I'm Home.....

I think I need a vacation to rest up from the vacations I've been taking. I left last Tuesday (the day of my last entry...sorry) for my little mini-vacation before the family reunion started. I had a wonderful time playing in the pool (it is 7 and 1/2 feet round and I got in with my pajamas on), we ate well, took some photos, and laughed a lot. On Thursday afternoon Rick and Amy arrived. We had a great dinner, watched a movie then got up early to greet our guests for the weekend. I think I was cooking or cleaning most of the weekend, but that's what I love to do. Most of the family members were there by Friday evening when we celebrated Rick's 50th birthday.

By Saturday morning at 9:00am we had breakfast going - Shelly was cooking eggs and pancakes, I was cooking pancakes and sausage. After breakfast, the horseshoe tournament began. It was wonderful visiting family that we hadn't seen in a very long time. We had a wonderful dinner on Saturday night, took lots of pictures, drank some vodka (bodka) from Russia (thanks Jeff), laughed at old family movies and celebrated our lives.

Rick and I both got birdhouses from Eric (and Joe). Rick's was for his birthday, mine was just because they love me. They will be treasured.

Thank you all for the great weekend. We had a wonderful time. A special thank you to Aunt Jessie who put this whole thing together and to all of you who opened your homes to our guests.

I'll post photos later tonight of some of our events.

Love you more than all the wind at Desert Aire.

Dream Big,
Doreen

Off to the Desert. See you soon!

Hello friends and family,

I'm getting ready to head off for a couple of days to Desert Aire. Angie and I are going today (along with our friend Peggy) Rick and the others will join us later for a Schmitt family reunion. I'm looking forward to seeing some family members we haven't seen in a long time. Let's hope Desert Aire has a little breeze. If not...we'll be melting or we'll head inside where the air conditioning will be running constantly. I'm bringing a couple of new books and some good music. Other than that, peace and quiet will be our best friend. A few more days of rest and I should be feeling great!

For those of you who are wondering, Desert Aire is a little community on the Columbia River about 18 miles from the Vantage Bridge. We bought a cute little house with Amy that we are all able to enjoy on a regular basis. It is half way to Pullman/Spokane. We've been able to meet up with Jake for little getaways and we each just have to drive about 3 hours one way. It's perfect.

I will try to send a blog or two while we're there. I just can't promise. You never know how much fun we'll be having.

Love you more than all the Schmitt's in Germany.

Dream Big,
Dor

Spoiled?

Sorry I didn't write yesterday. I really am feeling better...no cramps in the feet and legs. My throat is still sore and I still have a little headache but I'm working on getting those to go away as well. Other than these minor setbacks, I'm my OLD self again.

Can we talk about the weather again? What ever happened to a "happy medium"? Say, 75 degrees and sunny with a breeze? Did any of you get a chance to go outside last night and look up? The stars were beautiful and very twinklie (if that's a word). I shared the stars and some lavendar with my friend Cathy and she shared 3 crab and a bouquet of sweetpeas with me. (I believe I got the better end of the deal) Thanks Reid and Cathy. It is delicious!

For those of you who have never experienced a massage, please treat yourself to one. They are good for the body (and the soul). I just had one this afternoon and I'm feeling great. Geez, when I write some of this stuff down in words, it sounds like I'm spoiled. Day Spa at Gene Juarez, dinners, plays, movies, massages, lunches with friends, crab and flowers...oops! I think I am spoiled. Hopefully, not spoiled rotten.

I'll post some photos later. Love you more than an air conditioner on a hot day!

Hugs and kisses,
Dor

Doing better today

Well, as you've heard, I've sortof had a bad couple of days. But, I think I'm on the mend now. I still have a dull aching headache (that I've had off and on since Tuesday- which is why everyone was alarmed) and my throat is still sore. My feet and calves are starting to feel better - apparently I was running marathons in my sleep. The doctor said my white count was up but not dangerously high which is why they think I just have a virus: hence, the sore throat, headache, and swollen nodes.

Enough talk about sickness. How 'bout this weather. Are you all sweating and breathing heavy? Oh wait, that might be too personal. Let me re-phrase that. Is it hot enough for all of you? If it gets any hotter, I'm going to cook a roast in my livingroom on the coffee table. (It really is 91 degrees in my house with doors open and fans going) Can you say "Easy Bake Oven"?

Love you more than all the beads of sweat running down my forehead.

Dreaming Hot, I mean Big....
Dor

Just one of those days

Mom has spent the last 4 days with a headache, extreme leg & feet cramps and a sore throat. After having 3 months of feeling great, everything seemed to hit at once. This morning Mom and I went to see her local doctor in Stanwood. We also contacted the Seattle Cancer Care Alliance and they wanted her to come down for a MRI of her head. We headed to Seattle for a long day of appointments, giving blood and scans. At 4:30 PM we were re-assured that Mom is doing well. Her MRI ruled out that she has a mass in her brain that is causing those bad headaches. They checked her legs for blood clots and showed her how to monitor the legs for changes that can be dangerous. She is now taking a muscle relaxer to help with her leg cramps. With some rest and a LOT of water and Gatorade her legs will be feeling better soon. As for her sore throat... they believe that she has a virus. I am very glad that her wonderful team of doctors take her concerns seriously and are so quick to respond. I am confident that Mom is in good hands.

Living Strong-

Angie

The clock is ticking....

The weird thing is... it's ticking for all of us. We read and write daily messages about mom being sick and the sad comments discuss how unfair it is that she was diagnosed with lung cancer. I thought a lot about that today. I have come to the conclusion that I need to change the way I view this situation. My mom is lucky. She has an opportunity to say everything she has ever wanted to say to people. Pick up the newspaper and read about the head-on collision that killed 3 people, or the fire that took the life of an entire family. Those people are the ones to be sad for. They never knew it was coming. They never had a chance to say goodbye, or tell the people they love just how much they were appreciated.

Life is unfair sometimes and that's what makes this game of life so interesting. Life is a game.... I truly believe that. Just like any other game... we occassionally have an opportunity to impact it in a positive way.... sometimes we are not that lucky. In some games, things happen around you that you have absolutely no control over. You may be forced to sit back, watch, and just wait for the inevitable to happen. That's just the way it goes sometimes. Sure, mom is unlucky on some level but she is very lucky on another. She is saying the things to people in her life that you and I are not. We say things like, "life is short", "Don't take things for granted", "Live like you were dying", etc., but how many of us actually do that? Even now, being reminded of the value of life, I still take far too many things for granted.

Life is just about making it thru one day at a time and mom was just as successful at accomplishing that goal today as you and I. In theory, her life will be cut shorter than we all hoped... but in reality, we could all be in the same boat. Tomorrow is never promised. Make the most of today.

Life is a game.
Your clock is ticking.
What are you doing about it?

Amy

Class Reunion

Stanwood High School Class of '76 is planning their 30th class reunion at Maxime's Cuisine (upstairs) on Saturday, August 19th from 7:00pm to ? . I'm only telling you this because those people are OLD. Oh, wait. I am one of those people. Some of my fondest (and probably wildest) moments are with some of these friends. Oh, you know who you are...Kathi, Cathy, Molly, Cindy, Julie... I am really looking forward to seeing some of these "old faces". If you know anyone who graduated with us, please pass on this information. Thanks!

My afternoon ended yesterday with Amy stopping by to visit. She showed me how to do some awesome stuff for the ipod. I really am becoming technical. I should get a job at Best Buy with the Geek Squad. Or not.

For those of you who don't know it...My husband Ricky, is going to be 50 years old next Friday. 50 - the big 5-0, Book him Danno, 1/2 a century, AARP member, WOW! I used to think 50 was old. Now I think it's perfect :) Love you honey!

The weather is going to be gorgeous today. Enjoy it! I'm heading out in my bikini for a little bask in the sun (oh, I just got a vision of what that might look like) Never mind. I think I'll sit on the deck and read with my sunhat on instead. I want to protect both of our eyes.

Love you more than all the 2 piece bathing suits in Hawaii...

Dream Big,
Dor

3 Months and Counting...

Can you believe how fast time flies? It has been 3 months today since my diagnosis. I knew I would beat the odds, but who would have thought I would be feeling better after a few months instead of worse?

I'm a little worn out after my busy day yesterday. I promised Rick I would lay low at home (which is where I've been ALL DAY) I did a little work around the house (installed a new toilet seat) , had visitors (Angie, Peggy, Aunt Jessie & Uncle Melvin), watched a little Maury (Regarding the paternity of 2 year old Shaniqua, Tyrone...you are NOT the Father - apparently it is the same show everyday just a different guest who claims to be 1 million percent sure who the father is...though I'm not good at math, I think 1 million percent doesn't have any more validity than 100%), loaded some new songs on Rick's ipod and took a nap. I know what you're thinking...She knows how to install a toilet seat? Oh, if only you knew about all my hidden talents. We talk about that later. :)

I've been finding new reasons to live everyday (besides the obvious ones) and today's is...I need to stick around to load new songs on the IPOD. (Rick can run it, but he doesn't know to put songs on it) Again, another talent you were probably unaware of.

