The first 24 hours....Going Good!

Today was very uneventful other than Rick really did take it easy until around 3:00pm when he thought he should go to work for a couple of hours. I said ok (since he would have gone anyway) and he was back home as promised before dinner. So far, only mild nausea and fatigue. He has about 18 more hours of his chemo drip then we'll have it removed. Day 1 - down. And we survived! What makes me sad about this whole thing is not that we have cancer, but that it has disrupted our lives and so many of our friends and family's lives. We'll continue to fight this battle with all we have to show you that your efforts, love and prayers did not go un-noticed.

I just got an e-mail from the Lung Cancer Alliance to share the news that they have a new awareness campaign that's hitting the air on Friday. If you want to learn more about it, go to www.lungcancerawareness.com Joe Buck, Troy Aikman and Cal Ripkin, Jr. are the new spokesmen. I think that's pretty powerful.

Both of the girls came by today. Amy stopped by on her way to a meeting and Angie brought dinner over tonight. I look at our children carefully now and hope that they are taking care of themselves. Each of them looks exhausted (but cute) and I worry they are spending too much time taking care of everything but themselves. Hopefully, we will get back on a routine that is good for all of us.

Relay for Life is flourishing thanks to many hard working people. You know who you are and I'm very proud of you. Keep up the good work. Who knows, we may meet all our goals by May!

I'm going to head off for some much needed rest.

Dreaming Healthy Dreams,
Doreen

Time to pull over....

When you are driving and that pesky little "check engine light" comes on... you should stop what you are doing and get some help.

When you are driving and you notice the Jiffy Lube sticker in the upper left hand corner of your window says you should have gotten your oil changed 1,500 miles ago.... you should stop what you are doing and get some help.

When you are driving and your gas light comes on.... you should stop what you are doing and get some help because you are running on E. The Schmitt family, my friends, is running on E.

Mom and Dad pulled into Seattle at 9am this morning and started their long trip home thru rush hour traffic at 5:30pm. Most of the time when you put in those type of hours you get to walk away with a paycheck and not a fanny-pack filled with Chemo drugs. I'm not going to lie, today was tough. Today has been one of the toughest days I've had in a long time. I haven't cried a lot (although the day isn't over yet) but mentally and emotionally I am beat.

I hit traffic this morning on the way down to Seattle and since Angie had a mandatory class today and couldn't come down, I was without the luxury of the carpool lane. When I finally got to the Seattle Cancer Care Alliance it was 10:00. Dad was in his room and the nurse was about to get started with the injections. Mom and I were able to sit in the private suite with Dad the entire time. We took turns lying next to him, holding his hand, rubbing his feet, etc. Numerous nurses, nutritionists, social workers, and chaplains visited throughout the day to make sure we were ok. I have no doubt that my parents are being treated at the right hospital. I can't express my appreciation for their professional skills... which are performed with such a caring & human touch.

At 3:45 Dad finally finished his long day of treatment. He did not experience any serious discomfort. He was never nauseous or uncomfortable. He experienced sweating, some significant foot/leg cramping, and an elevated heartbeat at one point. That's it. At the conclusion of the treatment a nurse hooked up his take home fanny pack. The fanny pack holds additional chemo drugs which are being injected directly into the port in his chest until Thursday afternoon.

After his treatment ended we went upstairs to see his doctor and get the results of his tests from last week. This is where I have to admit, I struggled to make it through the test results. The doctor began by saying the lesions on his liver have grown. I'm not sure what I expected to hear, but it wasn't that. I am well aware that my dad just spent the past 5 weeks recovering from his colon surgery and did not receive any treatment during that time. It's not like I expected to hear that his liver is looking "better"... since he wasn't being treated yet... but I think we have been spoiled when it comes to mom's excellent progress reports. We have never heard her oncologist say anything negative. Every appointment her scans look better than the one before. That was not what we heard today with dad.

The test results contained a lot of big words and a lot numbers... none of which will help you understand my dad's condition... except one. His CEA count. CEA is a tumor marker, equivalent to a PSA reading for someone with prostate cancer or the CA 125 test for a woman with breast or ovarian cancer. It is a baseline reading to read the cancer cells. For the average person, a normal score for a CEA test would be somewhere between 0.0 - 2.0. My dad's CEA is currently 44.3, up from 26 at his appointment last month. Clearly, it was hard for all of us to hear the doctor say that. Nobody wanted, or expected, to hear that his cancer was growing so quickly. The doctor assured us that nothing was abnormal about the findings however. He said it is expected for the cancer to grow until the patient receives medical treatment. He told dad to think positive, eat well, get some exercise, and to enjoy life with the family that obviously loves him. It's hard to argue with those directions. We've decided to give them a try.

Today was long and emotional but the unknown of chemo is now behind us. We are home and resting. It's time to pay attention to the flashing red light that's telling us to refuel. We can all use some sleep....

Signing off.....Amy

Tonight will be a sleepless night

I'm so unsure of what lies ahead of us tomorrow that I can't imagine closing my eyes tonight. I know Rick is finally beginning treatment and that is a good thing. We can't begin to heal until that process begins. We'll get through this one step at a time...I just hope they let us sit down and take a break every once in a while. I'm not up for a marathon.

My restlessness doesn't just stem from the unknown, it also stems from knowing. Although everyones reaction to the chemo drugs is different, we do know life as we know it will change. When I was first diagnosed, I used to say only good will come out of this, and there is a reason for everything, but as I look on our journey starting tomorrow, I can't begin to think of anything in this pitcure that looks like a good idea.

I cleaned the house, washed the bedding & baked oatmeal/raisin cookies today(I wasn't paying attention to the directions and used a tablespoon of baking soda - instead of a teaspoon - so I had to triple the batch) Did I mention that I'm still baking cookies?

I'll write more tomorrow and let you know how everything went.

Love you more than all the oatmeal cookies I've baked tonight.

Dream Big,
Dor




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Welcome to our lazy world

Not much to report other than we had a lazy weekend. Jake was home, we went to a basketball game as a family, then out to dinner. We snuggled a little, enjoyed each others company and caught up on some much needed sleep. (Except for Rick...he prefers to stay awake during the night then snooze in his chair during the day)

My side is still hurting (not bad but I know it's not normal) and Rick is feeling pretty good. Now he's laying low and resting up for the big week.

My pork roast is about done, so I'd better get off the computer and finish the rest of the dinner.

I'll write more later if something comes up (don't count on it)

Dream Big,
Boring Doreen

New and Improved Blog Page

I thought you might be getting tired of the same old "BLOG", so I decided to brighten it up a bit. Give it a "facelift". So here it is. Hope you like it. I think it's easier to read. Now, if I could just write something interesting to read about. Let me think....

I didn't feel my best yesterday. Nothing bad, just a tightness in my chest (that has now moved to my lower ribcage on one side, and my middle rib cage on the other). I don't feel bad, just a little uncomfortable. I'll take a few tylenol and call you in the morning. I think this all started when I coughed a little too hard. That happens sometimes to healthy people so I'm sure I'll be fine. I just need to stay as germ free as I can, because I don't want to get Rick sick during his treatments. If I'm not feeling my best, I'm sure I can wear one of those face masks like dentists wear... I always wanted to be a medical professional :)

Rick has been feeling pretty good these past couple of days. It sure makes me happy to see him eating better, getting out more and smiling. Tonight we're going to go watch a Western girls basketball game in Bellingham as a family. Many of you are thinking...why not a movie? Or the opera? Let me assure you, we'll all be at our peak on the inside of a gymnasium.

Jake is home and we're thrilled. I got up this morning and he was folding clothes and cleaning up the kitchen. I feel a little guilty that I woke up an hour after him, but he didn't seem to mind it a bit. It gave him more time to re-organize for me. (I'm really not kidding. This happens everytime he comes home)

Angie stopped by this morning after working out to visit. While she was here, she also cut Jake's hair. Usually, that's my job, but she did pretty good on her own. She stayed and had lunch then went home to see my grand-dog Claira and my grand-cat Fuzz.

It's Saturday afternoon and I still have a bathrobe on. I did however make a nice lunch for everyone, so I don't think anyone has noticed. I'd better hop in the shower now and start getting ready. If I want to be pretty before I leave, I should have started yesterday.

Love you more than I did yesterday but not as much as I will tomorrow.

Dream Big,
Dor

Here I am

I'm so sorry I haven't written in the past few days. I had a lot to say but I couldn't get my blog to work. Everything is updated now so we shouldn't have anymore problems.

First, let me take us back to Wednesday....I worked (at my job that I haven't been at for weeks) and I thought I would "love it". I loved seeing all my friends and workmates, I loved the kids, and my bosses, and the environment, I loved having lunch with Pam and Neener, but I didn't "love being at work". I've come to a conclusion that work will be fine without me for a while, but more importantly, I realized that I'll be fine without work for a little while too. Apparently, once the kids left home, I started to identify who I was by my work. Truthfully, that's not who I am at all. I'm a wife, a mother, a daughter, a friend, a goofball...and right now, I want to concentrate on all of those very important roles. Troy, Tom and Sheryl are doing a great job at the office. They'll be fine without me (though I'm sure they will miss me...right guys?)

Rick had a rough day recovering from his port-a-cath procedure on Tuesday but by Wednesday night he was feeling much better. (I'm sure the reason he was feeling so cruddy was because of the long day we had on Tuesday.) He found that laying around all day isn't one of his favorite things to do, but he also realized that if he takes it easy, he'll recover quicker. Another one of life's lessons.

