake to be delivered to him with a candle in it. I got a little bit emotional when that happened. We really do have great kids!

Tomorrow will likely be filled with similar activities as today, only we hope to join the kids in some of their water games. You should see how tan the kids are already; this vacation is exactly what we all needed.

Dreaming Big with fruity drinks in our hands,

Dor

Too busy to blog...

As you all know, when I'm getting ready to leave on a vacation I go wild. That's what I'm doing right now. I need everything in order (which is completely impossible). So, this is a notice of a short term leave from the blog until I'm ready. You never know, I could be done later tonight, or it could be after Christmas.

Rick and I are both feeling great. We're really excited about this trip (which by the way is on Paradise Island in the Bahamas). The original Schmitt 5 will be together (poor kids) basking in the sun (ok, Rick and I will be under an umbrella) sipping drinks with fruit sticking out of it.

Until then, I just want to wish you a very Merry Christmas and a spectacular 2008!

Dreaming Big (with my sunscreen on)
Dor

Let's put that wish on hold ....

My intentions were good, my information was incomplete. I still want to help our friend Garry's wish come true, I just need to get more information to you before we proceed. Thanks to many of you who tried...

This morning was busy. I met up with Cathy and her newly engaged daughter, Anna. We chatted for nearly 2 hours (in our comfy Starbuck's chairs). Then it was off to get my new glasses (I can see now). Then a trip to Bartell's to have some photos made and pick up a few travel items. I stopped at a friends and pulled her hair through a frosting cap while we visited then I went home. I know you're thinking...shouldn't she be getting ready for her trip?

Tonight, I met up with Bev Kopp (a dear friend and budding photographer) who brought me a disk of the photos she had taken at our house during our early Christmas celebration. I can't wait to share them with you, but I'm having a problem loading them into my computer. I promise when I figure it out, you'll be the first to see them.

We went to dinner tonight with my Mom and Dad. The kids had a gift to give them and what better reason to go out for dinner than a celebration with your parents? Angie had a basketball game to ref in Stanwood at 7:00 so we met before that. Rick and I stopped by the high school and watched her in action. Isn't it funny how we used to be in the gym to watch her play, then coach, now ref? I never tire of watching any of our kids.

Jake has been in Seattle since Friday. Megan's family had an annual dinner party with friends and Jake has been invited for the past 3 years. I hope he'll continue to be invited for the next 50 years. With their lives being so busy, Jake and Megan don't get to see much of each other, so now that they are both on a break, they thought they would take advantage of it. He'll be home today sometime.

It's 3:00am and I can't seem to sleep (doesn't that sound like a song?.. maybe I could become a song writer during my insomnia moments). Perhaps vacation anxiety is setting in. I woke up this morning with puffy, baggy eyes - very attractive. My sleep pattern seems to be out of whack right now. I think that's a common side effect of cancer drugs. Oh well, it just gives me more time to write on the blog. Rick has blood work done today to make sure all of his red and white blood counts are doing ok before we leave. If there are any problems, he can start medications right away.

Until tomorrow, sweet dreams....
Dor

Help make a wish come true...

Busy weekend. But aren't' they all? I had a wonderful morning on Saturday fundraising and playing with Janeen, then last night we went to Rick's cousin Gary and his wife Julie's house for a holiday celebration. Besides the amazing food and conversation, we laughed liked little kids the majority of the night. We borrowed my parents van and rode with Mel, Jessie, Eric, Joe, Tom and his girlfriend. My stomach is still hurting from all the laughter.

I was given some advice the other day from a friend who said now that I've mastered the art of giving, I should start working on the receiving part. Isn't it funny how most of us are like this? We love to give, but when someone wants to give us something, we don't know how to accept it. I hope you all know that the love, gifts, advice and friendship I've received from you will be forever embedded in my heart.

A dear friend Garry Carlson, who lost his beautiful son Davis to cancer on Christmas day 2 years ago, has a wish. This summer he traveled for 23 days on a bicycle from Davis Slough on Camano Island to Davis, South Dakota in honor of his son. He made us all very proud to be his friend. Now, I want to pay a little something forward. Attached is a memo how we can help him...let's work together to make this dream come true. You know how I feel about dreams...

Golf Digest is offering a chance for 1 player to play in the US Open
Championship.

Gary would really like an opportunity to do this and help out our
community with the publicity this might generate. If you would like to help
him out with your nomination, here is the link.

https://condenast.eprize.net/golfdigestopen/?affiliate_id=2k

He wrote that he might shoot 98, and that he is currently trying to raise
money for our community to build a community center.
If you feel you could help, please submit my Garry Carlson's name and let's hope for the
best.
"Strength in Numbers".