My head is pounding (not from loud music) so I think I'd better get off the computer and take some Tylenol. You know, for all the name dropping I do for the drug companies, I should be getting a kick-back.

Love you more than I love Monk-E-Mail...(ok maybe equally as much as Monk-E-Mail) but that is a lot!

Dreaming, Living, & Loving,
Dor

Laugh and enjoy life

I had crazy dreams last night so I don't think I slept well. I may need a little nap this afternoon :)

Yesterday morning I met Angie at Starbuck's while my "granddog Claira" was getting a haircut. We had a nice visit and some caffeine courage. (Claira looked adorable after her cut) Then my friend Jana's son Josh, met me and we visited for about another hour. It's amazing how fast kids grow up. After my coffee excursion, I went to my friend Pam's house for lunch with her and her grandson, Andy. We had a lot of fun. After Pam's visit, I stopped by work, then to my new bosses house, then Rick and I went to dinner at Jeff & Dawn's house (brother in law/sister in law) and the food was VERY GOOD. I gave my niece Darlena a bath and put her to bed (I think she really loves me) When I got home I discovered a HUGE Sunflower on my porch from Morgan and Kelly (it was beautiful) Poor Amy and Jacob got left out. But never forgotten. Sorry kids. I'll make it up to you. :(

When my day is jam packed like that it helps me put my fear aside. It also wears me out. Perhaps I should spread my excitement out a little bit.

Don't just try to stay alive.
....Participate in your life.

Dream Big,
Dor

Lucky Kids

After spending 4 days vacationing with my parents and siblings, I was reminded of how lucky we are. We will all have different memories of this vacation but I am confident that each of our memories will be about love and laughter. Five minutes after arriving at the cottage this weekend my mom handed me a book called "The Big Book of Lists to Live By (For everything that really matters)". She bought one for each of her children and saved it for a special day. The book is full of good concepts and ideas about contentment, friendship, family and so on. She told me that this book will be my guide when I need one in the future. Mom is planning ahead and I appreciate it. Throughout the weekend mom set aside individual time for her children. Every morning (and several times throughout the day) Amy, Jake and I could look forward to hugs and kisses from her. In addition, she set aside time to lay in the hammock and talk with her children individually. We talked about great memories, future plans and eventually fell asleep snuggling together. Our family played games, watched movies, and walked on the beach. We searched for heart-shaped rocks for mom's collection and spent time kayaking with the seals. I want to thank my parents for the wonderful weekend because I know we will all remember bits and pieces of those experiences for the rest of our lives.

Living Strong,
Angie

Good Morning

Ok, now I feel rested. Though this vacation was not what my family was wanting for me (they would like to have flown us somewhere far away for at least a week) it turned out to be just what I needed. The whole idea was for us to be together and away from the hustle and bustle of our daily lives. That is what we got. We saw beauty. We smelled fresh air. We played games and watched movies. And kayaked. I invented meals. I made up new dances. We laughed.

I believe the initial response to my diagnosis was, let's get away from it. I know now that we can't run from it. Instead, we'll embrace what it has brought us. A deeper love for each other. Awareness. More laughter. Oh, don't get me wrong. We're not giving up. As a matter of fact, times like this with my family around me, make me want to fight even harder than I already do. I should have a shirt made that says, "When you mess with me, Lung Cancer, you mess with my whole family".

Sometimes we get sad. And when we do...the tears flow like lava. Often times, it's a happy moment that sets it off. I'm sure this is a normal reaction but it doesn't make the hurt any less painful. We just keep believing. That's what will keep us going.

We are very lucky to be surrounded by so many thoughtful people. Thanks again for loving and supporting us like you do.

Dream Big,
Dor

Ay...we're bach from Canada...Ay!

Hello friends and family,

We got back from our little vacation in Canada today. It was very beautiful, relaxing and peaceful. I have so much to share with you (including some great photos). We went to a little island called Mayne. The "cottage" we stayed in belongs to a friend of ours who so graciously opened it up for us. (Thanks Karla & Linds) It was just what we needed.

I 'll write more about our adventure tomorrow because I'm heading off to bed now. I'm exhausted from our 4 days of leisure. (Doesn't make sense does it? You'd think I should be rested?)

Love you more than all the ay's in Canada!

Dream Big ~ Dor

I can't stop laughing...

Last night Angie sent me an e-mail (actually it was called monk-e-mail) At first I thought it probably just seemed really funny because I was so tired. So I slept. I got up this morning and watched it again. I've discovered it really is one of the funniest things I've ever experienced. I've written this whole e-mail while giggling. Do you think the medicine could be warping my sense of humor? Please visit the site and enjoy yourself. You can personalize it for the ones you love.

http://www.careerbuilder.com/monk%2De%2Dmail/

By the way, my new eye drops seem to be helping. I can see clearly now the rain is here...

Love you to pieces,
Doreen

I forgot.

I think I fell into a rut. I got overwhelmed with work, military training, and a few days of feeling under the weather. The good news is that I am back by popular demand. I got two emails from people who asked if I was ok because I hadn't written a blog for a while. That was a sign that I needed to check my priorities and write something before someone sends out a search party.

Today has been a tough day for me. It actually started yesterday when Mom called me on her way home from her doctors appointment. I asked her what the doctor had to say and she told me. She seemed fairly upbeat while relaying the latest news. I will admit that I was semi-distracted as she started talking but it didn't take me long to focus on her every word. I think I had forgotten about the cancer. Obviously I didn't really forget about it, but in a way I think I have been in denial for a while. Every appointment since the day of diagnoses has been a positive one. It has become natural to expect positive results from her appointments because we are yet to get news that the cancer is getting worse. She seems healthy so it's easy to forget she is so sick. Yesterday when I asked her what the doctor had to say about her right lung looking so clear she said, "Honey, it might look like the cancer is shrinking but remember they say it's not curable and the doctor said eventually the Tarceva will stop working." Her words were hard for me to swallow. She didn't tell me anything I didn't already know, but hearing them come out of her mouth was hard to listen to. Again, I had forgotten.

After the initial shock in April, the family has pulled ourselves together and remained optimistic and positive. We have to, for our sake as well as hers. It has been easy though. Look at her... she looks wonderful, laughs all the time, and seems to be the same old Dor we have become accustomed to loving. I guess it's hard for me to imagine her any other way. As she continued to tell me the news I said, "Why do you guys seem so happy? I don't think the news sounds very good." In a soothing tone of voice and in a way that only mom can, she reminded me that there is a difference between good news and realistic news. She is right. I should be happy with her progress but at the same time remember that this horrible disease is not curable. Oh, how easy it is to forget sometimes.

Amy

Dr.'s Visit

My Dr.'s visit today went well. Though he didn't tell me the cancer was gone, he did say the CT scan showed that my lungs are looking clearer. He also said, that doesn't mean the cancer is going away. This type of cancer is very hard to watch because it really does still look like pneumonia on X-rays and CT scans. He reminded us today that the goal of Tarceva was never to kill the cancer, but to keep it from spreading rapidly and to give me a better quality of life. So far...So good. It's doing it's job.

Angie asked the Dr. how long I should expect to take Tarceva and he said for most patients who respond well to it (and I'm one of those people) the average time that Tarceva seems to work is around a year. Hopefully by then they will have something new for me to take.

My vision is getting a little blurry and he told me that was due to the Tarceva drying out my eye fluid. Not a big thing, I'm just going to use eye drops. I've been a little queazy lately but that is pretty normal too. Other than that, I feel great! I've gained some weight. (They say it's good...I say I better watch it or my new stuff won't fit)

After my appointment today, I went to Pike Place Market with my daughter Angie and my sister-in-law Vickie. We had a wonderful time and I came home with some beautiful flowers. You all know how I feel about flowers....they make me SMILE! When I got back to Stanwood, I went for a massage. There you have it. Another spectacular day.

Oh, I forgot to tell you about yesterday afternoon. I went to Bellingham with my good friends Pam and Janeen. We went to a little old movie theatre called the Pickford and watched "Heart of the Game" (a documentary about girls basketball) then to a quaint little Italian restaurant called Giuseppe's for dinner. If you've never been to either of those places, find the time. It will be worth it. I promise. The moments I share with these two are always filled with laughter. Thanks Ladies.

Time for me to get my jammies on. It's been an emotional and busy day.

Thanks for thinking about me.
Dream Big ~ Dor

Seattle Cancer Care Alliance Today!

Today's the day. I have computerized copies of my CT scan and chest x-ray that I will be bringing down to Seattle today for my appointment. One of the great things about this Dr. is that he will put the C.D. in and show us the progress. Not just read a report from a radiologist. My stomach is nervous. Nervous in a good way because I know he will tell us positive news. But still nervous, about the unknown. I'll let you all know how the day went after I return home. Keep us in your thoughts and prayers today. We'll need it!