Now, on to Thursday...I worked again but only for a half day. I had lunch with my good friend Cathy who just returned from Haiti where she worked with a team of dentists. She shared some amazing stories and I'm very glad she made it home safely.

The Relay for Life Kick Off was a huge success. We've hit our goal of over 50 teams already and we're months away from the actual event. I'm going to attach some photos from last night's gala...(they were taken by our own Larry Libby) I hope you enjoy them. I am so thankful for Amy Terich and the committee who really pulled this thing together. I want to specially thank Peggy for the flowers, cakes and decorations and Karen for the great give-aways and securing the perfect location. My friends Pam, Janeen, Kelly (and her kids), Bill Gum and others, were there early to help set up, then remained available all night to help wherever they saw a need. We had a great turnout of high school students who want to get involved. It was fun to see them all there. However, Rick and I were most proud of our daughters for their love for us and their dedication to this cause. I know I'm the mom, but I really believe last night was such a hit because of their determination to make a change.

Jake is home from college for the weekend so we're going to spend some quality time with him. I'm going to go get dressed so he and I can some errands then have a nice afternoon together. I can't wait til the end of March when he'll be home for good and we'll have our whole family close.

I know I say this all the time, but LIFE IS GOOD.

Dream Big,
Doreen

We're Exhausted~

This photo is to show you just how tired we are. Ugh!

What a day it's been. Rick and I left the house before 7:00am. We arrived in Seattle around 8:20 (the traffic was terrible) and the girls met us shortly after. Although the day was very overwhelming, we learned a great deal about what we should expect from Rick's treatments. He will most likely feel sick/nausea (but they have great meds for this), his white count will probably drop, he might lose his hair (but not everyone does with this chemo cocktail), mouth sores are almost a guarantee and he'll have a diminished appetite. Nothing here seems impossible to overcome. Remember, you've gotta DREAM BIG.

The Port-A-Cath that was installed in Rick's chest today is a pretty neat apparatus. It is implanted completely under the skin and it has a tube that has been fed down a major artery and into his heart area. (I know that didn't sound very professional but I couldn't remember everything...trust me, it's going to work great) We have an ointment to rub on the area before his treatment each time to numb the skin and he'll never even know he's having poision pumped into him. Ok, that might have been stretching it a bit, but it will help with pain during his treatments.

He had a PET scan today to check out his whole body (hey, hey, get your minds out of the gutter ladies), and a CT scan so they have some baselines to compare his IMPROVEMENTS to. I'm a firm believer that 2 months from now we will have great news to share with our family and friends.

We were going to take Amy and Angie out for dinner tonight after all the tests were complete, but they decided to come back to our house early (after they told us he would be in the PET scan for at least 3 hours) to start a fire and load the garage with more firewood. I'm telling you...they are keepers...and NO they are not for sale or rent! Since we didn't take the girls out for dinner and Rick hadn't eaten since dinner last night (which by the way was a wonderful pot of soup prepared by our friend and neighbor, Erika) he chose none other than DICK's for dinner. It made him happy and that's all I cared about.

Until tomorrow, keep dreaming big!
Doreen

Relay For Life

I noticed that someone just posted a comment asking for information about the Relay For Life here in Stanwood. For those of you who live out of town, or who are not currently on a team, I will attach the link to the Stanwood Relay page. Save the link as one of your favorites so you can log on each day and watch the community get closer and closer to reaching our goals!

Last year the community had 35 survivors walk the survivor lap.
30 teams sign up to participate.
And, we raised $81,000.

Our goals for this year are:
75 survivors.
50 Teams.
$100,000.

As you follow the link you will see that as a community we have already raised $10,000 and we have already surpassed the 30 teams that we had last year! We are off to a great start and we are still 5 months away from the walk. As you look at the new Relay website, you can sign up a team or make a donation to a participant if you wish to. If nothing else, look at which businesses have made large donations to sponsor the event... and thank them for their involvement when you enter their business.

If you are a cancer survivor, we encourage you to come walk the survivor lap with us on the night of the event (JUNE 1ST, 2007). The webpage is not set up for survivors to sign up online, but please email Angie at schmitt_12@hotmail.com if you want to come and participate. She is in charge of survivors and she has been working hard to make sure it will be a memorable experience for you.

Survivors: Make sure Angie gets you on her list so she can order you a free Survivor T-shirt!

http://www.kintera.org/faf/home/default.asp?ievent=206091

Thanks-
Amy

By the way, the webpage can be a little confusing your first time. To see who in the community is participating.... scroll down and look at the section called Team Rank on the right hand side at the bottom. Just below the top 5 ranking you will see the more button. If you click on that it will bring up ALL of the teams (and individuals) in the event so far. Let me know if you need help with anything.

Busy day today

I was going to get up really early and write this blog (since I haven't written one in days) but I just woke up. Sorry. :(

I have scans and x-rays and reports to pick up so we can take them to Rick's appointment tomorrow. Amy and Angie will be with us tomorrow in Seattle for the all day excursion. One of the girls always takes notes as the rest of us try to listen carefully. This cancer stuff is a lot of work. I should have my PhD when we're finished with treatment.

Jake is coming home this weekend and we're all looking forward to seeing him. It's just not the same without him here. Keep praying for good weather over the pass or his plans could change.

Amy, Angie and I put signs up all around Stanwood this weekend for the Relay for Life kickoff. We went out for dinner in LaConner on Saturday night with friends and had a great time. I starting knitting a dish cloth with a heart design in the middle (I didn't say I would finish it...I just said I started it..), and we had a football Sunday. That pretty much sums up the weekend.

I'll try to write more tonight after my whirlwind day is over.

Love you more,
Dor

Holy Buckets - It's been 9 months already

Nine months have passed since the dreaded diagnosis day. So much has happened since then. Much of it was good, some not so good...and one thing that was downright horrible. Keep watching for good things to happen. We are going to keep fighting this fight until we have nothing left to give, oh...and we're going to win, because Schmitt's don't like losing.

I went to Angie's school today and watched her teach a classroom full of kindergarten kids. It was delightful. They love her. I believe Angie is the kind of teacher that impacts her classes and the children will never forget her. When I got home from Angie's school, Amy was here to greet me. We snuggled in the warm livingroom then watched a hilarous episode of Ellen. I TIVO'd it so I'll share it with anyone who needs a good laugh! I have the best daughters in the world. Have I mentioned that lately? Oh, and my son's a keeper too, so don't try to take any of them from me - I will share, but you have to give them back!

This afternoon a couple of dear friends delivered a wonderful surprise to our house. Shelly & Pam brought us t-shirts, that read "ScHmItT CREEK PADDLERS" and an oar "paddle" that says, ScHmItT CREEK. They fit the situation we're facing perfectly. We will wear our shirts with pride. I'm sure if you want one they can be purchased at Eagles Nest.

Recently, our family emotions have been so raw. Even though we're close, we are all dealing with the reality of Cancer in different ways. Most of the time the girls get themselves so involved in projects or meetings that it doesn't allow them time to grieve. Rick goes to work to keep his mind off the unknown. Jake is away at college so although he worries about us all the time, we are able to comfort him through a phone conversation. As for me, I'm numb. That's the only way I can explain it. I couldn't tell you what I did yesterday or what I'm suppose to do tomorrow. I had to get a little day planner (that I'm going to carry everywhere with me)...because I can't remember anything. I'm sure it's normal to feel this way when you're facing what we have going on, but I don't like it. If I was suppose to call you, or meet you, or do something for you and didn't...I'm sorry. I hope to be better organized in the upcoming weeks. (But don't hold your breath, there are no guarantees)

I'm getting a little tired so I think I'll call it a night. Thank you for listening :)

Love you more than all the smiles at Disneyland....

Doreen the Dreamer

Think big thoughts, relish small pleasures...

I went to work for a couple of hours yesterday. It was great to see everyone. I think we've worked out a game plan (spoken like a true athletic secretary). I brought home work to keep me busy, but my presence in the office isn't really needed. They're doing a great job without me. The "old Doreen" would have hated being replaced so easily, the "new and improved Doreen" is ever so greatful that she can concentrate on the things in her life that matter most. Like I've said many times before...I am blessed.

I attended the monthly Stanwood-Camano Relay for Life Meeting last night and WOW...what a surprise. Ususally there are about 8 -12 people attending. Last night, the room was packed. It was filled with High School kids who represented youth teams (way to go Morgan for getting so many youth teams together~you're amazing) .... Guest speakers.... and the regulars... It was a great meeting. Angie has already raised nearly $1,700 of the $7,000 raised in our community. Hard work always pays off. Co-Chair Amy has done an amazing job getting the Stanwood Camano Relay information on the web. It's incredible how many people have donated already because they could do it right on line. (Number 167,895 why my children make me proud) Next Thursday night is the Relay for Life Kick-Off (from 5:00 - 8:00pm at the Stanwood Cinemas Pavillion) Everyone is encouraged to attend (and don't forget to bring a friend). It is a fun filled information night to bring awareness to our community about the upcoming event. Amigo's has donated coupons for $5 off any 2 entrees and then intends to donate the $5 back to the Relay....So if you're planning on having dinner that night, stop by and pick up a coupon. You'll have a nice dinner and you'll be supporting a great cause.