The Schmitt's are getting ready for a holiday of a lifetime. We'll be bringing the laptop and our digital cameras so we can share our moments with you. It will take me days to get ready so I'd better sign off and get started packing. We've got our house sitters arranged, our passports in order, and our itineraries all scheduled.

Rick and I are feeling great. He'll be done taking his chemo pills tomorrow for a couple of weeks. We're just hoping for a healthy, happy, holiday....

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Happy 500th Blog

Wow. When did I find the time to do all this writing? If I was any good at math I could estimate just how many words I typed...but you know my math skills... so we'll just skip by that equation.

As usual, I've crammed more things in my days than I had time for so I'm just now writing a blog at 11:00 at night. Some days I wish I could just stay home, read a book, knit...but I seem to have this yearning for doing everything right now. Oil change, last minute shopping for things I don't need, stopped by Angie's school 2 days in a row, made 6 dozen sugar cookies for Jake's class, cooked a turkey, went to a work Christmas party, cooked a little holiday feast for Rick's employees, cut Cathy's hair, went to Jake's school and decorated the cookies with the kids, had dinner and saw a movie with Aunt Jessie and Uncle Mel....Then tomorrow it's fundraising for our Relay for Life team and a cousin Christmas party in Millcreek. Sunday will be a day of REST~and I mean it (unless I get a better offer :)

Today Jake had his final day of student teaching. Mr. Chaplik (the teacher Jake worked under) invited me back for a special celebration they were having. The students all wrote Jacob a letter and assembled a book for him. They each brought a book (or a collection of books) to add to his classroom library (when he gets a classroom someday) as well as adding to his classroom sporting equipment (basketball, football, baseball). One of the first things I saw when I arrived in the class this afternoon was a little boy wearing a shirt that said "Everything I learned in 5th grade, I learned from Mr. Schmitt". It was hilarious. I took a photo of this little guy with Jake and I plan on posting the photo, I just need to get the mom's approval first.
To make the day even that much better, when we got home, Jake's teaching certificate from WSU was waiting in the mailbox. Yahoo...it's official.

When I stay this busy it's easy to forget all the stuff going on in our lives. So for now, I'm just going to keep on going strong. When it's time for me to slow down....the body will let me know.

I'm hoping to post some new photos on Sunday. Until then, thanks again for dancing through life with us.

Dreaming Big (500 times)
Dor

Good Day, Mate

Last night, I slept terribly. You would have thought that I would sleep like a baby once I got my "life" under control. (Who am I trying to kid? It's not under control, I just know where I stand with my job for the next few months)

It was probably a good thing I didn't sleep because I had to get up early to join the office ladies for breakfast and celebrate the December birthday club. Then I had to bring the SUV to the dealership for an oil change and an Onstar update. After that, I stopped by Angie's school, came home and straightened up the guest room. I made dinner, fed the family, went to the boys basketball game against Australia, then brought a coach home with us to camp out. His name is David and he's been visiting with Rick, Jake and I all night (which is why this blog is posting so late). They were a few rooms short to host these players and their coaches, and who better than us to volunteer? It's been a very nice visit!

I wish I could keep my eyes open so I could write more. Instead, I'm going to get some shut-eye and try writing again in the morning.

Love you more than all the coral in the Great Barrier Reef :)

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Simply Amazed

For the past few days I've been wondering and worrying about what I'll to do about going back to work now that I have fulfilled my 90 consecutive days of sick leave. I knew I needed to make some decision about what I would do once winter break was over...but today I learned that my generous friends and co-workers have extended my sick leave and I don't need to think about making any changes in my life for now. How can you every re-pay someone for this kind of gift? I hope that my family and I can continue to pay this kindness forward.

Amy is home now from the flood lands. She's not sure if she'll be called up again but if she can be released from her job, she'll head out again to help where she can. She sounded exhausted tonight when I talked to her but she also sounded proud to have helped.

It's official. Jake has finished his student teaching. He should have his teaching certificate by Monday. Now, he can start subbing and applying for jobs. He's excited to be done with school for the time being.

I'm heading to bed now feeling a weight lifted off my shoulders. For now my job can be to keep living, loving and laughing. I can worry about my job a little later. I have a few ideas to keep myself busy, starting with volunteering. Remember...pay it forward.

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Where's Dor?