Dream Big,
Dor

Mac & Cheese

When we left Desert Aire yesterday, a friend of ours Len was making his famous Mac & Cheese. It's so famous that I almost stayed back and rode home with someone else just so I could have some of it. I've just learned that Pat (another friend...or used to be friend) ate my portion after I left. I'm not very happy right now. :(

I'm sure many of you are thinking..."Doesn't she have more important things to worry about? Like Lung Cancer?" Let me assure you, if you had tasted the mac & cheese you wouldn't have to wonder why I'm feeling this way. So my dear friends at the desert... No more hot crab dip until I see another batch of Mac & Cheese. I'm holding out....

Ok, I'm better now.
Love you more than I love Len's mac & cheese (and that's a lot)
Doreen

I'm Back...

Good morning my friends. I made it back from Eastern Washington though I nearly melted. Luckily there were cold beverages and a cool pool. That is the "life". I read a couple of books, did a ton of Suduko (number crossword game...I'm addicted...thanks Angie), watched movies and just enjoyed my husband's company. (Though, he worked his rear off in the yard...and he didn't have much rear to start with)

On Wednesday, I went on my first real wine country excursion with some of our Desert Aire family. Rick went to Othello in the morning for business so he sent me in good hands. (oh, that and he doesn't like wine) We went to 5 wineries in Prosser. Here's what I learned....the grapes from 2002 made wonderful wines. Don't judge a winery by it's cover (I'm known for buying wine as gifts for the "cute" label on the front....not always a good idea). Go on tours with people who know about wines and agree with them. ;) I had a blast and I've been renamed the Wine Diva. Apparently, I have a talent for "nosing" the bouquet. (Sounds important so I'm going to tell everyone)

I have an appointment in Seattle on Monday at the Cancer Care Alliance. I'm anxious to start my routine down there. Everything about it seemed top notch. I'll let you know more about my progress after the visit.

Have a wonderful time with your family and friends this weekend.

Hugs & kisses,
Dor

Happy Independence Day 2006

On our walk Sunday morning, Rick and I discovered that Desert Aire has an annual 4th of July Golf Cart Parade. (As you can imagine, I was very excited) Though many of the other participants went with the Americana theme, we decided (along with our Desert Aire family) to go with the "It's 5 o'clock somewhere" theme. We were all decked out in summer gear, strings of lights that had margaritas, daiquiris and martinis on them, umbrellas and pink flamingos in the back. We were a hit! We bought candy to throw to the kids, but in the 102 degree weather we should have been throwing popscicles.

We are having a wonderful time. As usual, great food, fabulous company and lots of laughs. The kids all decided to stay home. :( But, don't worry, we will all be over here again in the near future. My favorite thing to do while I'm here (besides eating at the "big house") is to sit in the blow up "ool", (notice that there is no P in Pool, please keep it that way) I feel like a kid when I'm here. Hey wait...I am a kid (at heart)

Please know that when I'm not writing in the blog, it's because I'm having a great time. I promise to share all the details of my fun when I get back to a computer.

I hope you are all being safe this holiday. I am :) Love you more than all the golf carts in the parade today...

Dream Big,
Doreen

Musician in the family

I'm pretty sure laughing is a prescribed medication. I spent the day with my girls again (Amy was laying in bed sick, but that didn't seem to stop Angie & I) Thankfully, Amy is feeling better tonight. Jacob and I spent the early evening together running errands and laughing. Hanging out with my family can be more of a workout on my abs than a pilates class.

Though my kids were all too busy with sports and other activities to take band in school, I learned today that Angie can play the "lip trumpet". This afternoon, I would sing a song and she would accompany me while humming through her lips. We could hardly look at each other while "performing" because the laughter took over and we would have to start over again. How could I have missed knowing about this talent? It is funnier than heck. The next time you see her ask for a mini-concert.

My friend Ann and her son Michael were here to visit today. They have been living in Arizona but will be moving back soon. It was nice to see them. I can't wait for the full time version again. Hopefully we will get to visit with them again before they head back to the "heat". I had coffee with Lindsay and her dad this morning and that too, was a great visit. It sure is nice slowing down long enough to visit people you care about.

I've been attempting to put photos on the blog but it doesn't seem to be working anymore. I'm not sure what the problem is but I'll keep trying. I never claimed to be really good on the computer. I am, however better on the computer than I am with math (though that's not saying much)

Hopefully Rick and I will be heading over to Desert Aire this weekend. The kids are all staying home (some of them have to work on Monday - Sorry kids) I have a couple of books I've been wanting to read and I can take naps better over there. Rick needs to relax more, too. He has taken on way too much since my diagnosis. Desert Aire is our place to get away from it all.

If I don't send any messages in the next few days, it's because I'm not near a computer. Please have a safe and happy 4th of July if I don't talk to you before then. It is always a dangerous time of year and since I don't have anything else on my mind I will worry about all of you until the 5th.
Doreen's 5 rules for the 4th-
1. Do not drink and drive (and light fireworks) Bad combination
2. Do not hold Roman candles in your teeth. (unless you've always wanted dentures)
3. Do not use a "lit fireworks" as a centerpiece on your picnic table
4. Do not light fireworks in a barn filled with hay
5. Have fun...

Love you more that all the illegal fireworks on an Indian reservation.

Dream Big,
Dor

Is laughter really the best medicine?

I do not have stories about cancer, fundraising, insurance woes, etc. Today I want to talk about my afternoon and the amount of laughing that can be crammed into an hour long lunch break.
So, I was in Stanwood this morning working on an investigation for my job. Mom was at school finishing her “last day”… (although I have a feeling it is one of many “last days” of work for her). Angie, being a school employee, was home screwing around enjoying her summer off. Mom decided the three girls should meet for lunch. Mom picked the Chinese restaurant and told us to meet her downtown at noon. Mom and I showed up on time…. Angie was nowhere to be found. We ordered our food (and something for Angie). The food came….still no Angie. Eventually, after sneaking a bite or two of her food, we called her. She told us she had been sitting at the wrong Chinese restaurant. We laughed. In fact, as we sat down and ate our lunch, we laughed repeatedly about one thing or another. We laughed when a girl walked into the restaurant and asked me for an application….as if I worked there. After being extremely confused I directed her to one of the people in the maroon shirts with the apron around their waist. We laughed when it was time to open our fortune cookies and we went around the table reading our fortunes and making up every word of what it said. I asked Angie what hers said and apparently it read, “Pneumonia looks a lot like lung cancer.” If I recall, mine said, “Angie will be buying lunch today.” When we told mom to read hers she said, “Your new doctor is great and will provide many new opportunities.” We continued around the table as Angie informed us that she had another one on the back of hers. After 5 minutes of failing to read the real fortune, and laughing uncontrollably at the ridiculous things we were “reading” on our fortunes, I had a great idea. I took a piece of the orange that was provided as the dessert and dipped it in sweet and sour sauce and offered it to Angie…as a joke. Mom immediately said she would give us $5 to eat it. Neither of us cared about a five dollar bill, but we had just been challenged so of course we were going to eat it. I dipped a second orange in the disgustingly thick goop, and held it up toward Angie as if to say cheers. She apparently didn’t want to wait as she immediately put the entire orange slice in her mouth. Let’s just say that I never got a chance to put mine in my mouth because just as quickly as it went in…it came flying out. She was spitting up the orange and gagging at the horrible taste. I thought mom and I were going to pee our pants. I decided it was best to avoid the experiment and surrender the $5. Angie assured me that it was not worth it. We hugged goodbye and I left. Remember, I still had to work…unlike the school employees who began walking down the block to do some shopping. I decided the lunch hour wasn’t quite complete so I waited for Angie to get out of sight and I proceeded to write her a fake parking ticket for “parking in a handicapped spot” (even though she wasn’t). I put it under her windshield wiper and left. Angie called 45 minutes later saying, “You jerk, you scared the crap out of me.” I heard mom laughing in the background and that in itself was enough to make my day. Thanks girls for a great lunch, and even better company.

Still smiling-
Amy

It's me again..

Amy once said on the blog, "I can't think of anything good about my mom getting lung cancer". Though I agree with her...I feel so fortunate to actually feel good enough to do all the things that make my heart happy. Besides staying in bed longer in the mornings and staying at work for a shorter time period each day...my life has been enriched with FUN. Yesterday in Seattle was a spectacular day. Janeen and I had a ball. Luck followed us everywhere. From great location in the parking lot, to the 1/2 price tickets, to our $5 appetizers (at a very fancy restaurant's "happy hour"), my "cheap" new blouse, then our final parking spot...we couldn't have hand picked better results. A blanket in the theatre might have helped (the air conditioning almost gave us frostbite) Menopause the Musical was delightful and very funny. Thanks Neener for your friendship and a wonderful day!

I think we may have decided on a vacation spot (In Canada). I'll tell you all about it later when we confirm everything. Thanks for all your ideas. Relaxation and family are what appeal to me the most right now...so I think we're going to skip the airplane rides and crowds for a while.