I know many people say "if there is anything I can do to help, please ask"...well I'm asking now.

Promise me that you'll listen to your bodies when something doesn't feel right.
Get a colonoscopy when you are 50 (or before)
Have a mammogram regularly
Love unconditionally
Eat Healthy
Stay informed...about everything
Keep your mind active
Quit smoking (or never start)
Find a passion for something
Join us for Relay for Life... whether you're on a team, in the stands cheering us on or sending a donation; every little bit counts.

In my new favorite book, the one I was telling you about the other day, there is a line in it that says something like; Mom ~ there is no other word in our vocabulary quite like it. It's a hum with a pause in the middle .... Mmmmm ahhh Mmmmmm That makes me smile :) Just try it! Mmmm ahhh Mmmm... It can't help but make you feel good about your momma. I know I do.

Rick just left for work and I have plenty to do around the house today; starting with a shower and getting out of this bathrobe.

Love you more everyday,
Doreen the Dreamer

I'm "Feeling" it tonight

Somedays I sit down at the computer and ....NOTHING. I can't think of a positive, negative, boring, exciting thing to say. Then other times, like tonight...I'm afraid I won't be able to shut my pie hole. But, here goes.

We're back from our journey to Palm Springs. We had so many suggestions for things to do, many of which we failed to complete. Instead, we just relaxed. We enjoyed our company. We went to the movies. Our lives were enriched just by the people we were around. It was nice to get away for a few days even if we didn't get a tan. Tans are over rated anyway. They can cause skin cancer and that's the last thing we need.

While we were gone, I read "For One More Day" by Mitch Albom. It's a very short story about the love we have for our mothers. It's a must read. I know how much I am loved by my children, not just by their words, but by their actions. Each day I can truly say that at least one of our children shows us their love and appreciation by something they've said or done. From filling the garage with firewood, to unloading the dishwasher (because, when they stopped by no one was home so they thought they could just help out a little), to a phone call every morning followed by an "I love you more". I realized as I read this book, that with all the things going on in our lives right now, I have forgotten my own mom. Not "forgotten" her. But forgotten to let her know how much I appreciate all she has done and still continues to do for me. Without her unconditional and undying love, I wouldn't be where I am today. Not everyone is as lucky as I have been to have parents who love you even when you're bad. (This was only a time or two I'm sure, but no matter what...they never left my side) Thank you Dad and Mom. I know I'm your favorite (I promise not to tell).

I am approaching the 9 month mark for Tarceva. I find it hard sometimes to even think about my illness when the road we have in front of us for Rick's treatment seems unbearable. I know we are not alone, but it's still hard to grasp. This next month will be a test of our patience, faith, energy and love. Please bear with us.

I had a fun time with Angie today. (We were hoping Amy could join us, but I'll spend a special day alone with her soon - then Jake will be home the end of March and we'll get a chance to do the same) We had lunch with Rick, ran some errands, visited my mom and dad, stopped and saw some old friends, then had our nails done (my hands, her feet). I don't get a chance to spend one on one quality time with the kids, so days like today are very special.

Tonight we went to dinner with our friends, Dave and Val. I can never get too much of them. They make us laugh (and sometimes cry) but most importantly, we can alway count on them. Isn't it wonderful to surround yourself with people like this?

Health Update: Rick is feeling better every day. I feel great just nervous for the unknown. Next Tuesday will be a big day for Rick. He has a PET scan (all over his body to make sure the cancer hasn't spread any place else), then he gets a portacath in his chest so it's easier to administer his chemo and other drugs, followed bymeetings and appointments that range from 7:45 am and the last one begins at 3:45pm. It will be a long day...One of many I'm sure. His first treatment is scheduled for the 30th another long day, but worth it for the end results.

Ok, that's it for tonight. I've rambled enough.

I love you more everyday.....
Doreen

P.S. I'm going to work tomorrow for a while. I can't wait to see everyone. (oh, and get some work done)

Another Day in Paradise

We are sitting here in Palm Springs enjoying the beautiful sunshine. Although the sun is out, it's still a "chilly" 57 degrees. We picked oranges and grapefruit yesterday (and plan on stealing a few lemons from the neighbor when it gets dark tonight). Actually, Kim will be doing the stealing...I will be driving the get away car.

Ok, here are the official "Oscars" we won a few years back. Rick got his for best Supporting Actor and mine was for best Supporting Actress. I was going to say Lead Actress in a Comedy Series....but I remembered this is an Oscar not an Emmy. I know the photo looks distorted, so I'll try to fix that when I get a chance. I am on vacation you know. I'm suppose to be resting and relaxing, not working on the computer. By the way, these are genuine Oscars. They weigh about 7 lbs. each. I was holding Mary Pickford's 1928 Best Actress Oscar and Rick was holding Buddy Rogers 1985 Humanitarian Oscar.

We went to a street fair this morning then took a trip to downtown Palm Springs. After the journey into the city, we bar-b-qued steaks and had a wonderful dinner at the "tennis condo".

I've been wearing some very snazzy sunglasses this afternoon. I must say I look very Beverly Hills/Palm Springs/Rodeo Driveish in them wouldn't you say? I'd better go now. It's time for me have my driver take me for a spin in the Bentley.

Ta, Ta for now...
Dream Big (sunglasses)
Doreen

Sorry we didn't write sooner

We made it to Palm Springs....actually we are in Rancho Mirage (just on the outskirts of Palm Springs). We've been laying low which is actually kind of nice for a change. This afternoon we went out for a nice lunch and then to see the movie "We are Marshall". What a nice day we had.

We have a few things on our "To do" list over the next couple of days, but the most important thing is just to relax and enjoy the company of our friends.

I wish I had more to write, but I'm just not "Feeling It" tonight. Hopefully, I'll have more to say tomorrow.

Love you more than all the orange trees down Morningside Lane.

Dream Big,
Doreen

Arctic Blast 2007

Ok, so we got a little snow....but according to our local news... it's Arctic Blast 2007...especially at Church Creek Estates (where my dear friend Pam put her car in the ditch where she claims the snow was 5 feet deep- while taking a short cut to my house) Rick came to her rescue (although she bet him $50 he couldn't get the car out of the ditch...she lost) She's spending the night at our house again tonight so she doesn't miss anymore weather related work (and she wants to get employee of the year...)

Now about CANCER. It sucks! My appointment went as planned. Blah, Blah, you have lung cancer, looking good, blah, blah, take Tarceva, see you in a month...blah, blah.

It's great to know that my meds are working, but now I need something to take care of my broken heart. Today on our way home from Seattle, I drove while Rick napped. As I looked over at my strong, handsome husband, I couldn't help but wonder what this cancer treatment will do to his body and soul. Rick takes so much pride in working hard and taking care of his family. I know the worst part of his chemo treatments won't be hair loss or nausea, but rather the way it will make him feel when he attempts to do his daily tasks. I know he will want to complete ordinary chores with the same kind of vigor he always has, but the poisions in his body will tell him otherwise. Luckily, he has me around to keep reminding him what a babe he is and how I will like that he gets to lay around with me a little more often. I'm taking complete advantage of him slowing down (but don't tell him I said that).

We are looking foward to a few days in Palm Springs with our friends Kim and Brian. I think a little sun might "brighten our outlook". Let's hope the snow clears up enough so we can get to Seattle to catch the plane. Which reminds me of another theme song... from Fantasy Island...when Tatoo said "Look Boss, De plane, De Plane"... Oh, how I loved that show!

Love you more than all the cars in the ditches due to "ARCTIC BLAST 2007".

Dreaming Big Snowflakes,
Dor

Rick's first big appointment

Today was my dad's first appointment at the Seattle Cancer Care Alliance where we met his Oncologist, Dr. Whiting. We were all very impressed with him. My dad will be starting Chemo soon. The plan is for him to get blood work done on Monday the 29th, and then start treatment the following day. He has chosen to do his treatments in Seattle instead of trying to find a closer location. We just like the doctors in Seattle too much to walk away at this point. The first day of his treatment will be a 3-4 hour chemo drip, followed by two days of treatment from home. He will repeat that process every two weeks as long as he is getting good results.

Prior to starting his treatments my dad will get a port in his chest. He will also have a PET scan and additional tests. The doctors approached the family about getting some genetic testing completed as well. They intend to biopsy the tumor that was removed from my dad and then do blood work on Angie, Jake & I. At that point they can look for genetic similarities and determine if any of us are at a higher risk for developing colon cancer. Our family has chosen to go forward with the test. None of us want to hear that we have the same genetic make up as dad's tumor, but statistically... we know we are all walking time bombs anyway so we might as well get tested and stay proactive.

We know that we have a long road ahead of us but the things that come easy in life usually aren't worth having. We are up for the fight and we look forward to getting started. In the mean time we are preparing for the results of mom's appointment, which is at 7:45 am tomorrow. Assuming everything goes well, they will be leaving for Palm Springs on Thursday evening. Although they both have a lot on their mind, I think a few days away from home will be good for them. Mom and Dad are staying in Seattle tonight so I'm not sure if she has internet access. She wants me to assure you that she will update everyone as soon as she can get online.

Thanks for the kind words. It's nice to know that we have so many people rooting for my parents.