I'm here. We celebrated Christmas yesterday with family and friends and had a great time. I suggested that we celebrate early like this from now on. The stress of the holiday season is behind me and now I feel like I can really enjoy Christmas. Our friend Bev met us at our house before everyone arrived and took a bunch of family photos. I can't wait to see the finished products.

When I got up this morning I looked around and felt a real joy. We are planning a special trip during the holidays this year and now I can concentrate on getting ready for that. I'll share it all with you as we get closer to our journey.

Rick and I are both feeling pretty good. Rick has one more week of chemo pills for the year, until 2008. I know that's just around the corner, but it sounds like so much more time when I say it that way. He bumped his leg a couple of weeks ago and it's still giving him a little problem (the blood thinner shots keep him from healing as quickly). We are going to keep a close eye on it over the next few days. If it doesn't get better soon, I'm making him an appointment to have it checked. I don't even have to beg him to go to a doctor anymore. If I have a feeling about something, he lets me have my way. Hey, it should have always been this way.. My cough is much, much better than it was in November.

Today, I met my friend Val at Skagit Gardens. It is a local nursery during the spring and summer and a Holiday Heaven in the winter. We spent over 3 hours looking at every tree, ornament, and holiday item on display. Luckily, they serve a great lunch as well. Otherwise, we may have gone hungry. We had the best time...Thanks Val.

While we were celebrating Christmas yesterday, Angie was helping make a little boys dream come true. She said he was elated with everything from the jersey the Seahawks gave him, to the signed photo, and autographs he got from players. She sounded like the day was almost as special for her as it was for the little guy. For all the love and support we've received from people over the past year and a half...I'd say she was just paying it forward.

Speaking of paying it forward, Amy got called up again to help with flood victims. I talked to her tonight and she sounded exhausted. With so much devastation, it will be a long time before these people feel "normal" again. Though it's a different situation than hurricane Katrina, the destruction of peoples lives is very much the same. Amy's been taking photos and we'll post them when she gets home. She says they look bad, but nothing in comparison to the real thing. I know Thanksgiving is over, but everyday is a day to be THANKFUL.

I love you more than all the frantic shoppers in malls across America...

Dream Big,
Doreen

Blog #496

As I was signing in today to write this blog I noticed I was 5 short entries away from my 500th. That, my friends is a lot of typing (now I know why my house isn't spotless). I'm working on a special entry to celebrate the day.

Yesterday was a busy, emotional day. I attempted to get all my presents wrapped and the house organized for Sunday's Christmas celebration. Instead, I went to my cousin's memorial service. He was only 48 but had lived a hard life. I'm sorry I didn't know him better as he had gotten older. Cousins sometimes disconnect when our families get big. I contemplated all morning if I was going to attend the funeral. Not because I didn't want to pay my respects, but because I knew I would be sitting with my mom and dad and I wasn't sure how they would react. The truth is, it was a good day for all of us (emotional, but good).

I think I'm ready for my Christmas gathering tomorrow, if not...it will happen anyway. Amy was called up on Thursday for the Air National Guard, to help with flood victims. She was released tonight, so we'll get to see her tomorrow as well. Angie has been working on getting Seahawks tickets for one of her students who's mommy died of cancer last year. He is a twin so Angie has a special little bond with him. With amazing friends like we've been blessed with, Angie got tickets and gets to go on the field with her friend Shannon, her little buddy and his dad. They have to be at Quest field by 11:30, so we'll only see Angie for a little while. Just seeing her face as she talks about how excited this little boy is, is the best gift Angie could have gotten this Christmas. I can't wait to hear her story when she returns.

I went to the high school play "It's a Wonderful Life" Friday night with some friends. Afterwards, we went to Amigos (our favorite local Mexican Restaurant). We visited and laughed until we couldn't take it any longer, honestly it was the hardest I've laughed in months. Thankfully, they put us in the banquet room so we didn't annoy any of the other customers.

Rick and Jake got the outdoor Christmas lights put up today (while I had my nails done...gotta get your priorities straight) It was a nice surprise since I didnt' think we weren't putting any up this year .

I'm excited to share a bunch of photos with you that were taken at the Bonnie J. Addario Lung Cancer Gala in November. I got to see them today but I can't download them yet. When I figure it out....you'll be the first ones I share them with.

As I sit here in my living room and write this blog on my lap top, I can't help but think~this is a GOOD life we live. We have a fire burning, the Christmas tree is glowing (it's a pre-lit tree with 1,200 lights on it), the house is clean, the stockings are hung by the chimney with care, in hopes that St. Nick...wait, that's a different story. Until tomorrow...Love your neighbor, love your family, love your friends, love yourself :)

Dream Big,
Dor

Scan Update...