I know I've been saying this for days, but I think today might be my last day at work for the summer. I have a hard time staying away from the place when I get to see my friends each day. Work shouldn't be a job. It should be your home away from home. Mine certainly is. I am blessed. :)

I was just going to get in the shower and fix my hair and make-up but, I think I might wear my Superman hat and flip flops to the office today instead. When you've got an amazing life like I do, it's hard not to feel like a Superhero!

When you laugh, be sure to laugh out loud, cuz it will carry all your cares away!

Dream Big,
Dor

Good Morning

I was hoping to be insightful this morning, but I've decided that would be too much work. So instead, I want to wish you all a fabulous sunny day, don't forget yesterday's advice and think of me while I'm in Seattle playing with my friend, Janeen. Today's adventure (after a meeting at the District Office and a few last minute things at the office) will be Pike Place Market and "Menopause the Musical". Sounds like a day filled with laughs for me. Oh, and probably some good food. We can't forget that!

I got a call yesterday from Seattle Cancer Care Alliance and they want to see me on July 12th. I have a sense of calm now that we will be going there for care. Do you see how I said we? I feel like we've all been hit with this. Not just me. :(

I love you more than all the sunburned bodies that "forgot to put sunscreen on" this weekend.

Dreaming Big,
Dor

Oops! I missed a day~

Yesterday came and went so fast I forgot to stop by to say hello. So, Hello...Hello I worked, went to lunch with my friend Pam, took a nap with my daughter Angie, made dinner, visited with my daughter Amy, went with Rick and Jacob to deliver a few items to my new boss and his wife's house, then stayed a while to help with their move. Another day. Another time to make a memory. (another moment to avoid housework)

The weather is beautiful. Don't forget your sunscreen. Wear a life jacket. Have a popscicle. Drink lots of water. Most important ~ Wear Flip Flops!

Except for taking medicine daily, I sometimes forget about the "C" in my lungs. Maybe someday we can all FORGET about IT! Let's help find a cure. :)

I love you more than all the people who called in "sick" to work yesterday but will come back with a tan today. :)

Dream Big,
Dor

Nice ending to a great week

After reflecting on my life as it is, I've discovered that I'm pretty lucky. A couple of months after being diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer I'm actually feeling better, not worse. I'm having some kind of fun everyday. I've visited with people that I haven't seen in a long time. I've laughed - A LOT!

I was asked the other night what advice I would give someone now that I know about my health. My answer was immediate. I said, live with no regrets. That doesn't mean we won't wish we had or hadn't done something that we did or didn't do, or taking careless risks,...it means once you've done something...it's done. Get over it. Move on. Apologize if you need to. Thank someone if you should. But never be sorry that it happened. Everything we do in life helps mold our character. Helps us become the person we were intended to be. Regrets only stunt our growth.

Ok, enough serious talk. I bought 2 new pair of flip flops (thongs) today on sale. Life is too short not to wear flip flops everyday. (oh, and also I need to show off my new pedicure) My daughter Amy wears flip flops in the winter. I'm thinking about going wild and trying that too! I'll let you know how that works once the temperature dips below 50 degrees.

This week will be bittersweet for me at work. I'll be done working for the school year with hopes that I will return in August feeling better than ever, but also knowing that my body might have a different plan for me. I promise not to think about work (very much) over the summer and just enjoy my life with family and friends.

I love you more than all the pee in a kiddie pool.

Dream Big,
Dor

Bottle #2 - DONE

Can you believe it? It feels like only yesterday we were talking about my first bottle of Tarceva. It was so cute and friendly. Everyone wanted to see it and hold it. Now, it's 2 months old and kicking butt. Oh sure, we all still love it but no one wants to get in the way. (Especially my lung cancer)

This is going to be a beautiful weekend ~ so enjoy!

Love you to the moon (and back).

Doreen

Friday Night with the Girls

I feel as though I have a new and exciting story to tell everyday. Here goes another one... Tonight, 9 of my dearest buddies and I watched a women's professional basketball game (Seattle Storm vs. San Antonio Stars) from Suite Seats at Key Arena. What a blast (Seattle won, but I hardly watched any of the game...I was too busy talking and joking around with my friends and making noise with the giveaway items they gave us on the way in) We laughed from Stanwood to Seattle and back. We met at Amigo's for appetizers then stopped at Dick's on the way home (for a Dick's deluxe and fries w/tarter). If you can't tie good food into a trip, I say don't bother going anywhere.

Thanks to all of you for spending the evening together with me. I loved every minute of it (especially sharing the backseat with Morgan - I've never felt safer:) My life is richer because of your love and friendship.

I love you more than all the mullets we saw at the game tonight....

Dream Big,
Doreen

My day of pampering...

Wow! Today I enjoyed a "Day of Beauty" in Bellevue at the Gene Juarez Galleria. It all began at 11:30 when I was escorted to the Spa area and given a warm fuzzy robe and slippers to wear. I had a bio-nutrient facial (with neck and scalp massage) until 12:45 when I took a Swiss shower (jets coming at me from all angles), catered lunch at 1:00, then at 2:00 I was whisked off to my amazing pedicure with reflexology, 3:00 was my foil (highlight), followed by a cut at 4:00. I left the building around 5:15 feeling completely spoiled. (Thank you for the wonderful day Dawn) After my day of pampering, my sister-in-law Dawn and my niece Darlena and I went to dinner at P.F. Chang's. (I've attached a photo of my new look. I'm pretty blonde, but I really love it! The cut is short and wild. Just like me :)

I told Rick that I intend to pamper myself like this once a year for the rest of my life. He's hoping I spend lots of money at Gene Juarez over the next 20 or 30 years....

I'm feeling fresh and rested and it's almost 9:00pm. I might have to do this spa thing more often. Love you more than all the BMW's in Bellevue.

Dream Big,
The new and improved Doreen

It's Gonna Be a GREAT Day!

Good morning friends,

The sun is shining, my health is improving, I feel great and I am loved. Does it get any better than this?

Have a beautiful day ~
Doreen

Ok, Here's the DEAL....

I'm telling you...the power of prayer and love is doing it's job. At my appointment today the Dr. told us the CT scan showed signs of improvement. My blood work was good. The cancer in my right lung and the cancer in the upper left lung seem to be disappearing. This was a comparison based on a paper report not a visual report so we can only believe what he read to us. And...we're liking it.

I (along with my family) decided that I needed to go with my heart when it came to my health care. Though my Dr. has been giving me good news (I know I shouldn't be picky) I just don't think he's the best fit for me. I'm sure he is a very good Dr. but he is just a little too "clinical" for me. So, I've decided to head down to the Seattle Cancer Care Alliance (where I had my 2nd opinion) and join up with Dr. Eaton. He is a lung cancer specialist and Rick and I really clicked with him. I'll be heading down to see him in a few weeks so I'll keep you posted.

Keep those prayers a coming.

Love you lots,
Doreen

Four Little Words

This is the third time that I have typed this message on the blog but I keep hitting the delete button. I dont want to tell sad stories and make people feel "sorry" for me or anyone else in my family. After thinking about it again this morning, I decided that I want to type the message again and this time hit the send button.

I was in Spokane this last weekend for a basketball officials camp. I had signed up for the camp back in February or March, well before mom got sick. As the camp approached, I felt guilty about attending it. I knew that I could not stop living my life just because mom was sick, but I also felt like I should be spending my summer vacation going on day trips with mom and enjoying her company. My friends Kevin and Glen talked me into going and told me it would be a great experience for me. I was learning a lot and having a great experience until Friday night when a camp evaluator encouraged me to attend a wonderful camp next summer in Seattle. For some reason, I lost it. I walked out of the Gonzaga University gymnasium and sat in the hallway crying. I had been strong for days, probably even for weeks without crying. But the unthinkable statistics about mom's cancer had obviously been floating around in my head and thinking about next summer was something that I hadnt done yet. I am living in the now because that is the only place to live. After I settled down, I did what I always do when I am having a hard time... I called mom. She quickly realized that I was upset (I'm not good at pretending). She told me that I must be doing a great job at camp if people were encouraging me to attend a try-out camp next year. That may have been true but I didnt want to think about the possibility of mom not being around to see it happen. She assured me that she has no intentions of going anywhere but more importantly she told me the four little words that will forever be in my head... "Honey, I believe in you". Right then and there I realized that mom will never be gone. She will always be the voice of reason in my head that is pushing me to pursue my dreams and follow my heart. She reminded me that she believes in me and that alone is enough.

I feel like the luckiest person in the world to call her "Mom".

Living Strong,
Angie

The Big Day

Tomorrow is the day in which we see the impact that Tarceva is having on the cancer in my mom's body. And that scares me half to death. I have been thinking about this appointment every second of the day today, hoping for the best. I have not yet been able to attend a doctor's appointment and I am not sure if my heart could take what the doctor would to tell us, whether good or bad, so it is probably a good thing that I haven't gone.