One day at a time-
Amy

Our little secret

Please do not tell anyone...but, I'm still in my bathrobe and it's almost 3:00pm. I'm not sure what happened to another day. I'll write more later (after I take a shower and get dressed - maybe I should just put my pj's back on) Oh, I did brush my teeth, so I guess it hasn't been a wasted day. :)

Love you more.

Dor

Busy Weekend

After the Seahawk game last night (which was very exciting I might add), Rick took off for Desert Aire with his brother. One of our neighbors on the East side called to say our roof had some serious damage in the big wind storm. I was a little bent out of shape that Rick even thought about going on a roof, but I calmed down once I knew his brother and cousin would be there doing the work. (I guess the less I know the better...I'm sure he got on the roof but I'm not asking) He made it home safe tonight and that's all that matters. He's very tired but says he's feeling pretty good.

I had a houseful today while Rick was gone. Our cousin's son Ryan is home from Texas for a visit. Ryan is proudly serving our nation and returned home from Iraq just a few short months ago. It was nice to see him and the other 20 people he brought along with him. It looked like we were having a party at the Schmitt's...but I guess everytime the Schmitt's get together it is some kind of party.

Our friends Len and Mark also joined the Schmitt gang and came loaded with "Len's Famous Mac & Cheese". I made appetizers for my guests so when Len brought the Mac & Cheese, I hid it. Sorry.... Some things just aren't for sharing.

We're getting anxious for our appointments on Tuesday and Wednesday. Like I've said before, the unknown is often much worse than just finding out what's going on. Hopefully, we'll know a lot more by Wednesday afternoon. We'll keep you all posted.

I'm heading off to bed now. I didn't get much sleep with Rick being gone last night. Amy and her friend Liz came and stayed with me so I didn't have to be alone. I guess I made Amy a little crazy...I couldn't sleep, so I kept trying to remember the words to theme songs of my favorite shows as a kid...Gilligan's Island, Beverly Hillbillies, etc...this might have been amusing, except that it was 2:30am when I was doing it. Sorry Amy.... Gilligan, the Skipper too....the millionaire, and his wife, the movie star, the professor and MaryAnne, here on Gilligan's Island.

Love you more than all the sad Cowboy fans in Texas....

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Busy doing NOTHING

I got so busy doing nothing today that I forgot to write my blog. I'm not kidding. Besides washing my bedding and programming my new phone...I did nada, nothing, zip, zilch. (Oh, I lied. I took a shower but that was around noon) I didn't sleep well again last night so Rick sent me back to bed this morning and I slept until after 9:00am. When I was sleeping, I was having terrible dreams. So whatever sleep I got was very restless.

Rick went to work again for a few hours today. I understand it helps take his mind off his worries, but it adds to mine since I know he should be home recouperating. We're hoping to take a few days (after we find out what Rick's treatment will be like and how the doctor thinks I'm doing) and spend it in Palm Springs with our friends from Snohomish. We can sit around home or we can sit in the sun...Hmmmm, let me think about it? Ok, I've chosen Palm Springs. We figure there is no time like the present to have fun.

We ventured over to the boys high school basketball game tonight against Snohomish. (We lost in the last few minutes but it was a very good game) It was nice to see a lot of the people I work, the kids, their parents and friends we haven't seen since the holidays. We got all the well wishes out of the way before the game started so we were able to just enjoy what we love. Sporting events!

Tomorrow is the big Seahawks playoff game. Get your blue on and root for the home team. I know they can make us crazy sometimes, but who doesn't?

Love you more than all the fans at Quest Field tomorrow.

Hugs,
Doreen

Good Morning

The check up with the surgeon for Rick went well yesterday. He reminded us that if Rick had undergone a surgery like this 5 years ago he would still be in the hospital. Let's give a hand to the advances of medical science. Dr. Ochiai told us he was pleased with Rick's progress and even gave him permission to do some tasks I forbid him to do...(you see how much authority I have?) The best news is, he has an appointment to figure out a PLAN at Seattle Cancer Care Alliance on Tuesday. We are thrilled to get started on his recovery.

I'm still not back at work and I don't have any plans to head back until we at least figure out what Rick's treatment will be like. I know if don't take better care of myself, I won't be any good for the rest of my family. They need me now as much as I need them.

Last night, Angie brought us a wonderful dinner prepared by one of the teachers she works with. Besides the great food she sent us, it warms our heart to know that so many people care. (and care about our kids...that's the awesome part)

Gosh, this was so serious. I need to lighten up.

I'm in the "office" setting up a new printer/scanner/fax/copier/back rubber/cook/maid, but I seem to be having some problems with it. I can get the printer,scanner & copier to work, but the fax, cook, maid and back rubber don't seem to running properly. I'll keep trying.

Love you more,
Big Dreamer Dor

More News

Rick didn't go to the doctor today (we have an appointment tomorrow instead) But, Dr. Ochiai-the surgeon, called to say the pathology reports came back showing the same cancer cells in all the affected areas. This means, Rick's colon cancer has metatisized to his lymph nodes and liver. We'll really understand what this all means once we've met with his oncologist, but they tell us this diagnosis is better than if the cells they found in his liver came from some other form of cancer. Right now, we're just hoping and praying for a speedy recovery (Rick doesn't do well just sitting around, as you can all imagine). He's feeling better everyday and that makes me happy :)

Hugs,
Doreen

Our newest purchase...

As a family, we've decided to prepare for any upcoming emergencies, so we've purchased some paddles from our new favorite country store.

I'm sure at some time or another you've all been down this creek. Hopefully, 2007 will keep us all out of the water.

With love,
Rick, Doreen & kids

So Far 2007 Looks Great!

We've made it through about 18 uneventful hours in 2007. Let's hope it continues.

Today Rick talked his way into going down to his office to gather up some work to do at home... I'm sure this is why our children are such over- achievers. They watch their dad take his cane to work on New Year's Day to straighten things out at the office. I love him for his hard work ethic but he's going to make me crazy. I just want him to get better. (By the way, he says the same thing about me...) He is feeling better each day but I still think he is over doing it. What do I know? Like the kids always say "we're just a few credits short of our doctorate".

I want to thank all our friends and family who dropped food and goodies off this weekend. Everything tasted great, but if I keep eating what Rick doesn't, you'll need to bring me some elastic waist pants. How did we get so lucky to have you in our lives?

I know I haven't talked about it lately, but I'm sitting here in our new office where I feel completely at peace. Amy, Angie and Jake are such a blessing to us and their gift of this room couldn't have been more perfect. Stop by. I'd love to show it off. (It looks much better in person)

I'm exhausted tonight. I find when I get really tired, I tend to cough more. Today I coughed a lot. I promised Rick I would get some good sleep tonight so I would be refreshed to tackle tomorrow with whatever came our way.

Love you more than all the New Year's Resolutions that will be broken by tomorrow. :(

Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today.
Doreen

Bring on 2007....

People celebrate on New Year's Eve because they look forward to a new beginning. The reason the Schmitt's are celebrating, is because 2006 can't end soon enough (it hasn't been one of our favorite years on record) Our family's new years resolution is to: Give up cancer. (Not giving up the fight...just the damned disease).

If you don't have a new year's resolution yet here are a few suggestions:
1. Quit smoking
2. Eat Healthy
3. Get your "Butt" to the doctor and get a colonoscopy
4. Don't put off til tomorrow what you can tell your loved ones today

We are sitting around tonight with family and friends, eating good food, laughing and playing games. Rick has switched from college bowl games to NBA basketball on the big screen, so he is enjoying himself as well.

2 and a half hours and counting until 2007... May the new year bring you good HEALTH, lots of LOVE, and BIG DREAMS!

Resolving to live strong,
Rick and Dor

There's no place like home

My dad came home from the hospital this evening. He had a pretty good day although he is still having some significant pain (which is to be expected.) Not much has changed. He is still in sweat pants. He is still taking pain meds. He is still watching every college football bowl game that exists... only now he gets to watch it on his big screen TV instead of the little one at the hospital. I don't want to speak for dad but I think it's fair to say he is happy to be home.

We know we have a long road ahead of us. I'm not sure where we will find the energy to keep moving forward but we know there is no other choice. For the past eight months people have volunteered to help us but we rarely took them up on the offer. We tried to carry the load by ourselves but we know that has to change. We can't do this by ourselves. Many of you have offered to drive them to appointments, make a pot of soup, etc, and we might be taking you up on the offer. We are exhausted both mentally and physically.... and the second part of the nightmare has just begun.

We are all sitting in the livingroom at mom and dad's house so I guess that's a step in the right direction.

Goodnight for now.... and thanks again...
Amy

How do you mend a broken heart?

I want to take a minute and thank everyone for the support we have received in the past few days. From the constant phone calls at the hospital, to the visitors, abundance of food, hugs, and prayers... many people have gone out of their way to make our lives a little easier during this time of need.

Today was both mentally and physically draining. My dad was doing pretty well most of the day but he was having a tough time with his pain medicine this evening. They switched meds for him as his stomach couldn't handle the pain medicine and he was getting nauseous. Other than a little jello and broth, he hasn't eaten since Christmas dinner on Monday. Hopefully he will be able to get some food into his system soon. He has requested a cheeseburger and/or T-bone steak on more than one occasion but the nurses don't seem to understand as they continue to bring his popsicles and jello. Oh well, I guess it doesn't hurt to ask.