First I would like to apologize for not posting a blog last night. I had a computer overload and a time management problem - I got busy after my appointment...Christmas shopping, a Relay for Life meeting, then decorating cookies to look like airplanes with my friend Ann. Time got away from me and sleep took over. But, here's what I know:

Dr. Eaton has another doctor he works with named Krystyna Soltysiak. She is hilarious and warm and I think we may have been separated at birth (a few years apart...she's much younger). I've had the pleasure of seeing both Krystyna and Dr. Eaton my last two visits. She tells me it's because of people like me that she comes to work each day, I tell her it's because of Doc's like mine that I keep coming to Seattle for care. I am so lucky. (There is that word again...)

The scan continued to look stable. So, I will continue taking Tarceva like a good patient. Dr. Eaton gave me copies of my last couple of reports (to keep for my files - if I need them for anything). Sometimes, I'm oblivious to what's happening in my body. I know I have lung cancer, but so far, it doesn't HAVE me. The report says I have "numerous bilateral sub-centimeter pulmonary nodules scattered throughout both lungs, and the largest is 9mm". Though I don't know what that means, the word STABLE is also on the report and that's the word I'm always looking for. :)

Next month, I'm just having a check up. No tests. No scans. Just a doctor's visit.

I hope you're all as relieved as I am. The holidays seem much brighter now, so bright in fact, that I may need to wear my fancy Palm Springs sunglasses just to enjoy the season.

Rick is feeling a little rough after this last chemo. We're having a family Christmas this weekend so I hope he's doing better by then. He never complains so I'm just giving you my personal assessment (and since I'm almost a doctor you should believe everything I say). I'm looking forward to a weekend of family fun - and football....

Love you more than all the presents I have to wrap by Sunday :)

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Visits to Seattle

I didn't go into Seattle very often but when I did it was to spend time at Pike Place Market, the theater or a day of shopping with my girlfriends. Now the city represents hospitals, chemotherapy, doctor's visits. It sort of takes the fun out of an adventure to the "Big City". I need to change this way of thinking. I need to go to Seattle for fun every once in a while because I CAN.

Today was pretty uneventful for a chemo day. Rick and I both had blood work at 3:00, I had a CT scan at 3:20, Rick had a doctor's appointment at 4:00 and then he had chemo at 5:00. I'm due back in Seattle at 8:30am tomorrow for my test results. I'm feeling pretty good so I don't expect to hear any discouraging news. And, no matter what the results say, it won't change the way I think, or act, or feel :) On our way home, Ricky took me out for dinner. We had a wonderful time. I love that guy.

I hope you all enjoyed my blog yesterday. I could feel the smiles and laughter in the responses you sent today. If you make one of your family, please share it with me at dreambig@wavecable.com

I'd better get to bed now since I have to get up early and make the trek back down I-5 in the morning.

Thank you for all your love and prayers.
Big Dreamer Dor

Happy Holidays...

This year Rick and I have decided to send out a video Christmas card to our loyal blog readers. I hope you enjoy it as much as we enjoyed making it.

Only 22 days until Christmas...

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Your favorite elf-
Dor

Rainy, Windy, Football Sunday

I thought we would wake up this morning to a white December...but the rain took over in the middle of the night and we had slush instead. That's ok, we had things to do and we're not quite ready to be housebound. (it's a little early in the season for that) Tonight we've been hit with plenty of wind and rain and that's not good for flooding areas.

I went to a Pampered Chef party today that my friend Kelly had as a fundraiser for Relay For Life. I got an e-mail from her tonight and so far she's raised $500. Way to go Kelly. It's not even 2008 yet and you've already got a great start~ I rode to the party with my dear friend Jana who I haven't seen in months. We used to sit together at sporting events and serve on committees together, but now that our children have graduated, we don't get the opportunity to visit near as much as we should.

Tonight we had dinner with Rick's brother and his wife. Dawn knows we like pork roast, so she invites us over every once in a while when she makes one. Dinner was wonderful. Doesn't it always taste better when someone else makes it?

I missed seeing Amy and Angie this weekend. They've been busy girls lately and I have to remember they have lives of their own.... I hope to see them both tomorrow night :)

Only 23 days til Christmas (or 22 if you're reading this on Monday). I keep hearing a commercial on TV that says Americans produce 20 million more pounds of waste during the holidays and that we should give experiences instead of wrapped presents. Hum, sounds like a great idea.