My mom is such a large part of my life and many of yours as well, and I can't take the anticipation of these results. I have been hearing too many statistics in the last two months about this type of cancer. I will tell you one thing, my mom will not be a statistic. I hope that she is in your thoughts and prayers tomorrow and the days following that. It will be the 62nd day that she has been a cancer survivor, you make me proud mom.

Thank you for all of your love and support,
Jacob

This is ridiculous...

I went to Mom and Dad's house last night for a Father's Day BBQ and while I was there my mom was telling me about an article she had just read in the July addition of her REDBOOK magazine. She mentioned how ironic it was that she just started getting the magazine last month, yet right on the cover of July's issue was an article called "Women and Cancer, the #1 killer isn't what you think." I stopped what I was doing so mom could read me the article. The things she read initially made me sad... but then they began to make me mad. Here are a few of the statistics the article listed:

-Lung Cancer is the #1 killer in both men and women in the United States.

-Lung Cancer kills more women than breast, ovarian, and uterine cancers combined. 72,130 women in the U.S. will die of it this year alone.

- 41% of all lung cancer cases occur in women who have not yet reached their 50th birthday.

-20% of women sufferers have never smoked.

-Deaths from lung cancer among women skyrocketed more than 600% in the last 50 years.

-Last year, the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDP) spent $204 million on breast and cervical cancer research, but not a cent on lung cancer.

After hearing the statistics in mom's magazine I decided to do some research of my own. I found the same alarming statistics in other publications. Lung Cancer is the deadliest cancer yet it is woefully underfunded, so help is not on the way. Here are more statistics I have found:

-Though lung cancer is deadlier to women than other types of cancer, breast cancer gets almost 10 times more research funding per death than lung cancer, because lung cancer is considered the "guilty cancer."

-Offspring of non-smoking, lung cancer patients have a 2-fold greater risk for developing other types of cancer.

-Relatives of non-smoking, lung cancer patients have a 68 percent increased risk of developing lung cancer.

The hardest part for me to understand and the part that makes me mad is the fact very little is being done to find a cure for lung cancer. Something has to be done to change the stigma that surrounds this disease. Unfortunatly for these victims, their disease is associated with smoking and that will continue to lessen their chances for adequate research. Cancer is a sad enough disease as it is, but imagine being diagnosed and then immediately having a stigma attached to you as if you did it to yourself. Something needs to be done and more people need to be held accountable for the inadequate funding set aside for the deadliest of all cancers.

Livestrong-
Amy

CT SCAN...

I'm heading out soon for my scheduled CT Scan. I'm sure with all the prayers and well wishes that surround me, everything will turn out great. My follow up appointment is tomorrow, so we'll know more then. I'll update this page later today.

Love you more than...you'll ever know.

Dream Big, Dor

Happy Father's Day

Not every woman is blessed to be surrounded by men in her life that she can truly call "heros".
Again, I'm the lucky one.

On this Father's Day I want to thank my dad who taught me to work hard and be proud of my accomplishments. He loves me unconditionally (and I gave him many opportunities in my younger years to change his mind - Sorry Dad) I love his creative spirit and how I can show him some wood working project that I think would be "cute", and by the end of the day...he's made me a sample (perfectly, I might add). Dad would do anything for anyone. He is a grandpa and father figure to many people. Times were tough for my dad when he was a young child, but through all those trying times he worked hard to make sure his family would be taken care of.
Daddy, you've done your job. Thank you for just being you. Love you more than all the peas at Twin City Foods.

Now, about my Ricky...I've always heard the best way for a father to love his children is to show them how much he loves their mother. Well, I don't think it gets much better than this. He is my best friend, the love of my life, works very hard to provide for his family, is proud of his children, tells me he loves me every day (many times), hugs me when I need it (and even when I didn't know I needed it), likes my cooking, takes me on vacations and makes me laugh. Rick too, would do anything for anyone. I believe this bump in the road that we're now facing will only make our love grow stronger. I know you've all heard me say it many times, but if he could trade me lungs, he would do it. He would walk to the ends of the earth for a cure. Rick will be 50 in a month and all he wants for his birthday is for me to be healthy. Honey, you are the most giving and loving man I know. And, YOU are my HERO.

Happy Father's Day to all of you amazing dads, grandpas, uncles, cousins, brothers, nephews who make your familys proud.

I love you more than all the remote controls in a father's hand...
Doreen

Newly Renovated

I thought you might be getting tired of the same old website so, I revamped it a little. Since my Cougar is home for the summer, I thought I would honor him with WSU colors. Hope you like it.

I'll be back on in the morning to wish my dad, husband, uncles, brother-in-laws, nephews, cousins and friends a VERY HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!

Good night & Dream Big,
Dor

Just a weird kind of day~

Hi Buddies,

I'm not sure what's happening to me right now. I don't feel bad. I just feel different. I've been sleeping more, more emotional (if that's at all possible), lonely (but not alone), and feeling very uncertain. It's probably because I have my 2 month check-up on Tuesday. I don't have any reason to think they're not going to give me a good report, I'm just anxious. The kids are all gone this weekend and Rick has been cutting wood so I'm spending more time with myself. How can you guys all stand me? No wonder I'm tired....I bore myself to sleep.

I don't like to write in my blog when I'm feeling down because I don't want others to feel sad for me. But, I've realized that you are the ones who help lift me back up, so I guess you want to know everything...not just the candy-coated version of "Doreen's Updates".

We are going to a friends 50th birthday party today (He is actually a friend of Rick's...my friends are all so much younger...just kidding Reid) so hopefully that will bring my spirits up. It will be fun to get together with people we haven't seen in a while. And, anytime you can make fun of someone else's age....who wouldn't enjoy themself?

Our book is coming along great. You have all sent some really insightful & humorus "I love you more thans..." Keep them coming! We're going to be famous.

I love you more than all the gigahooters in my computer.
Dreaming HUGE-GANTIC
Doreen

School's Out For Summer

Today was the last day of school for the year. We had our customary end of the school year luncheon, with singing from a few of our teachers, a marshmallow food fight for Mr. Piccolo's last lunch duty, lots of laughs, and many staff members leaving the district, retiring, or moving to different positions within our school. We said our good-byes, sent our well wishes, and gave hugs...but this time for me it was different. I've never ended a school year with such uncertainty. I've always crammed to get my work complete by the end of June, but then couldn't wait to get back in early August. I'm not feeling that way right now. As a matter of fact, I'm having a hard time feeling anything. I get to work after everyone else has already started in the mornings, and leave before they are done for the day. Sometimes I feel like Charlie Brown's teacher is in the office....wah, wah, wah, wa....No real words or emotions. Just doing the work. Not near the fun. Not near the excitement. I'm sure this is just one of the phases I will go through during my journey with cancer...I'm just not liking it.
Did I just sound like Debbie Downer from Saturday Night Live? Ok enough of that!

We had fresh copper river salmon for dinner tonight and it was great. Rick went to Costco today and surprised me with it (I think I've been whining about wanting some for a week or so), and I went to Haggen and surprised him with some (since I'd been whining about it). The real surprise is...we'll be having salmon all weekend since we bought out the "Copper River". Love is funny sometimes...

I recorded my new favorite tv program (Windfall) on my TIVO tonight. It doesn't start until 10:00 and I don't think I'll make it that late. Gotta go get my pj's on. :)

I love you more than all the copper river salmon in my refrigerator....
Dream Big,
Dor

Keep up the fight

I'm almost at the 2 month mark since my diagnosis. 2 months? 8 weeks? 60 days? Ok, you see where I'm going with this? (it's a math thing so I better stop) I can not believe it went by so fast. I love that. I know many of you wish time would stand still. Not me...I want to see it forge ahead with me at the front wearing boxing gloves. I've decided I want to be a fighter. When cancer gets in my way... "pow", "smack", "zap"...Wait, that sounds more like Batman. Let me start again. I am going to be a superhero when I grow up. "SuperDor"?

I would like to write a book but I'm going to need your help. I'm going to call it "I love you more than..." Here are some examples. I love you more than all the chocolate in Hershey, PA. I love you more than all elves at the North Pole, I love you more than all the sand in Iraq... Can you invision my idea? Send your "I love you mores" to dreambig@wavecable.com or put them under the comments. I think it will be the perfect gift to let someone know how much they are loved.

To all my associate authors:
I love you more than officials miss calls,
Doreen

Passing the torch....

I haven't had the opportunity to get on-line and post a message for a while so I thought I better take a few minutes and do that right now before another day comes and goes. It has been a week and a half since the Relay For Life took place. For many people... and many teams... it may be a time to relax and celebrate a great event. I for one, think the event was an amazing experience. I had never seen one and now I intend to never miss one. Sitting there at the ten o'clock hour and listening to the names being read over the intercom system was tough for me. That moment changed my life. Cancer has always been a horrible thing but it used to be something that happened to the "other family" not mine. I lost my grandma to cancer in 1991 but I had not been touched by it again until Davis Carlson was diagnosed with it last year. It was difficult for me to see a child battling the devastating disease. It was the first time I had witnessed a community come together in support of a family and a cause. People saw that cancer doesn't just affect "old people." Then, my grandpa was diagnosed with cancer in February of this year and it was a blow for my family. Just when we were down and out, along came that dreadful day in April when mom got the news. Nobody was prepared to hear that "C word", but who ever is?