The past few days have been a blur. Days are running together. The numbers on the clock now just represent the hours until the next dosage of pain meds. Thank god dad doesn't have a room mate at the hospital because we have quickly turned room 114 into home base. Although I live 3 blocks from the hospital, my mom has refused to sleep anywhere but a chair next to my dad's bed. We tried to convince her otherwise but it didn't take long to realize that she wasn't going anywhere. We can't blame her as we know my dad would be in the same chair if the roles were reversed.

If things go well the next few days he might be able to come home on Saturday. It just depends on how his body reacts to the surgery and the pain meds. The next step in the process is to get him fully recovered from the surgery so he can start treatment. My mom was on the phone with the Cancer Care Alliance today and was able to set up an appointment for my dad. That's great news for us. We want to make sure that he gets in to see the best possible oncologist in a timely manner.

In the mean time, we will continue to be as positive and optimistic as humanly possible. I have to admit though, thinking positive hasn't seemed to get us very far lately. I told my mom that I was thinking about being naughty next year since I tried to be nice this year and all I got was two sick parents. 2006 isn't over yet so I still have a few days to decide whether or not I want to test that theory.

In closing I want to leave you with a true story. I hope this story helps you smile the way it has brought both a smile to my face and tears to my eyes. Angie just called me as she was leaving the hospital. She said she was leaving earlier than expected because the night nurse just came on duty and told my mom she had a surprise for her. The nurse closed the curtain in the room, then closed the door and began to re-arrange the room. She pushed the beds together and told my mom she wanted to give her an opportunity to sleep with my dad and hold his hand. Knowing that my parents are sound asleep, side-by-side, will allow me to sleep like a baby tonight.

Thanks to those of you who have helped our family to make it through one day at a time. And, may Karma reward the nurses who have broken the rules to help my parents mend their broken hearts.

Off to bed-
Amy

Here's the deal....

Today was a very long day for our family and friends. Many of us arrived at the hospital around noon and most of us did not leave until 9:00 pm. The doctors performed the laproscopic surgery (rather than cutting him wide open) which will speed up his recovery time. They removed just under a foot of colon from his right side including the lymph nodes in the area. The cancer is considered to be a stage 4 colon cancer that has spread to his liver and lymph nodes. Unfortunately the tumors in his liver are a very serious concern for his team of doctors. Dad will spend the next 3+ days at the hospital while the doctors monitor his progress. During this time we will be contacting the wonderful doctors at the Seattle Cancer Care Alliance to set up an appointment for Dad. We promise to keep you all posted on any changes that take place.

Thank you to the many friends and family that have been so kind and generous to us in this time of need-

Living Strong,

Angie

Rick's Update

Rick, Amy, Angie, Jake and I went to Rick's appointment this morning with the surgeon. We were hoping for the pathology reports when we arrived but due to some glitch because of the holiday the report wasn't there. Here is what we know....

Rick is having surgery tomorrow afternoon where they will be removing a portion of his right colon, lymph nodes and maybe some of his liver. The doctor said he will not be able to cure Rick with surgery alone, so in a month or so (once he's feeling better) he will begin chemotherapy. This is going to be a rough couple of months but when cancer messes with a Schmitt, it messes with the whole family - So watch out.

I was reminded today by the kids that I need to take care of myself for all our sake, but it just seems impossible right now to think of anything besides Rick and our children. I'm tired tonight because I haven't been sleeping well. Hopefully tonight I can get a good night's rest. We have a big day ahead of us tomorrow.

Thanks for all your love and support. We'll try to keep you posted each day on the blog so you know what's going on. Keep us in your prayers.

Big Dreamer Dor

Have yourself a merry little Christmas

Tonight as I sit at my computer in our fabulous new office I can only reflect on the magic of my surroundings. Although, this shouldn't have been one of our favorite holiday weekends, it turned out to be. We were blessed to have our friends and family around us at all the right moments. (And, Santa was very good to us, as usual).

I know I mentioned this yesterday, but I am still amazed that our friends would postpone their Christmas to be with us. Friendships like these are an honor to be a part of. Thank you so much Bobby, Dy, Dave and Val for distracting us from our everyday worries with all your love. I'm not sure how the saying goes but it's something like, "Shared joy is doubled joy, shared sorrow is half sorrow" That is my new way of thinking. If you share good times with people you love, it only gets better. If you share hard times with people you love, they can help us carry the load. Thank you for being our wheelbarrows without even knowing it.

We got a new game called Apples to Apples and it is a blast! We must have played it 5 or 6 times in the past few days. With games...comes laughter...with laughter comes smiles...and boy do we need them right about now.

Now that we are home alone it is time to face the realities of what tomorrow might bring. I am hopeful that Rick will start his treatment/surgery within the next few weeks so we can move ahead. I know it isn't going to be easy, but easy is over-rated. It's the hard stuff that makes us stronger. Those of you who know us well, can't possibly think this is going to break our spirit.

God Bless,
Doreen

Happy Christmas Eve Morning

I'm better now. Not great...but much better. Our friends Bob and Dy postponed Christmas in Spokane to come and spend it with us. At first I was insistant that they stay home and spend it with Bob's folks, but they wouldn't hear of it. I'm so glad they're bossy. They did whatever they wanted to and flew over yesterday. Last night, just like 8 months ago, we spent the evening laughing, eating, playing games...etc. with Bob and Dy, Dave and Val and our kids. Nothing could have been sweeter. Nothing could have been better to take our minds off the worry of the day. Nothing could have been more precious than the love of our friends.

We woke early to clean up the kitchen mess (and it was messy from last nights appetizer fest), wrap some more presents (which is very unlike me...I usually come right home from the store and wrap them), and spend some quality time with the ones I love.

Now, I must tell you about the GIFT. Besides the everyday pride and joy our children bring us...this year they brought us a little piece of heaven. Rick and I spend a great deal of time in the "ROOM" where I write this blog, iron, store presents, listen to music... I must admit... it is also the junk room. The room I least want to spend time in, even though I love to write to you and iron (I'm not kidding). The kids knew this. So, as our incredible children do so well, they followed their guts and gave us a room we never want to leave. (again...I'm not kidding)
They emptied it. Cleaned it. Bought new office furniture and the trimmings then organized it. They gave it to us a little early because they thought we could use a happy moment.
We were shocked. Amazed. Overjoyed. Proud. I've added a few photos so you can see it. When they gave us the present, it was in an envelope with a "before" photo in it. If I had that photo in my computer, I would let you see what an amazing transformation this was.

Now, from the Schmitt's to all of you...Have your Merriest Christmas ever.

Dreaming Bigger and Better than yesterday (but not as much as tomorrow),
Doreen

Mad as Hell

Well, it hit me today. That smiling face, it's gonna be alright, we'll beat this thing....blah, blah... I'm sick of it. Today, I just want to be mad. I'm not sure who I'm mad at. But apparently, it's one of the emotions I've be supressing and it's time to let it OUT. AAAHHHH.... I just don't want to have a "nice" attitude today. I'll have an "attitude" but it's not going to be a nice one. Dang it!

Just about the time we adjust (if that's what you call it) we get kicked in the gut with the news about Rick. I'm wondering if we built our house on a toxic landmine? We work hard everyday, love others with all our heart and soul, pay our bills, laugh out loud, eat healthy, root for the hometeams...and we get this?

How do we make this okay for our children? They're amazing souls who deserve to have both parents around admiring their accomplishments, guiding them during times of trouble, watching football on Sundays with them. They're so sad. It's hard for them to smile right now, and I love it when they smile. Those pearly white teeth brighten my days.

I know we'll find out more information on Tuesday, but today I'm impatient. Surprise, Surprise. I promise we'll keep you all posted.

Ok, thanks for letting me be a whiner. I guess sometimes I need it. Like today.

Dreaming MAD.
Doreen

When it rains...

I am writing this message with a heavy heart and sad eyes. Today brought another major blow for the Schmitt family. Today as I wrapped Christmas presents at mom and dad's house with Angie and Jake, mom called from the hospital. She had taken dad to his doctor's appointment. During the Colonoscopy they found a large tumor. The doctor was concerned with the size of the mass so he immediately sent dad for a CT scan. The three of us met mom at the hospital and we sat with dad while he waited for his test. We just got a phone call from the doctor and have received confirmation that my dad has Colon Cancer. They know this, because it has already metastisized to his liver. There are also a few lymph nodes in his abdomen and around his aorta that are concerning them.

This is surreal. He has an appointment with his surgeon on Tuesday. As of now, they intend to remove the tumor and start Chemotherapy immediately. Best case scenerio is that the cancer spread from his colon and not from Lymphoma. We will learn more soon.

Please pray for my parents as they begin this unfortunate battle together. All of your prayers have been working so, please add my dad to your prayer list.

Dreaming bigger than ever,
Amy

Do Not Enter

I feel so far behind in my Christmas preparation that I'm starting to hyperventilate , but...it will be here in a few days whether I'm ready or not. Today, my dear friend Janeen picked me up at 9:00am and we headed out to the Bellis Fair Mall to do a little power shopping. We had a productive day, then came back to my great nephew's 6th birthday party. After the party, Jake and I stopped to help "Santa" out and pick up a few stocking stuffers. As I walked into the house, I noticed a sign posted on the computer room door, "Do not enter or you'll ruin Christmas", then right next to that door is Jake's room with another note that says "Nope, try another one". Apparently, for the next 3 or 4 days I'm limited to which rooms I can go into in my own home. Lucky for me, the computer room is also my ironing room...so I guess ironing is also out of the question. Shucks!