Love you more than all the raindrops that keep falling on my head...
Big Dreamer Dor

Loving Life

These past 2 days have felt very "normal". My coughing has nearly stopped (with the help of some meds) and I've just played with my friends.

Yesterday I got a pedicure with Val, went to lunch, shopped around town, headed home and met up with Rick and Jake. We went to the first home Stanwood boys basketball game (they won) and we had a great time seeing all our "old familiar friends". After the game we met up with some friends at a local Mexican restaurant for a couple of hours. It was really fun to be back in the middle of a life I'm so familiar with.

This morning we woke up to a little snow on the ground. Last year around this time our friends Reid and Cathy picked me up and we drove around like fools in the snowy weather. Once we saw the snow this morning we looked at it as a tradition we started last year, as opposed to the weather being a burden. So, they picked me up again this morning (Rick and Jake stayed back to cut wood) and we drove around looking for the slippery roads. We never found them, but we took scenic routes, went to lunch, took photos of the snow geese, and went shopping. All in all it was a lot of fun and I got to forget about all the "drama" in our lives. What a wonderful day.

Rick and Jake just got home from cutting wood. Their toes and fingers are frozen like popscicles and lucky for them, I started a pot of vegetable beef soup when I got home this afternoon. They'll be warmed up before you know it.

When I was at the basketball game last night a friend was telling me how she thought of me the other day because she knows how important I try to make my "moments". She said she was bowling with some relatives (some who smoke), and when they weren't bowling they went outside in the cold to smoke while the non-smokers stayed inside and laughed and made memories. It was at that time that she realized how many moments they were missing out on, just for a cigarette. Wow. That was pretty powerful.

In case I haven't told you lately, I love my life.

Love you more than all the snowflakes falling in the great northwest!

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Quick little blog

Rick and I went to dinner tonight with a group of farmers who he does business with in Skagit County. They always treat us so nice that it's one of those events I look forward to attending.

I got a great night of sleep last night so I felt very rested today. After my shower, I met Pam for lunch and we visited a little shop in downtown Stanwood (during Pam's lunch break). I've seen my work friends nearly every day this week and I'm reminded how much I miss being around them.

When I think of returning to work, I'm excited to be able to see my friends on a regular basis, but when I think of the work load...ugh, I'm not sure I have it in me. I'm sure I can still do the job, but my way of working always involved a little extra... and that's the part I'm not sure I have. I have a scan on Tuesday and the results on Wednesday. Hopefully, these results will come back without much change, and I'll return to work after the holidays. If not, we'll re-adjust and make a new plan.

Tomorrow I'm going to spend the day (or a portion of it) with my buddy Val. I love her company and for as close as we live to one another, you'd think we would visit on a regular basis. No such luck. I plan on savoring my time with her, and hopefully we'll meet up with our honeys (Dave and Rick) for a movie and dinner tomorrow night.

My cough is much better. I don't know if it's better internally, but the medicines have definitely made the coughing subside. Rick had a great day today. He hasn't had to take chemo drugs since Monday and it's starting to show. He always feels much better without them. Who wouldn't.

I'm going to bed now to watch my TIVO'd version of Grey's Anatomy. Without commercials, we can get through it in 40 minutes.

Love you more than all the Christmas lights I saw on our way to dinner. :)

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Long Day

I got up early this morning to make breakfast for the ladies at work. We have a birthday breakfast once a month (we haven't had one since September so we're way behind) and this month Pam and I were the hostesses. It was nice to see all my friends from the office, but my stomach still hurts from laughing all morning. I took a long nap when I got home so I finally feel rested. Now if I could just get a good nights sleep...I might be caught up.

My dad was in "jail" this afternoon to raise money for the MDA foundation. I brought him some money to help him reach is goal (bail) but I think he liked being held against his will.

As I lay here on the couch writing this blog, I can't help but smile as I look at our decorated Christmas tree, my display of snowmen and and the flicker of candles burning throughout the house.

We just got an e-mail that our cousin Jennifer and her husband Scott had a baby boy yesterday afternoon. They've named this 10 lb. 2 oz. bundle of joy, Charles Scott McEwen. I can't wait to see him. His is joined by his 2 sisters, Savannah and Scarlett. What a beautiful little family they have. Congratulations!