Let me tell you how quickly a life can change. Let me tell you how quickly priorities can change. My life was given meaning. I will never stop doing my part to find a cure for cancer. Never.

I took on the role of team captain for Doreen's Dream Team for a few different reasons. Number one I wanted to make sure we were really going to step up and do it. There was a lot of talk about throwing together a team but the deadline was approaching and I was afraid we would be too distracted to make it happen. The second reason was simply to occupy my mind and find something positive to focus on. Sure, I was still thinking about Cancer but it was FIGHTING CANCER and that sounded like a step in the right direction for me.

So, a bunch of wonderful women raised their hands and signed up for Mom's dream team. We laughed, we cried, we hugged, we smiled, and we cried a little more. The Relay For Life turned out to be perfect (although we could have done without the rain.)

After the Relay I was approached by the Chair of the event and she asked me if I would be interested in being on the committee for next year’s event. I was honored to be asked and we have been in contact ever since. I have decided to accept the position of co-chair for the 2007 Relay for Life with the intention of being the Chairman of the Event in 2008. Again, it's an honor to be asked and I look forward to the challenges that lie ahead. I will be passing the "Captain" torch to a gal who I think will easily step into the role and lead the Dream Team in next year's event. She is also very attractive, comes from a good family, and has excellent siblings. Angie Schmitt will be taking over as captain. :) I'm not going anywhere. I will still be on the team and I will still be cracking the whip to make sure we raise the most money for cancer research.

Sure, the event has come and gone for 2006 but don't forget that Cancer hasn't stopped. I hope everyone continues to keep this devastating disease in their mind and continues to search for a cure. Be a part of something that's bigger than you. Find a passion in life. I've found mine.

Dreaming Big-
Amy

Back by popular demand

Ok friends,

I know my memos have been lame lately, so here goes an attempt at something deep:
Wells, The Grand Canyon, oceans, volcanos, a generous man's pockets and my love for all of you. So how was that? Not so good? Ok, Let me try again.

Each day I sit here at the computer and wish I could tell you that I'm healthy. Since I can't do that, I want to bring you hope. But, I'm not sure how to do that either, since I'm still working at it myself. So instead, I'll bring you my humor. Ok, I know some of you wouldn't consider it humor but rather goofyness, but who cares? Laughter is Laughter. And it is the sweetest tasting medicine I take.

Yesterday I re-read all the cards and letters I've recieved over the past 6 weeks ( it took a while...because there were 253 of them) Can you believe that? 253 times someone has taken the time out of their busy life to let the Schmitt Family know how many thoughts and prayers are coming our way. That amazes me. That warms my heart. That brings me hope.

Next week will be an important milestone for my progress. I have a CT Scan on Monday and a follow-up appointment on Tuesday. This will tell them "HOW WELL" (power of positive thinking) the Tarceva is working. I still believe in my medical team and I feel a National Championship in my future....If nothing else, I know I'm going to make it to post-season play :)

You know the drill...
Dream Big,
Love ~ Doreen

Making Memories

Today was "Field Day" at my school in Marysville. It is a day where I am in charge of setting up stations of field games for the students to participate in. I had mentioned it to my Mom a few days ago in passing but I didn't bring it up again. Five minutes before the event was scheduled to begin, my Mom came walking up to me with a smile on her face and her "visitor" pass on her coat pocket. She came to volunteer in any way that she could. I love that about her. Throughout the two hour event, I scanned the field looking for my Mom and wondered what she was doing. Every time I located her I began smiling. One time I found her challenging a group of fourth grade students to a bubble gum blowing contest. They were really getting into it. At one point she said, "See that boy in the black Alcatraz shirt? He thinks his bubble was bigger than mine! I don't think so!" Later I found her eating a popsicle with the second grade girls. Throughout the afternoon I watched and absorbed every bit of her. I noticed her laugh, her interaction with others and her sincere smile. She was able to meet a few of the wonderful teachers who so graciously donated to "Doreen's Dream Team" and finally put a face to many of the names that I often mention. Thank you for making today so memorable Mom!

I love you,

Angie

Friendship Heals

I read this in a book today from my friend Cindy and I thought I should share it with you...

The very best friends
have the kind of relationship
where each one thinks
they're getting the better part
of the deal.

All my love,
Dream Big~
Doreen

P.S. In this photo, I'm surrounded by some of my "oldest" and "greatest" friends.
I Love you lots, Cindy, Cathy & Molly

Just another rainy graduation day in Washington

The website was down yesterday so I was unable to send a new message. Sorry :(

I've believe that NO NEWS is good news. So, I have GOOD NEWS.
I hope that good stuff is happening internally since externally I feel fine.

It's graduation day here in Stanwood and it's raining. Sorry kids. I did my best with the weathermen but it didn't work at the Relay for Life either. Congratulations to all of you in the class of 2006 who have impacted my life so positively. Best of luck in your future endeavors. I believe in you! Dream Big~

Love to you all,
Doreen

Vacation Ideas...

We're thinking about a family trip this summer and we're looking for some ideas. We've had some great offers but many of them are too hot at this time. Do you have a favorite spot you like to visit? If you have any thoughts, drop us a comment. I'm thinking Disneyland because it's the happiest place on earth...however, every kid and their parent who will be out of school (in a matter of days) also like the idea of Disneyland. So my timing isn't good.

I feel good about taking time off from work now. My part-time replacement will do a great job (plus she'll have the help of Pam, Janeen, Krystle & Morgan - whether she wants it or not :) Before long they'll be running the place. It really does make taking time off easier to deal with when you can count on the person who takes over for you. Thanks Pam R....

I've only had one small nap in the past 3 days and I'm nearly falling asleep at the computer. Apparently, I'm still feeling the aftermath of this past weekend. Gotta go to bed now!

Dream Big,
With Love ~ Dor

Want to Share?

I set up an account on a website called Snapfish for all of the Dream Team to save their Relay for Life pictures on but I was talking to mom last night and she thought it would be a good idea to open the site up for everyone.... so... here it is.

If you took digital pictures this weekend at the Relay for Life and want to share them with the group go to: www.snapfish.com

The login name is: dreambig@wavecable.com and the password is superman.

That is all you need to do. It will take you directly to a page where you can view all of the pictures our team has already uploaded, and there is an upload button you can click on to add your own pictures to the page. If you are denied access to the page or an "error" message comes up, it means that somebody else is currently on the page uploading or viewing the photos. Don't give up! Eventually it will be free for you to view. I encourage everyone to check it out!

Thanks again to everyone who made the weekend a special experience.

Amy

My "Dandies"

I know I've talked about the Dream Teams a lot lately, but make no mistake that the Dandie's hold a very special place in my heart. The team consisted of some amazing men in my life. Our dear friend, Bill Gum instrumented this group of gentlemen who did whatever was asked of them, whenever it was asked. Many of them stayed through the night honoring those they had lost or who were still fighting the battle of cancer.

I hope that one day (10 years from now) I will stand before you as a strong survivor and thank each of you personally for being a part of saving my life. However, no matter how long I live, please know that you have made my life rich in love and hope just by being you!

Thank you Bill, Rick, Jake, Dad, Uncle Richard, Nate, Tod, Zach, Dan G., Dan L., John, Dan H. (and Linda for the goodies), Dick, Terry, Stan & Curt - You're my heros!

Dream Big,
Doreen

The Reason

For the past 6 weeks I've played this diagnosis over and over in my head. I've tried not to do the "Why Me?" approach. I've tried to keep a positive and upbeat attitude about my future. I've done my best to appreciate EVERYTHING at EVERY MOMENT of EVERYDAY. It is now 4:30 in the afternoon and I just woke up. Literally. I know now why it was me. It takes someone we know and love to be inflicted with something of this magnitude for us to get serious about awareness and a cure. And you my friends and family GOT SERIOUS! Between the 2 Doreen's Dream Teams and Doreen's Dandies (my all male support staff) we rasied over $22,000 in just 3 short weeks for research, support and aid for cancer patients.I was so moved by how many people stayed the duration of those grueling 18 hours. Many of you walked at least 26 miles ( a marathon) for the cause. My 73 year old dad walked off and on all 18 hours (though I'm not sure if he's doing any walking today), my daughters and son gave me a million reasons never to give up, my sister-in laws, aunts, uncles, cousins and niece (aka auntie's girl), friends and my other "daughters" walked through blisters, pulled groins, sore feet, rain, loud music, and determination without a whine and without much sleep, my amazing husband proved that he would walk to the ends of the earth for me (I would do the same for you honey, if I could). I've never been hugged and kissed and loved more than I was these past few days. I think "Dream Big" must have been played 10 times over the speaker system by the D.J but the most special version I heard was the one played by my "girls" Alicia Aufai and Julie Baker on their guitars around our "campsite".This event moved me like no other. I thought I was done "crying about cancer". I thought I just wanted to "live". But truthfully, I'm scared. I'm mad. I'm determined. But mostly, I'm Proud. Proud to have all of you (whether you were there participating, cheering us on, sending well wishes or donated to our cause) on MY TEAM. You are MY INSPIRATION. MY REASON.