Did I forget to mention that yesterday was Massage Day? Well it was...and it was spectacular.

Remember high tread count sheets, massages and love....it doesn't get much better.

Gosh, I love life.

Dream Big,
Dor

Month #8 and Counting

Lots of time has gone by on the calendar, but nothing has passed ME by. I really love life and tonight was a fine example.

Megan (Jake's girlfriend) is here until Wednesday when she returns to Seattle to spend time with her family. She knows our family and still loves us. I think that makes her a keeper! So, tonight we had "our Christmas" with her. Amy, Angie, Erin, Rick, Jake, Megan and I had dinner then exchanged gifts. The dinner was ok (not one of my best) and the presents were lovely (I got a chef's coat from Megan's parents with "chef Doreen" embroidered on it in green...I love it...I'll tell you about everything else later) but it was the entertainment after dinner that I want to share with you. For as far back as I can remember, whenever anyone would say the word "wrap" (as in wrap a present) I would give my version of "rap" (which I might add is terrible) so the kids always drop the word "wrap" in my presence so I'll do my little hand jive and rap noise. Tonight, I felt the need to get everyone involved. Angie played her lip trumpet, Amy sounded like a record that was being played backwords, Jake played his armpit, and I "rapped". Megan and Erin sat across from us laughing with tears rolling down their faces and wondered what kind of family medications we were taking. But, before long we got them involved. Erin twanged her water glass with her fingernail and Megan used the fork on her wine glass. We sounded amazing (NOT) but it was a funny sight to see. I also added in my version of Ray Charles playing the salt and pepper shakers but that will be another story all together. Rick was already in the livingroom when the entertainment started. I wanted to share this all with him, but we were laughing so hard by the time we got his attention, that he didn't get the "full effect". The laughter we shared tonight was priceless as well as being an incredible ab workout. Moments like these are golden treasures.

While I was preparing dinner tonight I had a small emotional breakdown. 8 months ago I had no idea if I would be here at Christmas (or Thanksgiving for that matter) so as each day has drawn closer I am so thankful that not only am I here, but I'm here and shining bright.
So, I cried...happy tears. Tears of joy. Tears of relief. Amy reminded me how silly this will feel when 8 years go by and I remember how excited I felt after only 8 months. But for now, I'll be getting this excited after each passing month....that's a guarantee. As a matter of fact, I'll get this excited after each passing day. Who am I trying to kid?

Thank you "family" for making tonight very special for me/us. Let's hope that Tarceva and prayers keep our family together for many years to come.

I love you more than all the presents that have been shaken & peeked into by impatient recipients... Don't forget what I said a few days ago "Santa knows if you've been naughty or nice"...so don't touch the items under the tree!

Dreaming Big and loving life,
Ho, Ho, Ho ~ Dor

The vacation has officially started...

Jacob is home. The girls are only 15 minutes away. Rick can come home whenever we need (want) him. I'm happy to be here. I'm happy to be feeling good. I'm just happy.

I went to Everett this afternoon with Jacob and his girlfriend, Megan. I met my good friend Kim for lunch and as usual I enjoyed our visit. I attempted to do a little shopping and I failed. I couldn't find anything at the mall. It's sold out! Ok, it's not sold out, I just didn't bring a list and I have a bad memory so I forgot what I needed. I'll try again tomorrow afternoon (with my list in hand).

Jacob just reminded me that tomorrow will be my 8 month mark. Wow! I knew I was a fighter, I knew I had no intention of going anywhere anytime soon, but who would have thought that I would feel this strong 8 months into it? I was just complaining tonight how I had to fill my weekly pill container and how it makes me mad that I take so many medications...then I remembered...Hey, I'm alive, so stop whining. Now, I'm just smiling and dreaming big.

Love you more than all the money owed on credit cards in January. :(

Doreen (the survivor)

Good Morning my friends

What a good morning it is! Winter (Christmas) Break has just begun. Amy had her little sleep over with us on Thursday night (and I must say we had fun), we watched Angie officiate a couple of basketball games last night (and she did a great job) , Jake is on his way home from Pullman (and it looks like the pass will be cleared off before he journeys across it this morning).

Now in my defense. There was nothing to do when the lights went out and I could still see with the candle light, so why not be productive and knit? Thank goodness we only lose power in increments of 8 hours or less. I'm not sure if I would be as jolly about it as I am if I was one of those folks who had lost it for a week.

Our Spartan basketball teams won last night against Marysville. I'm sorry I missed the games but I got to watch Angie and our cousin Ally instead. I'm glad I made that choice. It confirmed how proud I am.

Jake won't be home until Sunday (he's staying in Seattle tonight), so tonight we are going to babysit our niece while her mommy and daddy attend a couple of Christmas parties. She's really fun to have around (and we get to give her back when we're tired). I think we're going to take her to a basketball game in Mt. Vernon. Tonight, Angie will be the official at her old college so we thought we'd go watch. As long as we have snacks and water, Darlena will be just fine.

I'm not done shopping yet, but thankfully I have a few days left. Maybe I'll do it during the week while everyone else is at work... Today, I'm going to clean house, do a little baking, (knit of course), and make some mulling spices for cider. Oh, I'm tired already. Just kidding. It's amazing how much energy I can find when I NEED to get some WORK done.

Yesterday was the 15 year mark since Rick's mom died. She was an amazing woman who loved her family with all her heart ~ We still miss her very much. This time of year is always so bittersweet. This year will be expecially hard on our community and friends, because Davis Carlson, and incredible 11 year old boy, lost his battle with cancer last Christmas Day. Please take this time to remember just how precious life is. I'm reminded each day by all of you.

With love and well wishes,
Doreen

Let it Blow.. Let it Blow... Let it Blow?

What in the heck is going on with our weather here in the Pacific Northwest? This is crazy. A few weeks ago we were snowed into our homes, now heavy winds are blowing, and trees are falling faster than the seahawks in the NFL standings.

Mom called me at work yesterday and said she felt stongly that I needed to come spend the night at their house in Stanwood. She said she was getting a bad feeling about the HUGE pine trees that my neighbor refuses to remove from his property.... not that I'm bitter about it or anything. I too had a bad feeling about them. I knew I wouldn't feel safe in my home so I packed some clothes and had a sleep over at mom and dad's house. We watched the Seahawks struggle, and then shortly after we lost power. It was off and on for the rest of the night. That's why none of us had the opportunity to write last night. Sorry about that.

My mom wasn't kidding when she told us she was addicted to knitting. She continued to knit by candle light like something out of Little House on the Prairie. I finally convinced her to stop knitting so we could lay in front of the fire and play the handheld game, 20 Questions. I hate that game. I mean... I love it... but every time it guessed our word we would toss the thing away from us and scream like a little kid who just saw a spider. It's creepy.

I am still in Stanwood but I am thinking about driving home to Mount Vernon and assessing the damage that was likely done to my property. One of my neighbors promised to call if a tree flattened my house so I feel confident it's still standing. Now it's just a matter of hauling large branches out of my yard. Not something I'm looking forward to.

I hope all of you managed to make it thru the storm without any significant damage.

Amy

So much to share

For starters: I was the big winner at Bunco on Monday night. We had a great time as usual, and we all took home a great gift from one of our friends. My stomach and ribs usually hurt the day after bunco because we laugh so hard. This time, I just didn't feel good. I think I may have been going a little too strong all weekend and it caught up with me on Tuesday morning. I went to work late and came home early. I got a good night's sleep so I really am feeling better today.

Rick had a doctor's appointment today and will go in for some tests next Friday. The doctor said "now that you're 50 we should check "everything". I'm glad he's getting a complete physical. I'll be able to stop worrying once we know he's healthy.

I went to the ankle doctor today as well, with hopes he would take the boot off. No such luck. I have to wear it for at least 2 more weeks but my ankle is getting a lot better. I have a new brace that I can wear when I'm around the house. I'll start physical therapy in a week or two.

I hope to get back on the computer a little later to write more.

Love you more than all the wind blowing through the great northwest!

Dream Big,
Doreen

Early Message

Tonight is my Christmas Bunco Party...many of you are thinking what the heck's a bunco? Well, most of us don't even care what it is, we just like to get together. 12 dear friends meet once a month and play a dice game for money and prizes (sounds a little bit like the Price is Right). The money doesn't buy much but the friendship and laughter are priceless.

But~ before I head out to my gathering on the Island, I'm going over to the high school to watch Angie officiate. This is the first game I've seen her ref this year so I thought it would be nice to surprise her. I'll sit in the stands and yell things like... "come on, call the foul", or "how long does she get in the key?". It will be just like old times. I can't wait. She'll be so proud of me.

I've gotta go now, but if I get any photos I'll post them later.

Love you more. 'nuff said.

Doreen

Another great weekend...

I can't believe it's already Sunday evening. Where does the time go when we're having fun?

We had a great time last night at the Christmas party we attended. We didn't get home until around 1:00pm (I was the designated driver so everyone was safe...) We slept in until 9:00 or so then started another whirlwind day.

Rick and I took a quick trip to Costco this morning, then came home in time for the Seahawk game. I didn't stay through the whole thing because I really did need to get some Christmas shopping done. The problem was, I stopped by Angie's to look at her tree topper (she thought I should get one like hers because it would be perfect) and I ended up watching the end of the Seahawk game. We lost...and I lost time. I got a big chunk of my shopping done once I put my mind to it and I've already been wrapping them.