I'm signing off now so I can go look for the Christmas cards I bought. I seem to have this problem regularly...buy something, then forget where I put it. :)

Dream Big,
Dor

Taco Tuesday for Dor

I spent the evening at Mom and Dad's house tonight. It is always nice to catch up with them and I am guaranteed to get a yummy dinner as a bonus. I have been bugging Mom for over a week to cut and color my hair and tonight she finally did it. I think she got tired of listening to me tell her that I was going to go to Hair Masters. It looks great Mom, thanks!

Mom went to work this morning for an hour or so, then met her buddies at Taco Time for lunch. Their lives get so busy sometimes that they forget about the events that really bring them joy...Like Taco Tuesday :) I am happy to know that she got out of the house and did something fun for a change.

Dad seems to be moving slowly tonight. I am not sure if it is his feet that hurt or if he is just feeling sore all over but it certainly shows. If I were to ask him how he feels, he would give his typical answer, "Pretty good". He never complains so I wouldn't expect him to start now.

I hope you have all found a way to educate others about Lung Cancer Awareness Month. If not, you still have the rest of the week to make it happen!

Dreaming Big and Loving Life...

Angie

Monday Memo~

I stayed home all day and visited with my dear friend Kim who is home from Palm Springs. We talked and laughed (and cried) for hours. ( I also showed her how to Wii) It was really nice to get together with her again since it had been so long. She is a sweetheart and I'm glad to be her friend.

Rick has been awfully quiet lately. That usually happens at the end of his chemo round. Hopefully, he'll be his old self again by next week. I think I'm on the mend from this bronchitis. However, by 8:00 every night, I'm exhausted (even if I haven't done anything). Oh well. Rest is good for the soul.

Jake is getting ready to finish up with his student teaching...(he has parent/teacher conferences this week). Then, he can start looking for a real job that pays :) Most people don't realize that when people are doing their student teaching, they don't get paid and they have to pay the college they are getting their degree from to be advised during this time. It's all worth it in the end.

Angie officiated her first high school girls basketball game of the year tonight. She always seems so excited when she gets back in the swing of things. Rick and I usually try to catch her in action (proud referee parents) during the season.

Amy stopped by tonight for Monday night football, to give her dad a foot rub and to tell me how much she loved me.

I'm going into the office tomorrow morning (because they need me...or so they say) then to lunch with my Taco Tuesday Buddies. Even though my week looks pretty open, I'm going to stay close to home and try to work on getting healthy.

Gotta go now. Dishes to do before I go to bed :(

Dreaming Big,
Dor

I'm in trouble

Amy stopped by the house this morning to "remind" me that she is NOT a traitor but rather a grateful friend who got tickets from a Husky season ticket holder. She was also provided the husky gear she wore, the backpack she carried, and the husky blanket that was wrapped around her the whole game. She also "reminded" me that neither her or her sister went to WSU so it's ok if they root for other teams. Amy is also extending the offer to anyone else...if you have a ticket to any sporting event and you would like to provide her with team gear and a seat, she would join you as an active fan as well.

I guess the word TRAITOR was a little harsh. Sorry baby bear.

Love Momma Bear

Weekend Update

I didn't have a lot of free time to keep you updated, so I thought I'd do it all at once. We went to the Apple Cup game yesterday (Go Cougs) and had a great time. The whole family went (though we all didn't sit together) One of the sisters was even a traitor and wore purple (but we still love her - Her loyalties are at Eastern) As you probably know, WSU beat UW in a great game of back and forth leads. You didn't even have to like football to know this was a great game.

I forgot to mention that I got a gift from our dear "cousin" Erik. He has made us a couple of other really unique (one of a kind) bird houses, but on Friday night he sent a new one for us. It is a little birdhouse church with a sign that says "Wii little Church". We love it! I'll try to take a photo and post it later.

This morning I was planning on fixing breakfast for Bob, Dy, Dave and Val, but instead ~ we went to the Stanwood Cafe. We had wonderful food, lots of laughs and our usual photo sessions in the parking lot. It's always so good to see them, but so sad to have them leave.

After I got back from breakfast, I started decorating for Christmas. I put up the tree (no ornaments yet) then put out other random items. I still haven't put any ornaments on the tree as of tonight and honestly, I don't even mind just all white lights twinkling in the living room with candles burning and all the other light out. I'm not playing any holiday music yet, (I'm waiting until December 1st.)

I'm getting very groggy and I need to get some sleep now. So, good night...sleep tight...don't let the bedbugs bite.

Dreaming Big,
Dor
My brother-in-law Jeff came over and helped Rick put up a new track light so the quilt really shows up beautifully in the hallways. After the job was complete, we played wii and had dinner.