Team Awards given by the American Cancer Society at the Stanwood Relay for Life 2006:

Most Money Raised - Doreen's Dream Team One
Most Laps Walked by Anyone - Rick Schmitt - 132 laps (33 miles)
Most Money Collected by a Male - Rick Schmitt - $1,525
Most Spirited Team - Doreen's Dandies (they also got the best costume award)

All my love and admiration,
Doreen

Success...

I’m not going to pretend I am walking in my usual manner or that my feet don’t have blisters all over them (if I recall, it was about midnight when I switched to flip flops for the remainder of the event.) My body took a beating (I can’t even imagine how my dad “AKA Marathon walker” must be feeling.) I am so thankful to have had such a great group of women on our team. I think the weekend was a success. Not only did we raise the most money of any team ($14,054.20), but we also had many touching moments that we will never forget. From the warm sunshine to the pouring rain, we experienced it all. After seeing the looks on everyone’s face I would have to say there are very few regrets about signing up and participating in this event. Thank you so much to the women who gave their time before, during, and after the event. I also want to thank our great friends and family who came and experienced the event with us. So many people deserve recognition for their help in making this event so memorable but I especially want to thank MaryAnne (who made the Doreen’s Dream Team sign and brought us Banana Crème Pies at the perfect time), and Larry Libby (who took some photos of our team early in the day and had them developed and returned to the tent a few hours later). Those are the types of things that make me proud to come from such a great community and have such great people surrounding my family. I look forward to next years Dream Team. We have a title to defend ladies.....

From all of the Schmitt Family.... We Thank you.

Amy

It's Here...

After a month of anticipation, the weekend is finally here. The weather will stay nice until Sunday afternoon (I talked to Steve Pool, Jeff Renner & Harry Wampler...and weathermen in our area are NEVER WRONG) We've raised a great deal of money in the short time we've been working together. Hopefully, this is just the 1st annual Relay for Life for Doreen's Dream Team and Doreen's Dandies (with many more to follow).

Thank you everyone for your participation in helping to find a cure. Your support and love are overwhelming.

Don't forget to take a nap this afternoon before the event starts. You'll need your strength :)

Dream Big,
Doreen

Health Update

Good morning friends,

This website was originally set up to let you know how my health was doing. So here's the latest...My cough is virtually gone. I breath without discomfort. I'm adjusting to my acne/rash (most people say it just makes me look younger - like I'm going through puberty). My dry/itchy skin drives me crazy because I feel like my nerves are at the surface (so I just keep lots of lotion on). I bruise easier. I'm still fatigued but I try to nap everyday to overcome that. My heart is healthier than ever because it's overflowing with love (for clairification...this is not a medical evaluation...but rather an emotional one)

Like I've said many times, I feel better than I did a few months ago. That is encouraging. I know not to get my hopes up too high, too fast, but it can't hurt to keep believing in miracles. :)

Hope to see you tomorrow at the Relay for Life.

Dream Big,
Doreen

Just some thoughts :)

I was asked today by a reporter if I will continue to write in my blog even when I'm not feeling well. I answered yes...without hesitation. I find that when I open my heart and soul to those I love (and who love me back) I can't help but feel better. If not physically, then emotionally.

I had another great day. An old childhood friend stopped by the house this afternoon to visit (which we did for about 2 hours). I went to dinner with some friends for my birthday and laughed a lot! It really is the best medicine.

Relay for Life is just around the corner and I can't believe the support. Money is pouring in for our teams. I call Eagle's Nest everyday to order more shirts. We keep getting more and more ideas for our campsite festivities. I am so excited to share 18 amazing hours with all of you. Whether it's walking with a team mate or chatting with one of our fans, I can't wait to share this experience. We are doing a good thing in the name of research. Be proud. I am. :)

Hugs and kisses,
Dor (6 -week lung cancer survivor)

The Beginning of Something New

Well, 47 years have come and gone for Mom. It's time to move on to something bigger and better. Although the Schmitt family has faced some tough times in the past month and a half, we have also faced some very inspirational moments. I don't cry nearly as much these days as I use to. It's not that I'm not sad, it's just that I have a sense of peace about me. I don't ask why anymore. I don't get frustrated or look on-line for some type of miracle cure to save my mom. I truly believe she will be in a good place from this day forward. She is strong mentally. She is as strong emotionally as anyone could possibly be in this type of situation. I'm not sure what it is I was hoping to save her from. Although it's difficult to find something positive about my mom getting lung cancer.... you know... as hard as I try I can't finish this sentence. There is NOTHING positive about my mom getting lung cancer. Let's try that sentence again.... Although I would never wish to see my mom ill or in pain, I have to admit that I am glad she will get the opportunity to hear stories of how she has touched other people's lives. Everyday I hear stories about how influential my mom had been in shaping someone's life. I am honored by that. Imagine what it was like to have her on a full-time basis. I know now, more than ever, how truly blessed my life has been. I have parents who love each other more than any two people I know. I have a dad who would gladly trade lungs with those of his soulmate. I have a mom who loves everyone as though they are her own children. So, 47 years have come and gone, but I believe her best years are ahead of her. She has lots of things left on that "To Do" list, a family to love, a cure to search for, and a community to strenghten. Mom, Best Wishes for a happy, healthy year. You are loved.

All of my love-
Amy

Getting Older...It's a Good Thing!

I had a wonderful weekend at Desert Aire. The weather was questionable on Saturday but by Sunday afternoon it was beautiful. I've decided that weather will not make or break my happiness. When it's raining, or windy, I'll just stay inside and have fun. Once it clears up, I can head outside to enjoy life. It took me 48 years to figure this out :) Some of us are slower than others... We had a wonderful time with Bob & Dy, Dave & Val, and our Desert Aire family. The food was great but the company was even better. Thanks for my little birthday party and your love. (Ally the cake was my best one ever)

It's fabulous getting older. Women aren't suppose to say that ~ We're suppose to defy age. Now I can't wait to have my next birthday and the one after that... Hooray for wrinkles.

Thank you again everyone for the awesome life I live. You are all a very important part of who I am. Have I told you lately that I love you?

I love you more,
Dream Big - Dor

Birthday Girl!

Happy, Happy Birthday on this your special day...

I hope your birthday is filled with love, laughter and things that make you smile. Let's celebrate another year behind us and many more to come!


I love you,

Angie

Memorial Day Weekend Update

I'm drinking wine with friends and family while making memories. I believe it is theraputic. I'll let you know on Tuesday. Are you suppose to mix red wine with TARCEVA? Oh, I just read the label and they say it's a great chaser. (Just make sure you take it on an empty stomach). Pictures to follow later. Have a safe and happy Memorial Day Weekend.

Love you all.

Dream Big,
Dor

1st Bottle of Tarceva - Empty

Wow! 30 days flew by. I laughed, I cried, I ate, I slept, I took my Tarceva, I got better...Now if I can just keep this up for a few more years. Ok, I was going to say 30 more years but I didn't want to sound greedy.

Thanks for all the hugs and well wishes I've received from all of you! I really do feel loved.

Dream Big,
Doreen

1 Month Check Up Results - Great News

When I got to work on Tuesday morning before my appointment, (my friend) Janeen said she had invisioned the x-ray the Dr. would be taking that day to show little cancer cells "taking cover and screaming out....ok, ok, I give up. We didn't realize who we were messing with". Though it wasn't quite like that, my oncologist's office called yesterday afternoon to inform me that there was a definate change (for the better) on my x-ray after only one month of Tarceva.
The Dr.'s office was as excited about these results as I was. I knew my cough was better and my drowning feeling had nearly gone away. I've been saying all along that if someone is going to beat this thing...why not me? They still say it's not cureable but stopping the mutation of the cancer cells is a win-win situation.

Next month I will have a new Chest CT Scan that will determine what's really going on inside. Thanks again for all your support and prayers.