Please don't share the following information with Rick or the kids... I think I've been on my bad foot too much lately because tonight it hurts like heck. I promise I'll make a follow up appointment tomorrow. I was suppose to do that last week, but I've been kind of busy. They all bug me everyday about taking care of it, so the last thing I want to hear "I told you so". I know they're right, but I don't want them to know that... Shhhhh!

It's Desparate Housewives time (not me personally) so I think I'll go catch up on Wisteria Lane.

Love you more than all the last minute shoppers I saw today. Ugh!

Dreaming Dor

Holiday Visitors

This week at work I had a couple of visitors who I hadn't seen in a while. Rick's cousin Shellee and her little boy Landen stopped by (Landen actually fell on his nose on the way in so he wasn't as happy to see me as I was to see him). I've been promising Shellee that I would get down her way to visit, but she couldn't wait any longer. I'm glad she got impatient with me...

Today, Kellie (Heuett) Barton came up to see us from Tacoma. Kellie is a friend of the family who lived with us for a while when she first moved over from Spokane. She brought her little step daughter, Chloe who was a little charmer. We went to lunch at Kellie's favorite spot...Jimmy's Pizza. Angie, Erin, Amy, Kellie, Chloe and I had a wonderful visit. We need to do it again soon. Kellie promised me we would do it again within the next 2 years. Reason #12,785 to live.

Rick has been out putting up Christmas lights today. I wish I could be more help outside, but between the cough and the "boot on my foot" he might be better off without my assistance. Amy is still at the house so maybe she can help her dad.

My new meds are helping with sleep and the cough. I know it seems foolish sometimes to just take a pill for discomfort or minor problems, but I also think this isn't the time to change my health care plan. So, I'm sticking with whatever seems to be working.

Rick and I will be heading out to a Christmas party this evening, so I'd better go get ready. I promise to write more tomorrow (between Christmas shopping and football). Have a safe rest of the weekend.

16 days 'til Christmas ~ don't forget to be NICE, not NAUGHTY... Santa's watching!

Dreaming Dor

Quick Relay for Life Update

I just wanted to send out a quick message to those of you who read this blog on a daily basis. For those who participated in the Relay last year, please click on the website attached and sign up for the 2007 Relay, if you haven't already. There is no cost involved at this point.... just sign up and start building your team. For those of you who weren't on a team last year but are interested in starting a team for this year's event... you too can sign up on this link. Even if you aren't interested in walking around the track, I encourage you to look at the link and see which businesses and individuals have already signed up to help find a cure. The Relay is not until June 1st, 2007 but there are already 11 teams signed up. If you've never been a part of it, I encourage you to get involved. I hope to see many different groups from the community gathered around the track that evening.

Here are some ideas for teams:
-Church groups
-Businesses
-School Faculty (sign up and challenge another school)
- sports teams
-families, etc.

We had 30 teams signed up last year and our goal is to reach 50 this year. If your business is interested in being a sponsor for the event and having your name/logo on all of the shirts, the official website, posters, newspaper ads, etc, please let me know. For 7 months of advertising, you won't find a less expensive way to support a good cause.

Add your business to the list of 2007 Sponsors:

North Sound Physical Therapy
QFC
Stanwood Camano News

Enjoy your holidays-
Amy

If you have any questions: amyzoe@hotmail.com

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Here I Am!

I've had a busy couple of days so my webpage update slid to the bottom of the list. Sorry :(

I had my follow-up appointment yesterday in Seattle. There are no changes with the cancer- Yahoo! I'm on some new meds for low potassium, sleep and my cough...and they made me get a flu shot. Other than that...I'm doing great. I took my sleeping aid last night and I don't think I moved once. I may have a permanent pillow mark down my face where I was laying. It's looks "really pretty" but I feel very rested. I think he may have been right...I need more sleep.

Rick got a call from his doctor last night about all his tests and they say the tests came back inconclusive so he'll be seeing a cardiologist sometime soon. Stress can do strange things to our bodies. Let's hope that's all it is. We'll keep you posted.

I don't know about the rest of you but I'd better get busy with Christmas shopping. By now, I'm usually way ahead of the game (however, everything I've bought so far is wrapped) Maybe I'll journey out this weekend. Wish me luck with all those crazy people.

Lots of work to do today so I'd better head over to the school.

Dream Big,
Dor

Call from Dr. Eaton in Seattle

Rick had a few tests today to check out his heart. I told the technician that I can guarantee it's a BIG one (by all the love he gives me)... but apparently that's irrelevant when they're doing ECHO cardiograms. We don't really know anything except he has to go back tomorrow for one more test, then hopefully they'll assure us that his problems are all stress related.

Now for the good news (which will hopefully help Rick's stress level). When we got home tonight there was a message on our recorder from Dr. Eaton (cancer care alliance) who said my scans from Friday "looked well". I still have an appointment on Wednesday but that is just for a check-up and to go over the results. "Looked Well...in lung cancer terminology...means nothing has gotten substantially worse, and to us...that means "LIFE IS GOOD".

Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers.

Dreaming Well ~
Doreen

Restless Night

It's 2:40 am and I can't sleep. Perhaps, it's because I fell asleep on the couch about 7:30 tonight and I've already had my quota of sleep for the day. Now that I'm wide awake, I'm thinking of you...and I thought you should know.

On Friday night we visited Uncle Chuck, Aunt Fran, Kevin, Andrea & Bella (in Snohomish) before joining and Angie and attending cousin Aly's basketball game. We hadn't seen this part of our family in a while so it was nice to talk and hug and laugh. I know we always say it, but those times are so important. We really need to do it more often.

Before I sit down at the computer, I have a ton of things I want to say. Then, once I get here...writer's block. I might be more motivated if I had a million dollar book deal on the table. Just kidding. You're all the motiviation I need.

Relay for Life in Stanwood will be held the first Friday night and Saturday day in June this year. I'm very excited to be a part of it. On Wednesday the 6th of December at 6:00 at the Stanwood Sports Club they will be having a meeting. If you or someone from your business, organization or club would like to be involved, have them stop by. Community involvement is crucial for an event like this to be successful. When we all do a little, no one has to do a lot! If you have any questions, give me a call and I'll get you the names and numbers of someone to reach. Hope to see you on Wednesday night! (P.S. I'm working with SURVIVORS for this special event, so please let me know of any cancer survivor who might like to join us...all they have to do is show up...we'll take care of the rest)

Another plug...when you get the chance... log on to www.abreathawayfromthecure.org to meet my new friend Bonnie Addario and her incredible family. This is the amazing woman I met in San Francisco who will be my lifelong friend. If you ever need to be inspired, she is the woman to talk to. Bonnie's organization is making changes everyday in the face of lung cancer and I'm proud to be a part of her world!

I've attached a photo of my new Christmas tree. If you take a deep breath you can almost smell the pine (or aspen) (or plastic). Top 5 reasons why I love our new artificial tree...

1. It took 5 minutes to put up (and that included dragging it in from the garage)
2. It doesn't have to be watered.
3. The lights were already on it.
4. No daily vacuuming of pine needs required.
5. No bugs (big bonus)

Oh, now I remember what I was going to write about. I mentioned to Rick that I really love the way the Christmas tree lights up the living room so I was thinking about leaving it up year around. In January, I'll decorate it with Martin Luther King items... Anniversary photos of my parents, pictures of my sister-in-law Dawn in celebration of her birthday... Then February, We'll do it up for Amy & Angie's 30th birthday... Valentine's day...Vickie's & Pam's birthday.... Do you see a pattern? Rick put the "I don't think so" to that idea. So, while I really do love my tree...I guess I will have to wait for December each year to put it up. Reason #12,458 to live. Christmas 2007, 2008, etc.

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Pressing Question?

First, let me say that I know "nothing" about my test results. I'll know more on Wednesday. And you'll be the first 1,000 people I tell....

Now for my pressing question. You know how when you break a mirror, it's 7 years bad luck? If I break one, will I be guaranteed 7 more years to serve my sentence? Well, I didn't break the mirror, but I broke the handle on one...so I need to know if that counts for something? I sure hope so. Any experts out there on this sort of thing?

I'm heading out to work at a High School Wrestling Match (not the kind on TV). I won't be doing the wrestling...thank Goodness. Imagine me in one of those spandex suits? Yuk. Sorry if you got a visual on that....

Any Hooters, I've gotta go! I'll write more later.

Hugs and kisses,
Big Dreamer, Doreen

Test Day

Thank goodness I'm only having a CT scan and an MRI. Imagine what kind of stress I would be under if I had to take the WASL? I hope I pass my tests today. I've been studying hard.
As usual, I'm a little anxious (but that's to be expected, I'm sure).

Yesterday I had the pleasure of spending some really nice quality time with each of my girls. Amy stopped by and we snuggled on the couch, wrapped some presents, talked and laughed. Then she left to put up her Christmas tree. (I think our fake one inspired her) Then early evening, Angie came over. We had dinner, she helped me with a project I've been working on, we laid on Jake's comfy bed and giggled and talked about silly things, then she went home to watch McDreamy. It's nice to be able to spend one on one time with my kids. Jake will be home soon so we can do it again too!