Dream Big,
Love ~ Dor

Thank You Dream Teams

Dream Teams~ I wish that you knew just how much this relay for life means to our family. To see the support we have recieved from the community and especially from the Dream Teams, we could not have asked for more. Dor had a smile on her face for the rest of the day on Sunday after the meeting. She knows that she has a lot of support behind her and she is very proud of her teammates. Keep up the good work and someone try to catch up with Peggy. Nice job Peg :)
Your support is priceless,
Jake

What a TEAM

Dream Team...We haven't put a foot on the track yet and I already feel like we're winners. I was really touched yesterday by the great turnout at our meeting, knowing how many of you planned to spend all 18 hours together, and your enthusiam for doing a good deed. I wouldn't vote any of you off my island :)

Amy, thanks for putting these teams together & the SuperDor's.
Angie & Erin, thanks for the cheese dip and munchies for the meeting (maybe you could make one of those again for race day?)
Cindy, thank you for your generous team donation.
Krystle & Karen, thanks bunches for the dream big bracelets.
Peggy, thank you for your fundraising motivation.
Morgan & Kelly, thanks a lot for handling the t-shirts and all the other jobs you've done to help us out.
All the other women who have donated your time and energy to make this event a success...Thank you, thank you, thank you!

30 women...18 hours...
There's no limit to what you can achieve if you don't care who gets the credit!

You're in my dreams,
Dor

What a great day!

Yesterday I spent the day in Seattle with my good friend Pam. We stopped at Pike Place Market for just a bit (so I could spend a gift card I got at my favorite kitchen shop) Then for an early birthday present Pam took me to see the traveling production of "Chicago". We loved it! The seats were great, the cast was great, the company was the greatest! Afterwards, we went to dinner at Cellar Bistro on Capitol Hill. The food and atmosphere were delightful. The weather turned out to be perfect. Pam never got lost :) Though I was a little tired by the end of the day (so was Pam) it was worth every second. Thanks Pammy!

Later in the evening (after a little snooze) we stopped in at my sisters "50th" birthday party. We saw some family and friends we had not seen in a while. It was a nice ending to a wonderful day.

Today "Doreen's Dream Team" members are gathering at my house for a quick little meeting. I'm looking forward to seeing all of them. I have some amazing people rooting for me. Thanks everyone.

All my love,
Doreen

Blast from the past!

Last night I enjoyed the company of 8 of my former cheerleaders. (For those of you who have forgotten...I had a brain lapse and coached cheerleading at SHS for 5 years...) Just kidding. I had a ball doing it! We met at a local restaurant and laughed about the past, talked of the present, and dreamed about the future. They really are a special group of girls-women (and parents) who I am forever grateful that they allowed me to be a part of their lives.

In our group last night we had 2 mothers (by the way Mel & Megan...I'm very proud of you) and a room full of successful, beautiful women. I never doubted your potential and you never let me down.

Thanks girls for the laughter, love and dinner. I loved it all!

Dream Big,
(SUPERSTAR) Dor

My reasons for living ~

After reading the postings of my daughters, thinking about my afternoon snuggle and talks with my son, and opening my eyes each morning to the love of my life, it is easy to understand why I'm going to fight this horrible disease to the bitter end. I am the lucky one. I've been given a heads up to remember to live life to its fullest. And that my friends, I intend to do :)

Dream Big,
1 month survivor of Stage 4 Lung Cancer
Doreen

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY

Let me be the first to say HAPPY 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY Mom. I truly believe you are healthier (mentally and physically) than you were a month ago. You no longer cough. You don't appear to be in pain. You seem to be at peace. You are overwhelmed with love. More importantly, you have an optimistic attitude and that alone will take you far. One month down... many more to go.

XOXOXO-
Amy

Becoming my mother

I want to share a story with you. Last night a wonderful friend of mine from Alaska called me needing advice. She was frustrated with her mom and they hadn't talked in days. She explained the events leading up to the argument and then told me that she feels guilty fighting with her mom when she knows what I am going through with my mom. After listening to her story for several minutes I proceeded to give her my recommendations on how I would handle the situation and then told her to call me back if she needed more guidance. She said that I had been extremely helpful and that she felt ready to work things out with her mom. After hanging up the phone I layed on my bed and thought about the situation for a while. I quickly realized that I had not given her my advice, I had given her my mom's. I had given her the words of wisdom that my mom had shared with me over the years about how to deal with people and problems. I had become the non-judgmental listener that my mom has always been with me. I taught her how to speak her mind without pointing fingers or putting blame on others. I have become my mother... and there is not another person that I would rather be!

I love you mom,

Angie

Overwhelmed by Love...

Hello Friends,

I know I haven't written much in the last few days, but that doesn't mean I'm not thinking about all of you. Today I went down to Eagles Nest to help place the order for t-shirts for "Doreen's Dream Team" and when I walked in the girls working there had on "Love Doreen" shirts. I nearly cried. My daughter and I went into the American Legion to drop off a packet for one of our team members and displayed all over the walls are "SuperDor" photos with kind words written on them from community members. I am very humbled by your love and support. There are no words to express my gratitude to you. So, instead, I send a hug and a smile. My husband, children, parents and extended family thank you for all you've done and continue to do for us. We will be forever grateful to this community and our friends.

Health Related Issues: I'm feeling great. No rash. Just very dry skin. I'm tired (but who isn't?) My cough is almost non-existent...I'd say the pneumonia is gone, but apparently I never had pneumonia. Now if we could just work on the cancer...

Hope to see you at the Relay for Life.

Dream Big,
Doreen

Time to step up to the plate....

I have attached a large amount of information for those of you who wish to write letters to our state leaders. Our family hopes to help others who may be facing the same battles with their insurance company that mom did.

Contact Information

Governor Christine Gregoire
Office of the Governor
P.O. Box 40002
Olympia, WA 98504-0002

Governor’s office (360)902-4111
Fax (360)753-4110

Congressman Rick Larsen
U.S. House of Representatives
107 Cannon House Office Building
Washington, D.C. 20515

Phone: (202)225-2605
Fax: (202)225-4420

US Senator Maria Cantwell
717 Hart Senate Office Building
Washington, D.C. 20510

Phone: (202) 224-3441
Fax: (202) 228-0514

US Senator Patty Murray
173 Russell Senate Building
Washington, D.C. 20510

Phone: (202) 224-2621
Fax: (202) 224-0238

Office of the Insurance Commissioner
To file a complaint: 1-800-562-6900

Or write to:

Rep. Eileen Cody
Re: Health Care
337 John L. O’Brien Building
P.O. Box 40600
Olympia, WA 98504-0600
Phone: (360) 786-7978

Washington State Department of Health

General questions regarding health care: 1-(800)-525-0127

Mary Selecky
Secretary of Health
P.O. Box 47890
Olympia, WA 98504-7890
Phone: (360) 236-4501

Rep. Steve Kirby
Financial Institutions and Insurance Committee Chair
432 John L. O’Brien Building
P.O. Box 40600
Olympia, WA 98504-0600
Phone: (360) 786-7996

Stanwood Area Representatives

Sen. Mary Margaret Haugen
407 Legislative Building
P.O. Box 40410
Olympia, WA 98504-0410
Phone: (360) 786-7618

Rep. Chris Strow
323 John L. O’Brien Building
P.O. Box 40600
Olympia, WA 98504-0600
Phone: (360) 786-7884

Rep. Barbara Bailey
405 John L. O’Brien Building
P.O. Box 40600
Olympia, WA 98504-0600
Phone: (360) 786-7914

Arlington Area Representative

Sen. Val Stevens
105 Irv Newhouse Building
P.O. Box 40439
Olympia, WA 98504-0439
Phone: (360) 786-1999

Rep. Dan Kristiansen
404 John L. O’Brien Building
P.O. Box 40600
Olympia, WA 98504-0600
Phone: (360) 786-7967

Marysville Area Representatives

Sen.Jean Berkey
103 Modular Building 1
P.O. Box 40438
Olympia, WA 98504-0438
Phone: (360) 786-7674

Rep. John McCoy
338 John L. O’Brien Building
P.O. Box 40600
Olympia, WA 98504-0600
Phone: (360) 786-7864

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komo4news.com

The following is a sample letter which may assist you in your letter writing process:

"I am writing to express my sincere concern regarding medical coverage decisions. I believe that a patient’s physician should determine what’s in the best interest of the patient. In particular, if a physician prescribes medication the person’s insurance carrier should pay for it.

I have recently become aware of a disturbing situation. A woman, not quite 50 years old, was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. Her oncologist prescribed the drug Tarceva that in the doctor’s opinion would increase her survival chances. Unfortunately, Regence Blue Shield (the woman’s insurance carrier) refused to pay for the prescription.

I find this decision appalling, because it not only undermines the authority of the attending physician, but also pronounces a sure death sentence on the woman.

We buy insurance to cover health care costs. The decision by Regence Blue Shield undermines the purpose of insurance. This woman has been paying premiums to Blue Shield for all of her working life and now that she needs the insurance Blue Shield walks away.

I would ask that you please do all in your authority to ensure that insurance works as intended: to provide coverage when it’s needed. In a person’s most desperate hours, when her very survival is at stake, the last thing she needs is for her insurance carrier to counteract her physicians. The physician’s job is to heal."

Thank you for taking the time to write your letters and express your desire for change. My mom got her medications approved but it was only because she had many people on her side. Please help our family make a change. If you have any questions please feel free to contact me at:

schmitt_12@hotmail.com

Angie