I had a cruddy little headache all day yesterday that turned into a doozy last night. I was miserable by 9:15 or so, but Rick laid by me and rubbed my back until I dozed off... I woke up this morning feeling much better. I don't remember anything after 9:30pm. I'm sure it's all stress related.

I'll write more later. I'm going to get in the shower so I can go to work for a couple of hours before my appointments in Seattle. Wish me luck.

Love to you all,
Doreen

Blog Problems

Yesterday I had a problem with my blog page. Sorry for any inconvenience this may have caused. Hopefully, you all have other important things to do each day besides read my jibberish. If not, here goes....

You know how I whined about bad coffee, being pent up in the house, and getting tired of the snow? Well, while Rick was hard at work yesterday, my friends Cathy and Reid came and picked me up and took me out for a day of fun. Reid took Cathy and I down memory lane and "spun a donut" (went around in circles in the snow with the car for those of you who didn't know the terminology) in our driveway before we left. Boys never change. But that' ok, we love them anyway. We went to Starbuck's for peppermint mocha's, then shopping for Christmas cards (though I never found any that were perfect). Rick met up with us for lunch so we had a chance to do a little more talking and laughing. It was a wonderful day. Reason #11,347 to stay around for a very long time.... Snow days with my friends.

I was watching a show yesterday that said men speak an average of 7,000 words per day and women speak an average of 20,000 per day. Is this because women have more important things to say? Just wondering. I'm usually very quiet, so I think I only say about 5,000 words. I'll let you be the judge.

It looks like we're going to get some relief from the weather. Though it's still very beautiful outside, it's finally warming up. Thank goodness. Now, we need it to warm up slowly so we don't have more flooding. It seems like our little community has had it's share of hard times this year. Maybe December will be good to us.

I've attached a few photos from the past couple of days. In one of the photos, Rick is outside with our little niece, Darlena (better known as, Auntie's girl). She is reason #11,348

I'm sure we have to head back to work tomorrow (however, I have tests in Seattle all afternoon so I won't be working much) so I think I'll take this time off to wrap a few more presents and enjoy the peace and warmth of home.

Love you more than all the melting snowmen in Western Washington....

Dream (Warm) Big,
Dor

Snow Day #2

You know how we say "isn't it beautiful" on day #1? Then day #2 comes and we realize that we can't leave the house without the driving abilities of someone else? And... although it's pretty, the power outages have run their course...And... there is always something we're hungry for but we can't get in the car to go to the store... Well tomorrow will be day #3 and it doesn't look like the snow is going anywhere. Now, it's starting to lose it's sense of wonder... I'm feeling pent up. I have places to go, and people to see. I need a coffee (a real one). Though it's still pretty to look at, I've decided to take a couple of photos and look at them every once in a while to get the desire I have for snow... out of my system.

I went to work today (with the help of my boss and Rick). It's amazing how much work I can get done without answering the phone and without kids in the school buildings. I know everyone at work is understanding when I have to leave for appointments or if I'm not feeling well, but I always feel guilty. So, when I have the opportunity to work on a day like today (and again tomorrow) it makes me feel ok about leaving work early or coming in late.

I took out my Christmas decorations and boxes of ornaments today. The house is starting to come together with the feeling of the holidays. I have a lot more to go, but since it isn't even December yet, I'm trying to take it slowly.

I really am feeling great! And as Martha Stewarts says: "That's a good thing"

Stay warm. It's going to be a cold one tonight.

Freezing (I mean Dreaming) Big,
Doreen

It's beautiful outside....

Now that I have power again, I thought I should catch up on the blog. The Arlington, Stanwood - Camano Island areas were apparently the hardest hit with power outages as well as heavy snow fall - hence, I had no computer, or land phone, or light - how did the Waltons survive?. I love looking at the snow...you just don't want me to drive in it. Trust me. I'm the one you're looking out for when you're on the road.

My niece Darlena spent the afternoon with me while her parents went to an appointment. It was fun watching her experience snow for the first time. She came bundled up like the kid from the Christmas Story movie. Days like this are always memorable for me. I hope to have these experiences for many years to come.

I like to think of snow as nature's equalizer. When we get a heavy snowfall like we've just had, everyone's yard looks clean (or at least covered up), you don't see all the mud and yuk that has accumulated because of all the rain, and every house looks happy. Now, for the bad news. My least favorite weather is when the rain comes after a snowfall, the temperature rises and we have dirty slush everywhere. Reality sets back in and we realize we should have taken care of our flower beds before that first frost or put the lawn furniture away. Oh well, there's always another day.

I've got a couple of big appointments in Seattle on Friday. I hope the weather clears up by then. Rick will be taking me (for those of you worried about your safety on the streets) because I'm still not driving with my "aircast boot". I need to keep hearing good news when I go down South. With the holidays coming we all need to focus on spending healthy quality time together...not on illness.

I feel like I'm rambling tonight so I'm going to say good bye for now. I'll write more later or tomorrow sometime.

Dress warm and be safe.
Hugs, Doreen

Saturday Night

Jake left about 8:30 tonight to head to Megan's house in Seattle so they can leave early in the morning. You know me, I'll be worrying until I know they're back in Pullman. Luckily he knows what a worry wart I am, so he'll call when he leaves Seattle, then when they get across the pass (maybe even on the pass to assure me that everything is ok), then again when he's about 100 miles from Pullman, then once he gets there. It doesn't matter what age my kids are, I worry about everything. (I'm sure this was one of the many things my mother taught me...thanks MOM!)

Yesterday I think I had a shoe on that didn't quite even out my balance with the aircast boot, so today my "good" leg is aching like I have shin splints. What next? Chickenpox? Just kidding. I had those when I was 5 years old and gave them to everyone in my neighborhood. I was such a sharing child.

As I wrapped Christmas presents tonight, I had to write everything down as I wrapped it so I didn't forget. Sometimes I have a complete brain malfunction and I have to re-open gifts I've bought just to jog my memory. If I went to the doctor for some help, I'm afraid they would diagnose me with ADHD (Attention Deficit Holiday Disorder) I'm sure you can all relate.

I hope to start putting my tree together tomorrow, I'm sure it will be beautiful. If not, at least it won't "dry out" so it will always look "fresh".

Dream Big,
Dor

Shopping Day 2006

Didn't you love the photo from yesterday? It's funny how people will look at it and say "what a nice looking family you have", but for me "I know what they have in their hearts, so I look at the photo and say "What an incredible family I have and how did I get so lucky?" Oh, and they're so cute too!

I've taught my children and husband well. Jake left the house at 2:00am today to wait in line at Best Buy because he kept having a dream that when he got there the store was completely empty (I think it was a turkey hangover talking...) He thought this was a sign so he left early. When he got to Burlington (at 2:30am) the line was already around the building. Perserverence paid off. He got what he waited for and saved over $300 (just like going to Geico). He said it was worth the wait. The store opened at 5:00am and at 5:06 he had already checked out. Rick set our alarm for 4:00am and we were in and out of the shower and ready to go at 4:30 am. We were at the stores by the time they opened at 5:00. Angie and Erin went south early in the morning. We called each other a half dozen times to brag about our bargains. Angie had enough of all the rude people she could handle by noon and I think she was home by 1:00. She said she bought lots of things, and since she's been a good girl this year, many of the things she bought were for herself. Amy took her time, and went shopping this afternoon. I'm sure she found some very nice things...she just didn't have to fight the crowds like the rest of us. Sales don't interest Amy as much as being able to find what she's looking for. Oh sure, she likes to get a good deal just like the rest of us it's just not a challenge for Amy like it is for me. Maybe she's the smart one. I wasn't out long today. I came home, took a nap and rested my foot and lungs. After dinner, I went out again for a couple of hours with my sister-in-law Vickie. We had fun and I actually found what I was looking for. Now it's time to start wrapping...

I have the Day After Thanksgiving Frenzy out of my system, so now just want to start decorating for the holidays. I need to get it done soon, because all of this preparation is cutting into my knitting time. I know I joke about it being an addiction....but I might need to go to knitters anonymus. Imagine what I would be like if I knew how to knit anything besides a scarf! They would find knitting needles and yarn in my drawer at work in a brown paper bag. I'd have to quit my job. My family would have an intervention. I'd be in total yarn detox - for at least 28 days. Thank goodness I can quit whenever I want... I just don't want to yet.

Tonight for dinner, I made turkey and dumpling soup. I have to say this was some of my best ever. Please don't ask for the recipe. Not that I wouldn't share it, it's just that I'm not sure what I did and I wouldn't be able to duplicate it. That's the problem with being an impulsive, inventive cook. You have no idea what you're doing, or how you did it. Thank goodness my children and huband weren't picky all these years. They would have starved. :( People often say I should write a book. Maybe it should be a cookbook. I'll call it, "Don't know what we're having but you'll probably like it".

My baby brother Darren turns 40 years old tomorrow. I hope to see him on Sunday to celebrate this special occasion. He is happier and healthier than I've ever seen him before. Life is good for him and that brings me joy. He's the best brother I could have asked for, however, I don't remember asking for a brother. We'll talk about that later.

It's time for me to go now so I can get my beauty sleep. (Who knows when I'll wake up...that beauty thing is going to be a BIG JOB)

I love you more than all the crazed shoppers in line at 4:45 this morning. Oh wait...that was me.

Dream Big,
Doreen